O B L I V I O N

[stay-close]

And it isn't that I'm so unhappy I don't want to live anymore. That's not what it feels like. It feels more like I'm tired and bored and the party's gone on too long and I want to go home. I feel flat and there doesn't seem to be anything to look forward to, so I'd rather call it a day.

— Nick Hornby, About a Boy

[pdmori]

[toomuch-taxing-formybrokenh-blog]

[bpdgotmelike]

it's getting bad again. i'm struggling to get out of bed, my room is a fucking mess, i can barely get myself to shower or brush my teeth, and have zero capacity to do the things i need to get done. everything is so heavy and i don't have the strength to carry it.

[abnormall]

i am overwhelmed and i just want everything to stop. just stop. just for a moment so i can think, so i can cry, so i can mourn but its so difficult because life just keeps going and my issues are piling on top of each other and suffocating me and i am so overwhelmed that i cant breathe. i hate this.

[bakwaaas]

logically I know nothing matters and everything is temporary but emotionally I am crushed by the weight of everything that has ever happened to me and ever will happen

[sadbitchhxx--deactivated-deacti]

[brokenflicker]

I'm tired.

[vexedhighness-deactivated202408]

WHY DO I RUIN EVERYTHING HOW DO I STOP RUINING IT ALL I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY AND STAY HAPPY

[brokenflicker]

I'm thinking about ending it again and i don't even care about the consequences, i just want out.

— my mind won't shut up

[beeturtlle]

We don’t talk abt the last time i posted here 

[eunnieboo]

flustered

[alma-robada]

Tu hija está triste, y no sabe cómo decírtelo. No sabe cómo hablarte de sus inseguridades, de su baja autoestima, de su ansiedad, de las horas enteras que se ha pasado llorando, de las madrugadas llenas de insomnio y de las culpas con las que carga. Tu hija está triste y no sabe cómo lidiar con ello. Tu hija se enoja, te grita y está de mal humor, pero en realidad intenta pedirte un abrazo, un consuelo, porque está triste y siente muchas cosas que no sabe como manejar, así que se enoja, consigo misma y con la vida. Tu hija se siente sola, inútil e incompetente. Tu hija le teme al fracaso y siente que lo único que ha hecho es decepcionarte. Tu hija no lo habla con nadie, lo mantiene para sí misma, pero sonríe incluso cuando quiere quedarse en la cama todo el día. Tu hija está exhausta de luchar, de intentar salir adelante, de intentar lidiar con todo; tu hija está constantemente preocupada, y come demás, y come de menos. Tu hija está triste, y tú no te das cuenta que ya no quiere seguir viviendo.

[x-i-l-verify]

Top 10 Scariest/Most Disturbing Video Games

(According to moi, of course, this is all subjective)

I’ve been wanting to make a post like this for awhile now, and since ‘tis the season for such things, I thought I’d better post it sooner rather than later. Without further ado!

10. Among the Sleep There’s something uniquely terrifying about a horror game told from the POV of a baby. The developers did a fantastic job of putting the player in the mindset of a small child, like making all the writing on objects appear as incomprehensible scribbles or making it be faster to move around by crawling instead of walking (which will make you fall over if you try to walk too fast), and all around conveying just how helpless and small someone that age is, which really helped the immersive factor. And when you realize what exactly is going on in the story and why such awful things are happening to our tiny protagonist, the game becomes that much more sad and disturbing.

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[kuuras]

☆ * ° ♠  Alice Madness Returns : W o n d e r l a n d  ♣ ° * ☆

“Ah, Alice. We can’t go home again. No surprise really. Only a very few find the way, and most of them don’t recognize it when they do. Delusions, too, die hard with memory. Only the savage regard the endurance of pain as the measure of worth. Forgetting pain is convenient, remembering it: agonizing. But recovering the truth is worth the suffering and our Wonderland, though damaged, is safe in memory… for now.”

[heireating]

                              GAME STARTERS VOL.1       ( ALICE: MADNESS RETURNS )     

❛ The past must be paid for. ❜

❛ Only the insane equate pain with success. ❜

❛ I’d like to forget what you did. I’ve tried, but I can’t. ❜

❛ Is it mad to pray for better hallucinations? ❜

❛ I know I’m guilty of something, but punishment hardly ever suits the victim of a crime. ❜

❛ You’ve used me and abused me, but you will not destroy me! ❜

❛ It’s not a dream. It’s a – memory. And it makes me sick. ❜

❛ I am fine. I’m not mad. I am innocent, I mean, —- not guilty! ❜

❛ I’ve not come back here looking for a fight. ❜

❛ Save myself? From death? I’m not afraid to die. Times I’ve welcomed death! ❜

❛ I want to forget! Who would choose to be alone, imprisoned by their broken memories? ❜

❛ Threats, promises and good intentions don’t amount to action. ❜

❛ We’re at risk here. You, be on your guard. ❜

❛ A secret is only a secret when it is unspoken to another. ❜

❛ How fine you look when dressed in rage. ❜

❛ The uninformed must improve their deficit, or die. ❜

❛ Authority must be obeyed, or it must be overthrown. ❜

❛ You shouldn’t ask questions you know the answers to, it’s not polite. ❜

❛ Make your survival mean something, or we are all doomed. ❜

❛ Memory is more often a curse than a blessing. ❜

❛ The real world is not so wonderful. You’ll need to grow up. ❜

❛ You look decent enough. But appearances deceive. ❜

❛ You are no help at all when I know you can be. ❜

❛ You’re as randomly lethal and entirely confused as you ever were. ❜

❛ I’ve managed without you so far. Return to whatever hovel’s home to you, I’ll call if I need you. ❜

❛ What? There’s no hope, then? ❜

❛ Failure as your epitaph? I’d hoped you were more courageous. ❜

❛ You are someone I once knew and loved. Time changes us all. ❜

❛ The malignant royal bitch still reigns. ❜

❛ I believe I know that way and I’d rather not travel further along it. ❜

❛ They are dead, and you should be too. ❜

❛ You misbegotten abomination! Murderer! You bloodsucking parasite! ❜

❛ You psychotic, hysterical bitch! ❜

❛ Come to receive your punishment then? ❜

❛ There is so little hope and if fear paralyses you we’re lost. ❜

[oblivion-is-calling-my-name]

Lo más poderoso de mi vida en este momento es la familia, lo que más amo es mi familia. Porque al final no somos nada sin ellos.

2 am thoughts

[catlovinglou]

i want to die everytime i wake up