Just not enough

22 | I just want to be finally pretty | 18+

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TW ED/DEPRESSION

Just block if you don't want to see my posts. This is the way to cope with my problems without bothering the only person who matters to me.

I can't deal with losing it, without my own decisions to do so.

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I don't have the amount of control I had as a teen

Now I eat whenever I'm bored, eat when it's time to eat, eat when I'm out with people, eat at work sometimes, eat to look and seem normal and then I binge at home even when my boyfriend is there.

Working out is hard. The motivation is not there, I'm in pain and tired from work, I can bearly clean the apartment every now and then and at least keep the kitchen manageable every day.

I've gained so much weight my body looks even more disgusting than before

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Hsgd update

Haven't lost any more weight. Actually binged a few times but I also started working out. Hopefully it'll speed up the weight loss

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First week of hsgd is over and I've not lost as much as expected. Binged twice this week but I'm trying to get that in control.

CW: 60kg

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Time to get skinny again

I have new motivation and amazing people to go through the hsgd with. I will reach back to 52kg by the end of July!

CW: 60.8kg

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Can someone remind me in the morning about the recret eating all day will make you feel in the evening? That'd be great 🙃

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This year I'll make it to my goal!

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Guess who's back and 4kg heavier 🙋‍♀️

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Day 21 of HSGD

Of course I had to end the diet on a binge... I'll be starting again tomorrow and this time I'll make it to 53kg. It won't be even a 1 kilo if I just don't binge

1452/1150

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Day 19-20 of HSGD

These were some of the best days on the diet. I fasted a day and stayed well bellow my limits. Also I've gotten under 54kg but I don't think I'll still lose enough tomorrow to get to 53.5

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Day 18 of HSGD

Went over again but I've been able to maintain which is okay. Tomorrow I'll be busy and active most of the day so I'm really hoping to lose some by the end of the diet

1075/950

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Day 17 of HSGD

Binged today 😭 not as bad as it could have been but I still lose all my efforts

1234/900

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Day 16 of HSGD

This time the day was pretty bad. I ate way too much pasta right as I hit 53.9kg today

1052/800

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Day 15 of HSGD

Pretty good day again 😊

929/900

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Day 14 of HSGD

Great day today, food and life wise. I might be getting a school spot and a job very soon after 2 years of nothing 🎉

1070/1150

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Day 13 of HSGD

Glad the days after my binge days are higher cal so I'm less likely to binge again in a while. Did pretty good today and hopefully tomorrow will be too

1004/1100

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Day 12 of HSGD

Absolutely horrible binge day 😭 hopefully I won't gain too much weight

1385/950