Heartbreak. I donât think anyone can prepare you for the immense pain you will feel when it happens to you. You literally feel like youâre dying and that your life is over. You cry for hours at a time and it just wonât stop and itâs all you can think about. Canât even listen to sad songs because they leave you in a puddle of tears. You go from sad to angry to alright back to sad in one day. It is an emotional roller coaster. You try to bargain with God. You text them and get to the point of practically begging. If they see how hurt I am they will want to fix this. Everyone tryâs to give you encouraging words. âIt will get betterâ âyou will love againâ and my all time favorite âall that works is timeâ you are craving for someone to tell you something to make it better. And you donât believe anyone when they tell you those things. You think im gonna be this destroyed forever. You look online at articles and save quotes on how youâre feeling. You look at how to get your ex boyfriend back. But a point comes when you have to just stop. You have to put down the phone because most likely whenever you text them there not gonna say sorry and that they fucked up and that you can go back to normal. You just end up getting more hurt. So block him from everything. There are days when you reach for your phone and want to text him so bad but donât. Write it down, cry it out and give it 10 minutes cause I guarantee youâll feel a little better. I donât care if youâre at work go to the bathroom and let it out whenever you need to. Youâll go from crying for hours straight, to maybe 10 minutes a day. Which doesnât seem that great but it means youâre slowly getting better. You have to put one foot infront of the other each day and believe me I know how tough it is. Youâll have days where youâre sad all day and youâll have days where youâre in a pretty good mood and donât think too in depth about it. Instead of a constant ache all day it will only sting some and not be as bad. Little pieces of yourself will start to come back. Instead of being a crying zombie. Youâll start blasting that music in your car and singing along. Youâll listen to love songs and belt them out and not cry. Youâll finish a season of a show you guys used to watch and it wonât hurt to watch it. Youâll go out with a friend and laugh and not think about him. You can think about him and not burst into tears. You will have days where it stings like a bitch, but silence says more than anything. In reality Iâm betting you tried everything you could and itâs sad but at least you gave it your all and itâs just time to stop no matter how much you donât want to. The memories will fuck you up like no other but thereâs no going back, you can only move forward. Because if he wanted to contact you he would. I had to learn that the hard way. Itâs a tough thing to accept. Because one day someone WILL come along and wonât do this to you. I used to get irritated when people would say only time will help, but Iâm finding out it is true. Make yourself leave the house for a few hours and hang with a friend, or go by yourself shopping. I never believed it would get better, but Iâm finding out that it does get better a little at a time. I went from crying 3 hours a day multiple times and trying to text him to crying 10 minutes a day if that and not reaching for my phone at all anymore. and I shouldnât have to beat myself up anymore for someone who doesnât care and isnât doing the same for me. Because i realize I am worth so much more than that and so are you. You shouldnât have to beg someone to love you, thatâs not how itâs supposed to be. âDonât cross oceans for people who wonât cross puddles for youâ
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