Hello! I'm Pixel or Noah, 21 years, and I'm a writer! I use He/Him pronouns, and I am trans (FTM). I'm very much an introvert and really shy !
This page is mostly welcome to everyone! Although I am a bit bad at picking up social cues and tones in messages, therefore I highly recommend using tonetags with me !
I am mainly a K-Pop nerd, mostly specified in Stray Kids, but I also love me a good Star Wars movie run. I also love MCYT and am a big watcher of the Hermitcraft SMP. I'm a lover of nearly all genres of music and not afraid to give a new band or a new person a listen. I love exploring music and talking music with people who are likeminded !
I'm mostly new to tumblr, but I'm figuring things out !
As I said, I am a writer, and I mostly write fanfiction (member x member) for Stray Kids, I have written fanfiction for 8 years, and I don't plan on stopping anytime soon, although back then it was mostly for other things which is now long gone. I posted my first work in the STAY fandom on 9th December 2025 which you can read here (Minors DNI + Beware that it isn't my greatest work) !
I'm currently getting back into writing slowly, especially after the long break I had from 2023 to 2025 !
My likes are:
Cats, Stray Kids, Star Wars, Evanescence, MCYT and music !
My dislikes are:
Loud noises, winter (the season), bigots and fanwars !
Requested a lovely collage by @cosmicluvrrrrr for my upcoming new fic, Flip The Script, which is a hockey au!
All credits go to @cosmicluvrrrrr
PLEASE DO NOT REPOST.
'Flip The Script' is an explicit hockey au based in South Korea, with completely new and made up teams, leagues and players. It features all eight members of SKZ, but the main focus is, of course, our lovely rivals, Minho and Jisung.
It's still in the process of being written and thought through, so many decisions are going into making this fic and I personally want it to be perfect.
âŹâ.Ë Pairing: Minho x Jisung (Minsung)
âŹâ.Ë Genre: Punk-flavoured enemies to lovers | eventual smut
âŹâ.Ë Chapter Warnings: Heavy cussing throughout. A bit of angst. LOTS OF MUSIC TALK. I feel like I should also warn that it's all very British.
âŹâ.Ë @vinylovervirtue is the RP acct that runs in tandem with this fic
âŹâ.Ë Authors Note: thank you ENDLESSLY to the Minsung Courtiers, for the encouragement with this fic. I genuinely don't think this would have ever left the "brain fart files" if it wasn't for you guys. Thank you for your crash outs, your fic fuel flavoured photos and for your asks. I love you all stupid amounts.
âŹâ.Ë Word count: 5600
âź Welcome to Safety Scars HQ âŹâ.Ë Track 2 â
Track 1: Born to be ODDinary
It is a universal truth, that people are dicks.
Jisung had been told this philosophy seven years ago by his best friend Felix, and, well, it was as true then as it is now.
People, specifically the prick wearing the counterfeit Nirvana t-shirt standing in front of him, are dicks.
The man wags his finger like a magic wand, jabbing with the fervour of someone who believes indignation is a spell powerful enough to make Jisung crumble beneath the weight of his consumer outrage. Yet another millennial, clearly still grieving the Hogwarts letter that never came, now conjuring so-called entitlement from thin air.
âYoung man,â he says, again, because once apparently wasnât enough, âthis is outrageous. Iâve been shopping here for years and never had to deal with such ridiculous rules.â
Jisung blinks, deliberately slowly. âRight. And Iâve been breathing air for nineteen years, doesnât mean I get to tell the atmosphere what to do.â
The man sputters. Actually sputters. âExcuse me?â
âYouâre excused,â Jisung says, his patience wearing thin. He leans a hand against the counter. âOur policyâs on the sign. And also on the receipt. And also on the website. And also, if you tilt your head to the left and squint real hard, in the air itself.â He gestures vaguely upward. âSee it? Floating between the fluorescent lights and your oversized sense of entitlement?â
âI paid forty-five quid for this, and now youâre telling me I canât return it?â
Jisung leans forward, elbows on the counter, and gives him another long, slow blink. âNo. Iâm telling you you can return it. You just wonât get a full refund because itâs scratched to hell.â
âI only played it once.â
âOnce, twice, or ten timesâyou couldâve used it as a dinner plate for all I know. The point is, thisââhe taps the edge of the record sleeveââis no longer in a good playable condition. And our return policy doesnât cover... user-inflicted vinyl violence.â
The man gasps like Jisung just accused him of clubbing a baby seal.
