super secret true account

no one I know irl is here and nothing can be more freeing🦦

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I’m not well, but I’m not sick.

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There’s no one here who even fucking cares. Why do I keep posting?

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Last year kinda fucking sucked. Why did I think it ever got better

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It just got worse in more mature ways

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Last year kinda fucking sucked. Why did I think it ever got better

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can’t I do something this summer that doesn’t require skill but isn’t just sitting around doing nothing. I’m sick of it

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I feel so stupid

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I don’t even like either of them anymore. I think it’s because they’re stopped liking me at all, and I feel stupid that I ever thought that they thought of me as more than a friend.

How I long to be their friend now.

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I dread the future, I fear the past, and I am wasting every second of the present.

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I fear that my past mistakes will catch up to me

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I feel as though I have no place in the world

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this has all gone on for too long

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I give up

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what was it all even for?

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I feel sick.

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I feel sick I don’t know what I want

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I’m desperate to change but I can’t think of anyone in the world that I would like to be

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I don’t know how I feel