With Eyes Wide Open and Trembling Hands

I'm a chaser, to put it simply. Buddhist beliefs but Native and Jewish communities. I know who I am but not where I walk. I'm just a little too addicted to linguistic anthropology, Pokemon, Harry Potter, and Brand New.

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"Loneliness is the result of an inability to communicate how you really feel. You can't be seen by another if you don't make your true self visible."

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Nothing to see here, just documenting my fave pics of us from the past month. V much looking forward to adding to this collection !

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Some people just take your life by storm and if you're willing to get weathered and shipwrecked, they could redirect you to paradise.

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Like, I'm prob not gonna die from this, but living sure as hell ain't easy anymore.

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"What matters is not how long we live, but how intensely we feel that life is a gift we repay by giving to others."

- Rabbi Lord Jonathan Sacks

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bold of me to get so upset when a guy doesn't like me when I don't even like guys

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Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that and living alone won't either for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to live. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart, you are here to be swallowed up, and when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.

- Louise Erdrich

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Mandatory post is mandatory

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Seizure-like activity: not as cool as it sounds, folks. Can verify, 0/10, would not recommend.

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It's wild to me to see that "cohousing" is becoming a trendy, anti-establishmentary thing to do, like "omg you *don't* need to be married to live together, it's so beneficial and supportive and radical to live with other people without being married and you can do it too!"

As if Indigenous folks haven't been doing this for literally thousands of years until the Western world called us heathens for not being "married" by their standards and imposed their monogamous marriage systems onto our cultures, smdh.

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Note to self: when you are grieving and homesick, it's not the best idea to go to an international conference where you are either alone or stuck with someone that frazzles you immensely.

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It's honestly been a summer of looks and I just want to pay homage to these fashion and makeup choices bc I've never been the person to do this but I'm loving it so a hearty hell yeah to me

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Annual reminder of what I look like. This shirt is lyfe.

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I loved him, and then it was no more. I replaced him, and then I remembered what love was. I said goodbye to him, and then I loved him again.

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I like, really love this cat.

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Currently playing the game Is It The Drugs, The Head Trauma, Or Is It Love?

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UPDATE: it was the drugs lmao

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Look frens, I cut the hairs