âI handled it carefully!â he insists, incessant, indignant and insufferable.
Jisung raises an eyebrow and flips open the sleeve with the delicacy of a surgeon. He makes a show of inspecting it, for the second time. The record inside looks like it had been used as a frisbee with an over excited labrador in Greenwich Park. He holds it up, turns it toward the light, and makes a soft, sympathetic noise. âDid you handle it with a fork?â
Fake Nirvana Dude opens his mouth, probably to launch a counterattack with the full weight of his LinkedIn profile, but doesn't get the chance.
âHey there!â Felix appears out of nowhere, all sunshine grin and weaponised customer service voice. âEverything okay here?â
FND blinks at him.
The Felix Effectâą, turned up to full volume for the customers pleasure⊠or pain. Jisung watches it hit with the force of a dropped amp.
Felix is what you'd get if Tinkerbell learned to snarl and shacked up with Yungbludâhalf-up dirty blonde hair, part braided, metal glinting from every piercing: ears, snake bites, attitude.
Heâs in a red and black tartan skirt and a sleeveless black biker jacket, the leather worn and weathered, shoulders weighed down with hanging chains and safety pins like war medals. A small pansexual pride badge sits pinned above his heart, unapologetic and gleaming.
Black eyeliner wings out from his eyes, so sharp it could slit throats, and heâs got that lookâlike he could kiss you or kick you, depending on the beat of the next song. The perfect personification of punk rock, swaggering across the floor like he invented anarchy and dressed for the funeral.
If he wasnât wearing his platform biker boots, heâd be almost one head shorter than Jisung.
But itâs his voice that seals itâthat slow, subterranean bass that hums more than speaks, the kind you feel in your chest before your brain can catch up.
Jisung watches FNDâs face twist like his ears are scrambling to process the frequency, and he canât help the smirk tugging at his own mouth.
âAre you the manager?â FND demands the second Felix steps up to the counter. âI want to complain against thisââ he waves a hand at Jisung as though heâs trying to determine whether heâs even human. Jisung grins at him, waiting. âthisâboy!â Â
Jisung is disappointed on behalf of FND. If youâre gonna be a dick, at least commit to the bit.
Felix pulls a sad face, bottom lip pouting, âNo. Sir, I am not the manager, but perhaps I can assist you?â
Jisung palms the vinyl that FND had brought into the shop and slides it over to Felix. âHe would like a refund.â
Felix carefully lifts the record, then frowns at it. âSir,â he says, with the weary patience of someone spiritually overqualified for this nonsense. âWe cannot give you a full refund for this. Itâs been badly damaged. Best I can offer you would beâŠâ he hums thoughtfully, considering. âTen percent of the original cost and hope someone whoâs a fan of the band would purchase it to use as an art and craft piece.â
Jisung, vindicated, grins at FND.
âThat is how it was sold to me!â FND bellows, all red cheeks and bluster.
âThatâs funny,â Jisung says, his patience on the floor now. âWasnât what you said five minutes ago.â
âYes it was!â
Jisung inhales, ready to launch a scathing âNo it fucking wasnâtâ when Felix says with perfect calmness, âNot a problemâIâll just review our CCTV and clear this up,â he grins, all Hellâs Angel charm, pointing overhead at the dummy camera staring blindly down at them.
FND blinks up at it, then at Jisung as he makes a noise like a broken hoover. He snatches the record from Felixâs ringed hands with the grace of a toddler mid-tantrum in Tesco.
 âIâm never shopping here again!â he declares, as though this were a threat and not a blessing.
âOkay!â Felix calls after him, cheerfully. âHave a nice day!â
âHave the day you deserve!â Jisung chimes in sickly sweet.
Felix elbows him playfully.Â
With all the grace of someone who believes âHardcoreâ is a yoga class, FND sweeps his arm deliberately through a display stand, sending a hundred tiny vinyl band badges, patches, and stickers clattering to the floor in the worldâs saddest percussion solo.
The door gives a cheerful ding-dong! as he storms out.
He tries to slam it for good measure, but the soft closer ruins the drama, dragging the door shut with an apologetic shhhh-thunk.
