[musicalpalettes]

So many tragedies occurred over the past few months and because of these devastating events, I learned to treasure my life more. I realized life can be easily taken away. That each and every day of our existence is a blessing; a miracle. That every life should be cherished and cared for every second of the day no matter who it is you have to deal with. I pray for those who faced the adversity of loosing their loved ones from the incidences of shootings, bombing, earthquakes, and any other accidents. I especially pray for those who are still suffering and grieving in this difficult time. I pray God will find his way towards our nation and show us His grace to those who have never received it. I am thankful for my life and I will try even harder to do my best for those who could not.

[onethyls]

A moment of gratitude Tw ideation

Around this time like 4 months ago I felt like I had nothing and i was consistently battling with suicidal ideation. With what I was dealing with (and am still up against) in my real life I felt like I was in a time loop, battling myself to the point where I did not recognize myself or the ppl that I love and work with.

Id like to say that I'm still dealing with that (lol) but I am at a space where I'm attempting to manage my emotions better. I graduated. I've been attempting to get closure. Thank you to all the following people for being patient with me:

All of internet forum but especially odyv Karsten and jensen for putting up with impromptu mixes and moments where I just wouldn't send beats

All of wu2 especially Chris and crook, bryson thank you for always reaching out asking for beats since I met u

All producer and artist friends past and present

[onethyls]

my girlfriend still wont watch the show with me but it's okay cause I get to make all these references that she won't understand until We Watch The Show

[onethyls]

We're not together anymore but I still like this one

[kermitbread]

this week has been testing me. had to stop my dad from yet again threatening to destroy our house during one of his many temper tantrums, my phone that i use for literally so much important stuff broke so im just stuck with a temporary one i had to borrow from a friend, i have to worry about paying for the studies i need to do for my upcoming LET exam this year, worrying about what my grandmother needs, and now someone has stolen money from me yet again. this is so exhausting... im tired of being treated like i have it easy just because im able to earn something on my own. and stealing from me over and over again behind my back...

if you'd like, please support me over at vgen. im concerned about getting a new replacement for my phone and paying off review books and possibly travel and hotel fees for when i go to a review center far away from home to study for my exam, and getting another batch of that expensive adult's milk brand my grandma likes. it's to replace what was stolen from me, which was around 2k+ worth. im sorry for the inconvenience 🥲🥲

VGen

Ko-fi (if you just want to donate)

[kermitbread]

running a 10% discount on everything I have in my profile! Only available until near the end of this March

[kermitbread]

added some new stuff and brought back some old stuff! my comms are still open!

[onethyls]

Is this thing on? I had to reset my password. I wrote about a demo Laura Les of 100 gecs did like 6 years ago.

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3:30 AM. My brother keeps kicking me in his sleep. I'm listening to a demo from Laura Les that caught my eyes during 2021 when 100 gecs was really really cool. The Obsidian team changed the UI of the app. I'm still not used to change.

*How to Dress as Human* is subtle, yet raw in its delivery. The mildly saturated guitar, with the accompanying vocals, are very calming. I'm not very good at complimenting a song for what it is, but it reminds me a lot of *I Remember You* from Adventure Time in its chord progression and choice of key, and it overall feels like something Rebecca Sugar would've done when she first started her solo music career. Can you count how many comparisons and references I make when talking about music?

As for the lyrics themselves, I had picked up on them only slightly; I was in seventh grade at the time. Gender and the gender spectrum weren't a new concept, but it wasn't one I was certainly researching. Being on the computer a majority of my time allowed me to be ignorant of people's orientations and preferences to focus on common interests that we shared, and my parents aren't homo/transphobic, so I never had an issue of misunderstanding or attacking what I dont understand. But listening back, it allowed me to reflect a bit.

I've had friends, past and present, who have transitioned and have had their moments. Their moments where they feel like they're never going to pass as the opposite gender, but also moments where they feel *hopeful*. And the conversation was not that different from a conversation I'd have with other people.

And then after a couple of years, I listen to this song and think about all the times I've questioned myself in the mirror.

Questioned if this is how *every* human feels.

And the truth is, yes. Yes, it is.

Yeah the songs fucking fire i give it 10 out of 12 webkinz

[onethyls]

[slipofseventh]

[cft96]

Talia: how's life in Australia?

Thank you for your time

@onethyls

oc q&a's still open, feel free to ask either talia, lauren, or harper

[onethyls]

[kermitbread]

our family house where my grandmother lives has burned down last night and she's without a home now. every sentimental thing there is gone, everyone is thankfully safe without any casualties but hers is completely destroyed. the fire department got to the location way too late. my grandmother isn't in her best condition right now and needs constant care and support especially since she's now becoming senile as of late. rebuilding the house isn't our priority right now but getting the necessary things like food, clothes and medicine for her is more important at the time being because the ones that were stored away in the house also got ruined by the fire. the other house next door where i actually live with my parents and brother is intact but it's not exactly enough considering it's built for four people specifically, the destroyed house was larger and housed a few more of my relatives.

if you're able to, i have indefinitely opened some of my commissions, so please consider that too when you can! it's all just to replace some of the important belongings. we have some spare clothes to give but they're only a few pieces compared to the amount she owned.

as of posting this i'm still travelling back home from the trip i took so i can't respond to messages often until i get back, but i'll be diligently working on any of your commission requests as fast as i'm able to.

my vgen is here. i'm embarrassed to be making a post like this but this is unfortunately a horrific thing that happened in a blink of an eye to us.

[onethyls]

Look at lal those Drawrings!!!

[fawken]

Pearl playing bass is so cute that i could die

[fuckyeahchinesegarden]

autumn in jiangnan area, southern china

[bittersweetcandybowl]

⭐ BCB is on Patreon: join to read the upcoming page!  📕 New readers, start here.

[onethyls]

Celebratory deer wave

Go listen to in elsewhere Now. It's like everywhere. It's on audiomack.

[onethyls]

Clevatess really a crazy ass show because how did we just have a regular slice of life type episode and then we cut to a dude getting his head top toasted by a wizard who controls big ass bugs

[onethyls]