seasick

[petal-winters]

10:56 pm

I feel like one day it will be a distant memory The way she laughed and the whole restaurant turned to watch I thought they’d look judgmental, but instead they all laughed with her I wish I had that kind of power To make the sun shine a little brighter Just by being

[petal-winters]

Sometimes a candle that smells like cookies your mom would bake on a Sunday morning or the texture of a blanket you had growing up Sometimes the sounds of a song familiar to home

reasons to keep living

[timotaychalamet]

“Rudeness is merely an expression of fear. People fear they won’t get what they want. The most dreadful and unattractive person only needs to be loved, and they will open up like a flower.”

The Grand Budapest Hotel (2014) dir. Wes Anderson

[petal-winters]

i thought i would be better by now

[petal-winters]

does anyone ever need a break from life so bad they're willing to do anything to get it?

[petal-winters]

when I see you I still get butterflies and I can’t help but search for meaning in the twinkle in your eyes or the dimples in your cheeks or the way you say my name which I never thought I liked until it rolled off your tongue because before you I felt like I was drowning and after you I feel like I’m drowning but in a way that makes me feel like I might be alright

j.c.

[petal-winters]

losing sleep to spend more time talking to you

[petal-winters]

I wonder if he is telling her that he loves her, that she is beautiful, that she makes him feel seasick, but that he’s begun to like the feeling of knowing he will not drown. I wonder if that will be enough.

she is his umbrella and he is her storm

[petal-winters]

8:54 pm

all the 11:11 wishes in the world don't matter anymore when you realize she's the one he's dreaming about and you're the one he's forgotten

[petal-winters]

should I kill myself or take a nap: the novel

[petal-winters]

sleep is like dying without the commitment

[petal-winters]

6:26 pm

life is way too much sometimes and I can’t decide if I’m so happy I could burst or I could just burst and I don’t know if it matters and I don’t know if I’ll ever stop believing in the way your eyes look at the moon and the way I wish they would look at me but all I know is I’m alive I’m alive I’m alive

[petal-winters]

how strange and lovely it is to be anything at all

[petal-winters]

5:59 pm

death doesn't scare me anymore but instead reminds me of the warmth of a summer evening and the laughter that I've all but forgotten death doesn't scare me as much as tomorrow wake up wake up wake up

[petal-winters]

12:22 pm

thinking about if you love and hate him becomes even harder when you realize he doesn't think of you at all

[petal-winters]

12:04 pm

I deserve better I deserve to not be crying over a boy who barely knows who he is and doesn’t need me to help him figure it out

I deserve better I deserve to not hold his hand as he piles up girls as easily as empty promises

I deserve better I deserve to not let a text or a smile or a twinge in my heart define if I am worthy

I deserve better than to care when caring is the last thing on his mind as he kisses a girl and dreams of another

[vikhau-deactivated20160119]

Monet #56 // i need the world to know