Jisung watches the door for a beat, then sighs. âSomewhere, Kurt Cobain is spinning in his grave fast enough to power a small village in Yorkshire.â He pushes off the counter, muttering, âIâll get the badgesââ
But Felix is already moving, and crouched beside the display, carefully scooping up a tiny Bowie pin. His tartan skirt kissing his knees.Â
âGo take a break,â Felix says without looking up. âFind something inanimate to kick. That usually makes you feel better.â
âI swear to God,â Jisung grumbles, dragging a hand down his face, âif one more Camden wanker in a Nirvana tee going through a midlife crisis tries to gaslight me about scratches, Iâm gonna eat a drumstick. Raw.â
âDonât diss Camden. You know I like that area.â Felix grins as he scoops fallen badges into the folds of his tartan skirt like it's a makeshift kangaroo pouch. âBut Iâll find you a drumstick. Chicken or percussion?â
Jisung chuckles a little at that.Â
Felix looks up at him, his smile falling for a moment. He gently squeezes Jisungâs calf. âYou okay?â
Jisung inhales, twisting his silver thumb ring. âNot really,â he admits only because itâs Felix asking and itâs hard to lie to him. âBut Iâm okay enough not to punch a fake Nirvana fan, so I guess thatâs growth.â
Felix beams up at him. All sunshine and glitter. âProud of you. You didnât even mention the shirt was counterfeit.â
âBecause Iâm, like, so mature now.â
âMature and petty. Just the way I like you.â
âȘ àŒâ
Outside, the air is cool and crisp, biting at his skin like itâs trying to remind him heâs still alive. Jisung drags in a lungful, lets it out slow. The city smells like wet pavement, petrol fumes, and the sugary ghost of fresh buns from Greggs up the road. A scooter backfires. Somewhere, a siren wails, reminding him that someone is having a far worse day than he is. He stares up at the sky. Solid grey, as indifferent as the Northern line at rush hour.
âFucking cunt,â he mutters.
Jisung gives a cursory glance before crossing the road, only to get honked at by a black cab overtaking a double-decker. He flips it off. Cabs are allowed to use the bus laneâwhat the fuck's his deal? Is it officially wanker Wednesday? The cabbie shouts back at him, but Jisung is already moving, dodging a Deliveroo cyclist with far too much energy for eleven a.m.
He makes it to the other side, probably with the same relief the proverbial chicken felt.
His mustard plaid overshirt flies open behind him like a warning sign, Converse slapping pavement with every step, one of them held together with what might be hope and a safety pin. His black beanie pulled low to tame his curling hair, hoodie layered under a faded band tee.
Jisung waves a half-hearted 'morning' at the kiosk worker, who returns it with a knowing nodâthis day already sucks for both of themâbefore pushing open the door of his second favourite haven.
The bell above The Book Nook and Brew dings softly. The sound is almost Pavlovianâhis rage already starting to melt with the smell of old pages and fresh espresso.
Warm light pools over mismatched armchairs, worn with stories, and tall shelves stacked with dog-eared books, patiently waiting. There are lamps here and there, everything soft and cozy. It feels like a dozen sitting rooms smooshed together, that perfect mix of personal space and great service.
The farthest wall, drawn with years of sharpies, is a wall of quotes, where readers can add their favourite lines.
Without thinking, Jisungâs eyes flick to the one he scrawled there two years ago, half-faded now under newer layersââSome people never go crazy. What truly horrible lives they must lead.â
~ Bukowski.
He hadnât read it for the poetry or the heartbreak, or even the punkish bite of it. Heâd read it because Seungmin had lobbed the thing at his head one day like a brick.
âIf you can read, which is debatable,â Seungmin had said, nose buried in something posh and quiet. âTry this. Maybe itâll humble you.â
And Jisungâout of sheer bloody-minded determination to prove him wrongâhad flopped onto the counter right there and started reading out loud. Dramatic voice and all. Hamming it up for the customers who looked at him with a mixture of amusement and displeasure.
Two pages in he stopped reading aloud. It had taken, like, twenty pages before he stopped pretending it was awful. Forty before he stopped snarking entirely.
By the end, he'd been curled on a beanbag by the poetry shelf, sleeves over his hands, the rest of the shop forgotten.
Heâd added the quote to the wall the next day. Tiny letters, almost hidden between a Shakespeare sonnet and a Terry Pratchett pun.
