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everyone deserves to know someone who makes them go “!!!!!!!!!!!!” inside

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I love when court cases are called things like person vs. state because I like to imagine a single person fighting a whole state on their own out of sheer rage

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being mentally ill + suicidal at a young age (before 18) is. strange, because you grow up with this idea that one day you’ll finally snap, turn off, be brave enough to kill yourself, so you don’t really plan for the future. adulthood- further life, it isn’t for you, nor do you feel included within the future of it. it isn’t.. it isn’t part of your life plan.

and then before you know it you’re 18 and you’re an adult but you never thought you’d get this far and sure it’s great that you’re still alive you guess but also. you feel so alone + lost in a world you never expected or planned to be a part of.

Favorite Person™: *responds in one word answers, doesn't seem to enjoy being around me*

Me: incredible. I Love To Die

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History Lesson! Send some!

➀ : A memory that still makes me angry.

➁ : A memory that used to anger me but they've since gotten over or forgiven.

➂ : A memory that never fails to make me smile.

➃ : A story about me from when I was little, but that I only know from stories.

➄ : A memory that still makes me sad.

➅ : A song I used to love but now don't.

➆ : A song I used to love and still do.

➇ : A place I used to visit a lot but haven't for awhile.

➈ : Someone I used to be close with.

➉ : Someone I didn't like at first but do now.

○ : Other -- Ask any question about my past that you would like.

Espresso: Describe your usual morning routine.

6AM to 6:30AM – get woken up by your own mother hitting two plastic bottles together continuously & yelling at you to wake up for morning prayers (never did them)

6:30AM to 7:15AM – waste time in the bathroom to shower, wash your hair, soaping, cleaning your face etc.

7:15AM to 8:30AM – waste more time in bed watching youtube & surfing the internet

8:30AM onwards – depends if you fall back asleep & wake up in the afternoon or fight sleep to eat breakfast

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♔ - Do they value loyalty?

az’s idea of loyalty is something more than just sticking to someone’s side. it’s more of remembering that secrets are to be kept hidden and not only picking sides out of convenience. since he’s also someone who is somewhat still following religion despite not being too religious, he keeps his faith in it really strongly in his heart. being loyal and being diligent to it are two separate things, with the idea of committing yourself to something is what az lacks strongly in.

however, he keeps his passions and dreams of what he likes in his head. this is what he thinks loyalty means to him too. he believes he would be faithful if he’s in a relationship, just that commitment to being in twos sound really strange to him first since az is more of a loner.

so yes, az does value loyalty but if personal needs come first he will put them ahead before anything else to make sure he guards his own health.

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