DreamEater

My real name is Princess but you can call me Ssapril or Raven. In this profile, I just want to share my insights and thoughts to random people of this galaxy.

[princessofintroverts]

Arts is use not just to entertain. It can also become your voice to express your thoughts or feelings. You can especially use it to educate people.

Ssapril

[princessofintroverts]

I present to you, DRUKKARI in sims form.

[princessofintroverts]

Everyone’s talking about how heart breaking Makkari’s wail was when Druig was thrown by Ikaris but have you seen this? Look at our Speedster’s face. This is really heart breaking for me. She’s losing her family. She thought she lost her love. 

Lauren deserves an award. I love her.

[princessofintroverts]

All this time I thought I wanted someone who'll listen to me but I realized they also need to BELIEVE me.

Ssapril

[invictusmaneo-deactivated202109]

Heya, how are you coping without a new HSMTMTS ep tonight?? I’m so sad. Any good fic recs??? I miss all of my friends!

Hi hi hi !! Thanks so much for the ask, anon!! I think I'm doing pretty okay! Obviously, I miss our chaotic cast and it's been strange to not wake up at 4 am every friday and immediately watch the newest episode, but I've been too busy getting ready for school to actively miss it. Plus, the whole hsmtmts fandom is crazy talented and they've kept us all fed with cast content, gifs, fics, artwork, and everything else you can imagine (thank god for content creators) !!

I absolutely do have fic recs!! These will mainly be portwell just because that's mostly what I read. Hopefully the list below provides you with plenty of reading material! Clicking on each fic's title should lead you straight to the story for ease of access.

(Disclaimer: every portwell writer is crazy talented however so the list doesn't get too long I'll only be providing some of my absolute favorites. Let me know if you want a pt. 2 and I can definitely get that for you! Especially since I haven't read a lot of the newer fics due to having no time whatsoever)

This Summer's About to Get Hot by Sparky_Young_Upstart - "Buckle Up Wildcats! Summer is gonna fly by before you know it. What kind of drama will the East High kids deal with (or create) in the few months between school years? Catch what you can between all the games/parties/trips/break-ups/make-ups/sweaters/etc."

All I Really Want by AintItFun21 - "Big Red was interrupted by EJ. - “Gina’s never gonna go out with you.”

Ricky lifted an eyebrow in challenge. “Oh really, you wanna bet on that Caswell? Fifty bucks says she does.”

“Sure, I’ll bet on it, Bowen. Only make it a hundred that she doesn’t. And for it to even be considered a date there has to be a kiss at some point during said date.”

Ricky thought for a beat. “Does it count if the kiss is at the end?”

“Sure, why not.” EJ was certain it was never going to happen, so it didn’t make a difference.

“Fine, you’re on.” The boy responded, holding out his hand. EJ took it, shaking on the bet.

Big Red shook his head. “Guys, I don’t think that’s such a good-“

Howie patted the boy on the shoulder. “Naw Biggie, my man, let’s just wait and see how this plays out."

Let the games begin." (Everybody shut up its 90's Teen rom com!portwell and im obsessed)

Field Trip 2.0 by phoebenpiper - "The Wildcats decide to take a 2nd field trip to North High...this time to view their production of Beauty and the Beast. What could possibly go wrong? Set prior to S211."

Joy and Risotto: A Wedding Toast by taygeta - " Jamie Porter makes a wedding toast at E.J. and Gina's wedding. Takes place ten years from present day events."

a second chance is all by brennreads - " some glimpses of ej and gina"

don't forget where you belong by prtwell - "“Hey, hey”—he reached for her hand—“who says this is goodbye?” At the end of his sentence, he squeezed gently, as if to remind her that he was still beside her. That he hadn’t left yet."

speak up (i'm losing you) by ElixirBB - “I called my mom after E.J. bailed.” Gina says. “She didn’t answer, and I shouldn’t be surprised but she hasn’t even called since and I left her a message and I just don’t…” she takes a shuddering breath, “I just wanted my mom.”

Gina lets out a sob, her body shuddering with her cries. “Why does no one stay? What is so wrong about me that everyone leaves?”