And now, every time he walks in, his eyes still find it first.
And every time, right after thatâhe finds Seungmin.
Seungmin looks like a librarian in an apronâyoung, but with that quiet maturity only good parenting can be blamed for. His apronâs slightly wrinkled from hours behind the counter, but his posture is effortlessly straight, like heâs been standing in this space for years, watching the world spin from behind the espresso machine.
Heâs wearing a soft white cardigan that looks like it was loved by a granddad once upon a time, but Jisung just knows itâs his favourite.
âWho pissed you off this time?â Seungmin asks, already reaching for a cup.
âSome twat in a fake Nirvana shirt tried to return a record heâd clearly wrestled a cat with.â He drops onto a stool, drumming his fingers against the wood.
Seungmin snorts. âDid you let him live?â
âYes. He actually did the world a favour. It was the kind of record that mere ownership of wouldâve gotten me thrown out of any self-respecting venue.â
He drapes himself over the counter with a melodramatic sigh, fingers idly tapping a beat only he seems to hear.
âYou canât just wear the shirt and not feel the noise. Punkâs not fashionâitâs memory. Itâs blood in the cracks of a basement floor.â
Seungminâs eyebrow lifts, but before he can comment on Jisung being lyrically morose again, Jisungâs already moved on.
âAnyway. Felix intervened before I could thump him just to feel better. I think heâs officially earned sainthood.â
Seungmin starts scooping ice into a cup like heâs preparing holy water. âSoâregular iced Americano, two shots of vengeance?â
âMake it three.â
He sits up when Seungmin thwacks him with a cloth.Â
âMinnie,â a voice calls from the far end. âAnother espresso for table four.â
Itâs practically impossible to stay mad around Jeongin. The soft ginger hair, the dimples, those annoyingly earnest eyesâhe radiates a âyouâre-happy-just-looking-at-meâ energy. Itâs like a fucking superpower. Especially when he laughs.
A grin tugs at the corners of Jisung's mouth as Jeongin appears around the corner, balancing a tray of used mugs.
âOh dear,â Jeongin says, deadpan. âWho did what, when, and why?â
Jisungâs a little peeved that his face is apparently that easy to read.
âFake Nirvana. Scratched-up record,â Seungmin summarises. âNo alibis required this time round.â He adds, to Jeonginâs disappointment. âYou taking something for Lix? Or is this a âwoe is me and my egoâ visit?â
âFirstly, fuck you, I'm a delight,â Jisung says. âSecondly, gimme one of those yellow cake thingies he likes, since he stopped me from committing customericide.â
Across the room someone covers up a chuckle with a cough.
Jeonginâs already at the display, tongs snapping like castanets. He lets out a low giggleâwarm, stupidly contagiousâthe kind that makes you smile before you realise itâs happening. If serotonin had a sound, it would be his laugh.
âHowâs my tab looking?â Jisung asks, with the air of a man who already knows the answer.
âRed,â Seungmin says. âWoefully red.â
âDon't at Swift in my direction.â
Seungmin sighs. âShall we just pretend that you didnât make the reference all by yourself?â
Jisung is absolutely going to pretend. âI will pay you back. Next cheque.â He draws an X over his chest. âScoutâs honour.â
Jeongin nods toward Jisungâs crossed fingers behind his back with a grin that crinkles his eyes.
Seungmin, knowing him all too well, arches an eyebrow and slides the drink across the counter. âYou got kicked out of the Scouts, because you lacked honour. The whole thing with the frogââ
âThe frog was unharmed.â
âThe leader broke his arm!â
âI didnât know he had a fear of frogs.â
Jisung stabs the cup cover with a straw like itâs personally offended him, then all but snatches the paper bag from Jeongin as he rises to his feet.Â
âThese are on the house though, right?â he asks as he heads back to the door. âThanks sweetie! Love you! Bye!â
Jeonginâs laugh follows him out, bright and bubbling like he canât help it. âPay your tab, you gremlin!â
âȘ àŒâ
Late afternoon spills into early evening, golden light pooling across the counter and stretching long shadows through the rows of wax. The shop has quieted, bringing with it, the kind of silence that hums beneath your skin.
From the back, Felix is humming something vaguely hostile while he clatters through closing duties. Probably Slipknot, something with blast beats and spite.
