You are already loved more than I will ever be able to put into words. You are the greatest gift I have ever gotten. I’m witnessing all of this tragedy around me, yet I cannot stop being hopeful for our future. We’re gonna be just fine my little bean. Momma will do everything in her power to protect you.
I won’t lie to you little one, momma’s had a rough go at life. I’ve made my fair share of mistakes and plenty of people are doubting me, doubting us, but I promise you with every fiber of my being there will never be a day that goes by that you will not know that you are loved unconditionally. There will never be a day that I don’t wake up and try for you. I promise to be your biggest fan and proudest supporter. I promise to always choose you. I promise to show you fierce love, kind love, healthy love. Momma’s not perfect, I’m sure I’ll mess up, but I promise you with everything I have I will always make you feel heard. I will always help you see how wildly brilliant and capable you are. I will lift you up every second I possibly can. I will be that voice in your head that lets you know everything is going to be okay, because believe me I know what it’s like to have people’s voices bring you down instead of lift you up. I will support you no matter who you choose to be or what you choose to do. I will try to understand you on your bad days instead of making them worse. I will sit with you in silence, I will scream at the moon with you, I will hold you while you cry. I will be your safety and I will do everything to make sure you never doubt that for a second.
All I ever needed in my life was to be believed in. All I ever needed was to be heard. All I ever needed was kindness instead of harsh, angry words. All I’ve ever wanted is to give you a love you never have to question.
You aren’t even big enough to kick yet, but you are most definitely kicking my butt. I hope you stay this fierce your entire life. I hope you have my resilience, but I hope you never have to use it like I have. I hope you have my brain. I hope you have Daddy’s patience because you definitely do not want mine. I hope you have all of the best qualities of me and Daddy combined. I’m sure you’ll be stubborn, we both are, but that isn’t necessarily a bad thing. No matter what happens along the way, I promise you that both of us love you fiercely and will always protect you. You will ALWAYS have both of your parents, together or not, without an ounce of bitterness.
You have changed my world bean.
Nothing in this universe matters more to me than you and nothing ever will.
As long as I’m living my baby you’ll be.
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