[winterskyfirefly-deactivated202]

Reblog to hug prev poster (they need a hug)

[painstarrrr]

Tryna kick my meds is making me kinda wild ngl

[painstarrrr]

I shoulda put my rant under a cut but fuck it we ball*

*(don’t know how to use tumblr mobile)

[painstarrrr]

K i figured it out, literally so easy

[painstarrrr]

I shoulda put my rant under a cut but fuck it we ball*

*(don’t know how to use tumblr mobile)

[painstarrrr]

K i figured it out so WL and BED rant under the partition

Since i became active on here, i have been in the most control i have ever been in my whole life (im almost 30). I feel like i have fought back against my BED and… maybe i’ll never be normal about food. But i have gained a shit ton of muscle and shed so much f@t. Clothes i wore in HIGH SCHOOL are FALLING OFF of my body. I havent been this weight since i did kayla itsines (WHO REMEMBERS) and weight watchers concurrently after a break up when i was 19!!!!! (That is 0 for 3) That was 10 years ago!!!

Like deep inside im fucked up but it feels good to be in a body that is more accepted and less “obscene.” It’s like im living a different life. People treat me so differently. It’s FUCKED actually. Cuz i was never really big. I have lived in a straight sized (size 4-8, s-m) body and still my body wasnt good enough. I wish this shit didn’t matter!!! I wish food wasnt engineered by evil companies go give us @ddictions and BED. I wish we just could all have access to normal healthy food. I wish losing didnt FEEL SO GOOD. BUT IT DOES.

[painstarrrr]

Just barely still in 120’s jail 🥲 but i also weighed myself in my clothes at work in the middle of my shift…AND i take creatine sooooo

[sahlesummerhill]

[girltalk]

[painstarrrr]

Painstar is attempting to self-taper off of lexapro

[painstarrrr]

Ive dropped so much wt, my clothes are falling off of my body. I look in the mirror and see what i have always seen. When will i look different to myself? When will i be satisfied. Im so tired

[ttreffa]

Enchantix!

[kietai5]

I got got pls help

[sizzlingcandyj3llyf1sh]

the whole “only eat foods with ingredients you can pronounce!!” thing doesn’t mean much to me because I’m generally pretty good at pronouncing chemical names lol

[painstarrrr]

I’m almost out of 120s jail 🥹🥹🥹 please clap

[painstarrrr]

Logging back in….my moots have all probably all nuked by now

[painstarrrr]

Hello mutuals! I think i am gonna log off of tumblr for a little while. Im okay, i am just thinking i wanna try spending less time here

Luv u all!!!

[painstarrrr]

I want the addison rae jean shorts i fear