Jisung leans on the counter, chin on his palm as his finger skims the delivery list for next weekâs second-hand drop. The printed names blur. The usual suspects: Thriller, Rumours, Purple Rain, Born in the U.S.A., Jagged Little Pillâgood albums, sure, but theyâre everywhere.
Until one catches: London Calling by The Clash. A grin pulls at the corner of his mouth.
That gritty, raw energy. Exactly the kind of thing he puts on when the world gets too loud in the wrong way. Like silence pretending not to care.
The Sex Pistols. Buzzcocks. The Damned. Heâs always had a taste for sharp edges. The classic cuts.
Sometimes, heâll put on Joy Division or The Cure ânot for the bite, but for the ache. A different kind of raw. A bruise instead of a blade.
Heâs not immune to the newer stuffâheâs spun Arctic Monkeys until the vinyl wore thin, played Fontaines D.C. on rainy mornings like they were gospel, let Loathe seep through his headphones like smoke through a crack in the wall.
He respects a sound that bleeds. Stuff that echoes his own mental soundscape. Bad Omens. Sleep Token. Motionless in White. Bring Me the Horizon. Music that screams back the thoughts he too often gets lost in.
But older vinyl? It doesnât just sound different. It hears different.
You drop the needle and it crackles like it remembers the first time it was played. Like itâs been waiting for someone who just⊠gets it.
Heâs surrounded by records all day, but most of them lack bite. Too polished. Too careful. Curated specifically for mass appeal. But his shelves at home are a homage to the great and the good and the underappreciated.
London Calling would belong there. Now that Jisung thinks about it, it has always been missing and he just hadnât noticed the silence it left behind.
He checks the notes: VGC. The store's asking price is a little steeper than heâd usually go for (fuck his job for not giving credit or discount) but still doable. If he doesnât spend money on things he needs... like food.
But Seungmin wouldnât let him starve for the pleasure of reminding him of that fact. And if he really pushes it, Felix will probably bring over leftover takeaway and act like it was Jisungâs idea in the first place. And Jeongin would slip him under the counter brownies if Jisung pouted and made his eyes big and sad enough.Â
So, with one housemate who feeds him out of spite, one best friend who feeds him out of denial and another out of pity, whatâs the harm?
He chuckles, drawing a little star next to it. It will be his. In just one week.
âȘ àŒâ
Record shops are funny things.
There was a time when they were packed to the rafters. Back when vinyl was king and music lived in grooves you could touch. Then came tapes. CDs. MP3s. And after that? Streaming.
By all logic, record shops shouldâve died out completely.
But they didnât.
Their comeback didnât start with the old boysâthe ones whoâd been rocking out at basement gigs before Jisung was even a twinkle in his motherâs eye. No, it was the purists who brought them back. The ones chasing the crackle, the buzz, the imperfections. The ones who believed music should be felt as much as heard.
Itâs the same reason vloggers are trading in their smartphones for chunky old camcorders.
Purity.
Or maybe just aesthetics.
Over the years, Jisungâs gotten pretty good at telling the difference.
And heâs betting his collection that The Guy lurking outside the door is an aesthetics guy the moment he lays eyes on him.
Polite version? He looks as out of place as a suit at a basement gig.
Crisp white shirt. Tailored trousers. No jacket, but the gleam of metal at the cuffsâcufflinks. Seriously? Â The lack of a tie somehow makes him look more put-together, not less. Like a cologne ad whispering timeless elegance in a sultry French accent. Pretentious and definitely flammable.
The man tilts his head, glancing up at the signâWax & Wane, like heâs trying to decode a riddle. Or maybe he's just aware he doesnât belong, but curiosity got the better of him. That kind of intentional pause. Like he lost a bet, and is debating whether he has to follow through.
Jisung narrows his eyes.
Definitely one of those âCheck out my record collection, babeâ types. Probably here to buy a vinyl heâll never play, just to impress someone who thinks owning a turntable is a flex.
The Guy reaches for the handle. He doesnât immediately combust. Shame.Â
Ding-dong.
Jisung exhales sharply and straightens up behind the counter. Here we go.
The Guy doesnât head straight for the counter. He hovers for a moment in the centre of the store like heâs getting his bearings. His eyes flick over the records, then land on the far wall. And thatâs where he headsâpurposeful, like he knows exactly what heâs looking for.
