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30s - she/her - personal account

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friend: is there a konbini around here?

me: you know what, i actually think there's one on this row...

stranger who overheard us: yes, there is one.

us, taken aback: oh, thank you!

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conference’s coffee was so shitty i bought coffee to drink at night and risk fucking up my sleep schedule again 😗

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so i recently drank my 2nd cup of coffee of the day at night and my colleagues asked me if that wasn't gonna fuck up my sleep schedule and hahahaha

hahah

HAHAH

guess who doesn't have to worry about that problem anymore? 🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙃

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every now and then i will miss old-school blogging (the kind where you overshare about your personal life and worry about your fwends not reading about it) which

prompts me to look up my old blogger.com and wordpress and dreamwidth posts which

makes me wanna start old-school blogging again which

gets me thinking if i should continue in the old blogger.com or wordpress or dreamwidth blog or start afresh which

has me overthinking like what if someone i know irl somehow finds out i'm old-school blogging and reaches out to me about it and asks me about it and talks to me about it and laughs at me about it and makes me uncomfortable about it which

will convince me to just brush the idea off and tell myself to post here on tumblr instead which

plot twist the contents of this post and the structure of this post and the lack of uppercase letters of this post are basically how i used to blog which

means i'm old-school blogging right now......

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my period is so late that my tracking app stopped predicting when it would come this round. it’s almost 2 weeks late now and counting.

not sure how concerned i should be? can’t remember the last time it was this delayed.

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might have manifested last dinosaurs and bad suns to tour together but i don’t think i can go?!?! 🥹

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it’s not even 2pm and i’ve finished two cups of coffee how to make it through the rest of the dayyyyyyyy

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half amused and half mortified that the cashier really asked for my id when i was buying some alcohol as a 30+ year old it really went down like

cashier: you have to be 21 and above.

me: yeah i know, i am.

cashier:

me:

me: oh you really wanna see my id?

cashier: yeah.

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losing my hair more and more each day because i’m a working adult it’s so hard to live in a society 😭

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brews the same coffee at home but somehow it tastes better in the office like why

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conference’s coffee was so shitty i bought coffee to drink at night and risk fucking up my sleep schedule again 😗

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didn’t think it was possible, and didn’t think i would care, but i’m finally old enough to notice how cringe i’m coming across to younger people

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having a hard time agreeing to disagree cause of my ego and i hate it here

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i wish jealousy wasn’t a thing.

so when i revel in a good feeling, i don’t immediately get scared about other people around me who wish it could’ve been them.

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learned something after i slept for 9 hours yesterday instead of the usual 5, so now i’m like: how to motivate self to sleep longer hours every night search google

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colleague: why so blue today? (genuine concern)

me: as usual, not getting enough sleep i guess (courtesy laugh to try and end the convo)

colleague: (starts listing down reasons why i could be tired and giving suggestions on how i can fix my sleep, unironically)

me:

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it’s been two days since, but i can’t stop thinking about:

colleague: are you sure you want to decide on the surgery and follow-up therapy so fast?

cancer survivor colleague: yes. because i plan to live and accompany my husband till we’re 90 years old.

bless you both 🫶🏼