********

OR: A brief interlude of heartbreak."

watch it go round and round each time by ReeceGrayson - “Hey, we’ll always be friends, right? Even when you’re in some bigshot university and I’m still in lowly East High.” “Duh, of course, what—“ he sputtered out. “Gina, I lo–, uh, care about you a lot. You couldn’t get rid of me even if you tried.”

That was two years ago. Things had definitely changed in the time E.J. and Gina spent apart."

underneath the lights by ReeceGrayson - " Something is brewing in between the Wildcats’ Menkie’s rehearsal. Or, Gina and EJ can't stop staring at each other when the spotlight isn't on them."

subtext by lovelyserpentines (ironicsopsychotic) - "ej’s scared of getting hurt and so he winds up hurting gina instead. she doesn’t understand why, right up until she does. no one makes ej caswell second-guess her feelings for him. not even her brother. // 212-speculation bc ej's a nervous lil baby who disregards all the previous romantic subtext"

Sweet Gestures by TeamWonderstudies - " Gina Porter has always wanted to be with someone who provides her with endless, selfless Sweet Gestures to show her how much they love and care for her…little does she know that that someone was right In front of her the whole time

Aka The Four Sweet Gestures she receives and the one she gives."

My Heart, Home and Free by mindgrapes - "Miss Jenn makes a bold casting call for ‘Beauty and the Beast’. A retelling of season two filled with antics, teen angst and, nerd alert, the power of friendship!"

Granola Bars and Granular Details by taygeta - "Ashlyn finds out that EJ likes Gina"

i got you, babe by ElixirBB - " He doesn’t know how it started but the whole, hey, babe turned into, this is a level five on the uncomfortable scale, please help and risotto turned into, get me the fuck out here and fake a death if you have to, but definitely put me on speaker and sob, on the uncomfortable scale. Their system is still a work in progress.

*****

AKA: The four times Gina and E.J. faked being in a relationship and the one time they didn't have to."

Let It Go by redlyncentral - "The Wildcats are back from summer break and better than ever, ready for whatever the new year has in store, especially, for what musical their theatre teacher has planned for them for their fall musical (spoiler alert, it's frozen!)"

loving you is habit-forming by ElixirBB - " She startles, giving him a bright smile and snatches the granola from his hand, slipping it up her sleeve. “Alright, babe. Let’s do this.”

He lets out a laugh and follows her, like he always knows he will.

*******

In which, E.J. is hopelessly in love with Gina and Gina loves that he stayed."

things we know by heart by AlwaysSleeping - "On his 4th grade report card, his teacher wrote, “EJ is polite, friendly and caring to his classmates. However, sometimes he can lack observation skills”.

8 years later, not much had changed about EJ Caswell. He still had his bright smile and compassionate nature, but his ability to recognise the obvious could sometimes be shaky.

5 times the people around him realised EJ was in love with Gina, and 1 time he realised it for himself."

Kismet by chocolatesouffle - " Of chance meetings, moments of clarity, and wonderful surprises at the airport."

we just keep on getting better by prtwell - " "Uh, I actually"—he shifts the gift bag in his hand to reveal another—"got you something as well."

It’s a red bag, neatly stuffed with white tissue paper. Hanging on one of the ribbon handles outside of the bag, is a tag that reads her name in EJ’s usual clean handwriting. And it’s for her.

“I thought it’d be rude to show up without something for you. I mean, we were in a very serious fake relationship.”"

Everyone Sees by chocolatesouffle - "Their friends watch them when they're too busy watching each other."

Thank you again for the ask !! These are just a few of the fics I've read and bookmarked as faves (literally i still had another 2 1/2 pages left) so if you want more recs just lmk!!

[princessofintroverts]

Citizens treated with VIOLENCE will ATTACK.

[princessofintroverts]

An Artist Says...