Which⊠doesnât fitâŠ
The far wall is the heavier section. The classics section. Jisungâs preferred section. And thisâŠguy is tarnishing it with his starch.Â
Jisung leans, craning his neck around the poster-covered pillar to keep him in view. He looks a little taller than Jisung. Broad shoulders straining under that shirt. His hair is a silky, almost-black brown that moves like liquid when he shifts. Not too long, not too shortâjust the kind of cut that says I know what Iâm doing, but Iâm not trying too hard. Heâs got this presence, like heâs carved from marble, every angle and line too perfect to be real.
He flips through the records, each movement graceful but deliberate like heâs someone whoâs done this before. He shifts slightly, the last vestiges of sunlight hits his face just soâ
And Jisung feels it. The glow. The sharpness of his jawline, the slant of his cheekbones, the way the light catches the edges of his featuresâitâs like someone took a sculpture and made it breathe. Itâs fucking ridiculous.
The Guy flicks through more crates. Moves on. Again. Like heâs looking for something specific. Probably some album his date casually mentioned, all giggly and preppy, with lipstick marking their glass of wine, âOh, I love this song!ââand now heâs out here, after a stressful day sitting behind his computer looking at markets and what-not, trying to curate the perfect moment. âLet me play you something I think youâll like.â
Jisung rolls his eyes, exasperated by the whole routine.Â
Ugh. Men.
Somewhere out there, a girl is waiting to be impressed by a man just like this one who thinks The Smiths are a personality and a turntable is the ultimate in home decor.Â
Jisung cranes a little too far, the stool beneath him tipping dangerously. His heart skips a beat as it wobbles, but he slams a hand down on the counter keeping himself from toppling over.
The Guy looks up at the sound of Jisungâs stool slamming back to the floor, beside Jisungâs pride.Â
âYou alright?â Felix calls from the storeroom.
âYeah. Good,â Jisung answers instinctively. Scooping up his dignity, now slightly bruised, and pulling himself together. Thank everything, that pillar is between him and The Guy.Â
He pushes off the counter with a sigh, doing his low-paid duty as he makes his way over to The Guy, whoâs still flicking through records, so damn intentional.
âCan I help you?â Jisung asks as politely as he can, though heâs thinking, You look lost mate.
The Guy startles, blinking like Jisungâs voice snapped him out of a trance. Andâwell, fuck. Upclose heâs gorgeous.
Itâs not just that heâs attractive. Itâs the fact that Jisungâs body reacts before his brain can process it. Heâs got the kind of face you want to study for hoursâperfectly sharp, perfectly sculpted, with dark eyes that seem to see too much. Lashes that belong on a fucking painting. A nose so sharp, it could cut paper. A bow-shaped mouth that somehow manages to look soft and dangerous all at once. Itâs the kind of beauty that makes Jisungâs breath hitch without meaning to. His head goes dizzy for a second.
The Guy doesnât hesitate. He turns back to the records. âYeah, Iâm looking for a record,â he says, his voice steady and casual.
âWell, we have those.â Jisung winces at the weak response, but he doesnât have a better one. âUm, the popular section is over by the window.â
The Guy almost smiles. A slight quirk in the corner of his mouth. âNevermind.â
The word lands like a slap. âIf you donât want helpâthatâs fine.â Fuck you.Â
The Guy looks up at him, âThe album, Nevermind. Nirvana?â
âOh.â Of course. Nevermind. The vinyl equivalent of a starter tattoo. Fucking hell. Why couldnât he just be ugly? âEnd crate.â He leans against the shelves, forcing himself to focus as The Guy goes to the last crate and starts flipping through records. âYou donât seem like a Teen Spirit guy.â
The Guy doesnât even look up, just continues thumbing through the vinyl. âIâm not. I prefer Breed.â
Jisung is fucked.
His stomach tightens. Breed. Are you fucking with me right now? Thatâs the track heâd throw on when he needed to release some angerâraw, honest, relentless. Not something youâd expect from someone who looks... like this.
Okay. Okay. So heâs got taste.
Or⊠heâs just good at the gameâŠ
Jisungâs lips twitch into a smile, but he canât let it go just yet. Heâs got to test this guy, right? Heâs not just going to throw around one name and impress him. Impressive as it is.
