lioness;

{ nikki | ♔ | isfp | feminist }

[okasho]

my last post sounds really alarming hello i am doing great lol

[okasho]

not a day goes by where i don’t lay in bed crying thinking abt killing myself? what the fuck??

and i feel like i can’t talk to people about it because it’s like i’m putting pressure on them to have their eyes on me 24/7, or just pretty much babysit me

i stay here for the people i care about but

i just feel like i can’t stop suffering and there’s no other way to stop it

[porterr-robinson]

[wishmaker-2]

https://instagram.com/p/BbeaEaKlmfK/

[okasho]

hi! i forgot about this blog honestly i couldn’t figure out my log in info for the life of me lmfao

[okasho]

ok i wasn’t complaining at first about my relationship weight going to my boobs but i’m getting so sore there and my back hurts a lot and i can’t fit size s bralettes anymore bc while width fits well the cups aren’t big enough to support my actual breats !  ! 1 11 !  !   !  i am in pain rn lol

[mjalti]

Im a real boring bitch! A snoozer! A low key homebody!!! I love loneliness AND privately trying to deal with emotional trauma!!!

[kissedbythevoid]

https://www.instagram.com/p/BEKP754wscF/

[okasho]

things still hurt and i don’t know why.

[fadingsuggestion]

Fuck anyone who says I have to forgive everyone, “for my sake.” I worked hard for this anger. I worked hard to love myself enough to hate them.

[vivid-ellipses]

Shit, yeah, this is a thing that is hard to articulate. Some people don’t feel healed by forgiving the people who hurt them, because that’s what they kept doing over and over and it only led to getting more hurt. Sometimes you feel healed when you’re finally brave enough to say “This person was horrible to me, and I did not deserve that treatment, and I don’t have to be okay with it.”

[yidan]

[realifedreamgirl]

always in the mood for u

[artistluv]

When the honeymoon stage ends what happens

…………

[ceraycarter]

You’re more honest with each other. Bodily functions are something to laugh about. Sweatpants and tee shirts are a regular thing. They know what you look like without all the makeup. Being “laid up and watching Netflix” is the only thing you’re looking forward to after work. You don’t go on fancy dates as often but you trade that for quality time. You find yourself being more vulnerable and you open up more. They become your best friend. You will able to talk about anything. You won’t be worried about impressing their parents, you’re just gonna love them anyway regardless of how their parents may feel. You will have inside jokes that no one else will get. Sex is not as often but, twice as passionate. Little fights will happen, but you’ll learn not to sweat the small stuff. You’ll learn what compromise really is about. You’ll dream about the future together. Grow together. Be on each other’s team. See their ugly crying face, and be the one to wipe the tears away & do something stupid to make them life. things are amazing after the honeymoon stage. However, it’s a time about giving up your walls and open up some doors you have locked a long time ago.

That’s why some people don’t make it past this point, because they don’t know what unconditional self-love means. Remain open and optimistic, love will never fail you.

[ceraycarter]

I love when this post resurfaces. It’s like a gentle reminder.

[llleighsmith]

someday someone is gonna be so soft and gentle with your heart, you’re gonna be so glad you kept it open, you’re gonna wonder why you ever thought about quieting it down

[okasho]

dawg i love u so much lmao wtf

[okasho]

9 months is a long time.

9 months of a healthy relationship and i couldn't be more happier. i have someone who crushes my worries like a bug, someone who's love is so soothing that i don't know what i've done to deserve it. 9 months of taking me step by step of forgiving myself and helping me grow as a person.

i didn't know i could love someone so much. i'm glad we have the ability to tell each other our worries and problems and opinions without a problem. i'm glad that we easily get past our stupid little problems even if the root of it is usually just my torres anger issues lmao. i just really love the relationship we've built bc he's the first person i go to tell when something good or bad or sad happens. i really didn't know i could love someone so much.

[okasho]

i go thru spiritual cleanses often like deleting most of my instagram and cutting off my hair