the beginning of the rest of my life

I carved your initials into my heart like stone (secondary blog, ask for my main if you want)

[octoberforever]

To whomever this may concern...

Life gets better. For four years of my life it was wasted on this boy. A boy who couldn’t care any less of me. A boy who treated me like I was nothing. A boy who I finally gave up. After years of pain and heartbreak. I was FINALLY able to let him go. I let him go and I found the love of my life. A MAN who treats me like a princess. A man who does everything for me. A man who won’t let me lift a finger even if I tried. If I can do it, you can too. It just takes time. You too can get out of whatever hole of sadness you’re stuck in. Drop that boy who doesn’t give a fuck and find yourself a Matthew.

[octoberforever]

for so long i’ve told you i was going to be the first one to give up and you took it lightly. you thought that i would never be able to move on from you. i thought so too, but look i did it. it caused you to be so distraught. you couldn’t believe it. it hurt you so much that you HAD to leave. i’m so sort this caused you the pain you’re feeling. i never meant for it to happen. you just took to long. you pushed me away too. i’m sorry you couldn’t show me you wanted me before he did. i’m sorry that we can never be together bc of you. i did nothing wrong. and it sucks more now bc 10/18 is like two days away. i wish we could’ve spent it together one last time.

[octoberforever]

it’s still happening

[octoberforever]

I got a few responses from you. None of which were exciting lol

[octoberforever]

but she's doiiiiing it on purposeeeeeeee. For sure now everything she posts will be on purpose to fuck with me.

[octoberforever]

Lol, fuck. I can't complain or else you won't even consider being my friend again.

[octoberforever]

I'll make you fall in love with me again.

[octoberforever]

feeling low

[octoberforever]

just keep it cool for a few more days. I know that'll be difficult, but you can do it.

[octoberforever]

it is what it is

[octoberforever]

4:17

[octoberforever]

You PieCE Of sHiT

[octoberforever]

My dreams tell me to never speak my mind!

[octoberforever]

What has my life come to?

[octoberforever]

02.19.15

sometimes i get so sad that i don't have you in my life anymore. sometimes i wonder if we would still be together if he never came back into my life. would you still be in love with me or would you have ended it? did i save myself from a heartbreak that could've caused me to hate you or did i cost myself the future that i've always wanted? the future i wanted with someone who would've never given up on me, someone who loved me with their whole heart, someone who would've never put anyone else above me. but i honestly don't think we would've stayed together and things would've ended in a worse way if i hadn't did what i did. maybe me doing what i did DID save me from another big heartbreak. i couldn't handle you breaking my heart. you were so sweet and gentle towards me. i never saw you as someone who could hurt me. i still have so much love for you, but i guess i'm glad i did what i did. i'm sorry i'm a monster in your eyes. i'm so sorry i hurt you. i never meant to.

[octoberforever]

I had a dream I put that bitch in the hospital for being crazy lmao. I just kept messing with her and telling her things she didn’t wanna hear and then she started panicking and screaming and trying to fight me, until she finally decided to pass out from all the stress that was being given to her, loooool. so the ambulance took her and were going to admit her to the looney bin. i wish she got admitted irl 👀⚡️ then we wouldn't have to see yo ahh for a week. it would be the best week of my entire life!!

[octoberforever]

Dumb biiiiitch 😌😘⚡️⚡️⚡️💜💚

I ain’t going nowheeeere biiiitch. ⚡️🙆🏽and I’m sooo glad you hate me for that. 🖤🤘 You’ll never get your chance ever again bb, you lost it. 😂 You shouldn’t have acted so crazy, showing up to his house to see if he was home and then showing up to mine to see if he was with me. You’re a dumb bitch. 🤣 He wasn’t even yours. He was never yours. 😋 He was always mine and goooood I’m so fucking happy he’s made that clear to you, that I matter more to him than you do. He knows I care about him and not just about having a relationship with him. All you care about is winning that relationship back and throwing me out of his life bc you just want me to hurt. Well TOO FUCKING BAAAD BITCH. 😌 He’s never going to throw me away. I’m going to be in his life forever and ever!! If you can’t handle that then fucking stay out of his life and stay out of his way, you dumb bitch.🖕 I care about him and I love him for who he is. You know absoulutely NOTHING about him and all you do is cause problems anyways. So just do us all a favor and stay the fuck awaaaay. 🐍🤢🙄✌😘