âBreed huh?â Jisung says, tone sharp but playful. âWhat about Lithium? You canât just like one side of the record.â
The Guy responds like itâs nothing. âLithiumâs good. But the real heart of that album is in Something in the Way.â
Holy shit. This guy knows his stuff. Heâs not just some clueless jerk looking to impress. He knows the layers. The emotion. Jisung folds his arms. He canât help it. He needs to push a little furtherâfor the sake of his pride.
âAlright,â Jisung says, feeling the pressure. âWhat about the deeper cuts? Like Blew or On a Plain?â
The Guy looks back at him now, those dark eyes, all liquid, glinting with a hint of amusement. A ghost of a smirk pulling at his lips.
âI can appreciate On a Plain, but for real, Blew is where itâs at. Thatâs the one that gets to the heart of the sound. The rawness. No filters.â
Well, bend me over right here, right now.Â
âBut, that was on their debut album, Bleach. Not Nevermind.â He turns away, focussing back on the crate.Â
Jisung has to actively tell his brain, to tell his jaw to close, which it does with a clack of teeth. Heâs not used to being outclassed in his own turf, especially not by someone so⊠effortless about it. Is this guy even real? Felix doesnât know half this shit, and theyâve been working here for three years. Excluding the three years before that where they basically made this place home on the weekends.
This guy? Is pretty fucking cool. Not just the knowledge of music, but the confidenceâhell, the swaggerâto back it up. And here Jisung is, struggling to keep his thoughts straight.
Not that heâs ever been straight.Â
The Guy speaks in the direction of the vinyl, âI had an accident with my copy the other week, and I want to replaceâha!â He snatches out a record, blue cover with a baby boy underwater chasing a dollar bill. âThank fuck.â
Heâs already walking towards the counter, wallet in hand.
Jisung blinks in confusion, genuinely forgetting that this guy canât buy anything without him. He follows after him, wiping his palms on the back of his jeans, and slinks behind the till. He starts ringing the order in. âYou couldâve found a copy of that online,â he says.
âDonât trust it,â The Guy responds, glancing over his shoulder with a faint smile. âLast record I ordered looked like my cats had been using it as a scratching post. And I prefer original presses.â He picks up a set of new turntable needles from the counter and adds, âI like the selection you have here. Iâll have to come back when youâre not about to close.â He nods to the shuttered window.
When the fuck did Felix do that?
The Guy looks down at the pamphlets on the counter, lifting one and reading from it. âHowl Night at the Lunar Lounge?â
âOh, uh, we, the store, sponsor open mics and underground bands. Um, non-mainstream stuff.â
âSounds cool.â
Jisung fights back a smirk, âDonât think itâs your scene.â
And The Guy arches an elegant eyebrow at him. âIs that so?â
Jisung has an unbearable urge to check the state of his own hair.
âIâm not sure your Gucci shoes will appreciate the sticky floors.â Jisung doesnât bother hiding the up-and-down look he gives him. âYour turntableâs safer. Trust me. Less vomit.â
The Guy reads the pamphlet with interest. âHeadline act: Safety Scars,â he reads aloud. âAny good?â
âOh yeah.â Jisung leans on the counter, arms folded, feigning nonchalance. âNot a lot of original songs, but they hit the scene swinging.â
The Guy glances over, curious. âIf you had to compare them?â
âTo another band?â
He nods and leans in slightly. Fucking hell, he smells good. What is that? Something expensive definitely.Â
Jisung pauses, considering.
Safety Scars arenât mainstream. Not even close. No videos, no interviews, no bullshit. Just grainy clips of spare room practices and the kind of vocals that sandpaper your spine. You didnât stumble on them by accident. You had to look. You had to know where to dig. They were the band talked about by those in the know.
Theyâd started on Soundcloudâjust raw, furious coversâand then, slowly, a few originals slipped through the cracks, like weeds in concrete. Jisung couldnât explain what their sound did to him. Not properly.
But it got in.
Right under the ribs.
Deep.
Especially the two songs written by their drummer, Bunny. Both tracks hit like bruises blooming under skin. Soft. Aching. They made Jisung feel seen in ways he couldnât articulate.
Not that he ever, or would ever, say any of that out loud. Not even to Seungmin, who didnât mind when Jisung got emo about stuff. Definitely not to Felix who would probably punch him on the arm and call him a sap.Â
The Lunar Lounge would be Safety Scars first ever proper live performance. And Jisung had been counting down the days that he would see them live. For their first official live.Â
âUm. If I had to describe their soundâŠâ His eyes flick toward the ceiling like the right answer might be stapled to the pipes. âTheir kind of a bastard child between The Misfits and Joy Division, but spends the weekends with Metallicaâsipping beer in the garage with Arctic Monkeys.â he shrugs, âPunk with dark, atmospheric depth. Raw, fast, sweatyâlike a pitbull in a leather jacket. No polish. Just punch.â
 âNo polish, just punch?â The Guy nods with a downturned smile, pocketing a flier. âSo not like Nirvana then?â
Jisung laughs at that. This guy wouldnât get it. âKurt said himself that Nirvana was a punk band that wrote pop songs. Aside from the skill of their drummer. No. I wouldnât compare Safety Scars to Nirvana.â Jisung starts punching buttons on the register.
âYou think their drummer is as skilled as Dave Grohl?â
Jisung nods. Confidently. âHe is for sure up there with the best of them. Are you paying cash or card?â
âOh, cash.â He pinches his earlobeâJisung notices itâs slightly pink and thereâs definitely a hole there from an old piercing. He opens a wallet fat with notes.
Of course. Itâs such a power move. Yes. I have money. Look at it.Â
âSo youâve seen them perform before?â
âNahâthisâll be their first official performance. Iâm buzzing to see them live. Theyâre still starting out, so they predominantly do covers, but they have a few of their own which are pure fire. Thatâll be ÂŁ68.99.â
The Guy is already pulling notes from his wallet, silently counting them out beside the delivery manifest. âYou have a favourite cover?â
âOh, well now⊠um⊠maybe Love will tear us apart byââ
âJoy Division.â
âYeah.â
The Guy nods, smiling like he doesnât know heâs lethal.
Fuck. That smile should come with a warning.
Jisung was not prepared.
âThatâs not really a punchy song though, is it?â
âThe way they sing it, it still hurts.â
âYou like songs that hurt?â
âI like songs that make me feel things,â Jisung says and as soon as the words leave his mouth, the heat crawls up his neck. He doesnât fucking know this guy. Why the fuck is he blurting this shit out at him.
The Guy blinks, clears his throat, takes the record and the needles, dropping cash on the counter without a second glance. âKeep the change.â
 Jisungâs not sure whether he should be relieved that The Guyâs leaving, or disappointed that the whole thing was so... brief.
âHave a nice day!â He calls after him.
The Guy doesnât glance back, just raises a hand loosely over his shoulder.
And with the ding-dong of the door, heâs gone.
Jisung exhales. Stares at the empty doorway for a beat too long. Hand still holding the cash.
âWho the fuck was that?â Felix leans halfway out the storeroom, like he teleported in on gossip-sensing radar, eyes flicking to the door, then back to Jisung. âWho were you wishing a nice day to? You never wish anyone a nice day!â
As mentioned at the start this fic would not have left my drafts without the support of the Minsung Courtiers: @blueohs @shipwithnocaptain @0sunshinecryptid0 @splittergheist @kaelavee @thebibleophile @soechangbinsrightboob @azraelyz @pixelisthename @platypusundercover @they-reap-what-we-sow <3
â§âËâàŒâ§âË. Side pairs: Seungbin, Minsung & Jeongchan !
â§âËâàŒâ§âË. Main tags: Strangers to Friends to Lovers, Flower Farm, Fluff and Angst !
â§âËâàŒâ§âË. Main vibes: Cutesy, fluffy and feeling all kinds of good !
â§âËâàŒâ§âË. Small note: there will be talk about heart diseases and general medical things.
Description:
As the son of a flower farm owner, most people would think it wasn't as lonely. They were wrong, of course, and Felix wanted something new in his life so bad. He thought of moving to the big city for a bit, until his father got sick, and he eventually would have to make sure his parents still had money incoming.
Hyunjin was a lonely painter, someone who used to live in the big city and wouldn't recommend it to anyone. He finds a job announcement for a flower farm and doesn't hesitate to take the offer. Moving into the farm as a form of thank you for the help, he meets a same aged man, and suddenly all his sketches become about him.
They spend time together, and Hyunjin is welcomed in as one of their own. However, Felix can't help but look at Hyunjin differently, almost like there was something more behind all of this.