I saw the same faces

Wearing their own disguises

But I'm still here

Standing true and clear

It is suffocating everytime I breathe

Having not said the secrets that I've kept

I speak my lines and exited

As if I never existed

Maybe I was made to be isolated

But I will not stop until you are captivated

I have my own words, I have my own song

Here I am now, I am not alone

[princessofintroverts]

Why is it so difficult to live? (A Pandemic Confession)

Back when I was younger, I used to think that life is boring and easy. If you really want to achieve something, there will always have a way to get them. Hard work, skills and perfect timing would be enough, but as time goes by and I am growing older, I realize that formula wasn’t enough to achieve what you want. Sometimes, you need luck. Why so? There are people in this world who are born with a silver spoon in their mouths while, there are kids out there who cannot even eat in a day because they are in poor country with no proper health care system.  I am one of the victims of this imbalance. I am really sorry about this rant but this is my story.

What is life? I don’t know anymore. I’ve been experiencing anxiety and depression for more than a year now and this pandemic worsen it. I was an actor specifically for theater maybe two years ago but I decided to put it on hold because even though I am earning money, it wasn’t enough for my whole family. I needed money for food, bills and other needs. Yes, I am a breadwinner and I am proud of it. I was able to support my family for more than two years after I graduated college however, things went wrong when my grandmother died. We have to  leave the house where we are living because my grandmother’s relatives needed to sell it ,( of course because of money). This is the time wherein I decided that I have to step down from my passion. I have to find a job wherein I can earn more. It wasn’t easy to leave something that you love but sometimes you have to make sacrifices. I got a job that wasn’t that difficult. I became a data analyst. I easily get the hang of it ‘coz I am a fast learner however my emotional and mental state got affected in the worst way possible. Latter on, my body became sickly, maybe because of the changing shift schedule. My body isn’t just fit for that. Many nights, I would go inside the restroom and cry during shift hours, sometimes not knowing the reason why I feel sad. I don’t also eat much because everytime stress comes up, I would go to the restroom and just vomit the stress away. Now, I feel like the restroom is one of my best companion from that work.

Months after, I am not getting any better but I have to continue working ‘coz it was a stable job and I am earning more than enough for myself and family. I was able to save a bit of money but my older brother got into an accident and my younger brother was accused of a crime that he never did.I helped them with all my might and voila!,  all my savings just vanished after that. I felt so lost that moment, I feel like I am cursed. I feel like I was bound to be at the bottom. I tried so hard to get a better position in my project/job and I did. A year after, I was able to climb up a bit. I thought things would get better for me but the management in my project messed up big time. Almost everyone in that company wanted to leave because of poor management and their treatment of people,  from the tasks, schedules and also the perks that we should be receiving. Everything became mediocre that time.

Last February, I decided to leave the company and pursue again my passion ‘coz I wanted to regain what I’ve lost. I’ve lost myself during the time that I spent my time in that company. I did not grow, maybe skill-wise but not mentally and emotionally. My emotions and sanity is very important to me. I wanted to go back from where I was before my grandmother died. Back when things are a bit easier.

I was supposed to have my first theater show but this pandemic happened. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I feel hopeless and useless. I am trapped. People are telling me that this is just a phase of life, a chapter that will be over soon but where am I exactly? I am so tired. Exhausted to the core. I thought I am stronger than this but I am not getting anywhere. I am trying to find things that I should do. Many people around me including friends are selling online and some of them are trying looking for a job that they are not used to do. I feel bad for all of us. No one knows when all of these is going to stop. This is not us but we are forced to become someone we are not but on a positive side, we are able to explore, perhaps.  Today, we are seeing what are the things that we could do if we are left with no choice.

 PS

If you also wanted to share your story maybe we could make a thread and try to talk things. Maybe we could help each other out.

[princessofintroverts]

Sometimes, it is easier to say "yes" than to decline something because you don't want to explain yourself why you do not want that something.

Ssapril

[princessofintroverts]

Why don't you just do it?

[sarahnesthetic]

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

Self Care

1. Consciously teach yourself to relax, and practice relaxation as soon as you feel stressed.

2. Pay attention to what you eat and drink.

3. A warm shower or bath can help our muscles to relax, and can help ease the tension in our body and mind.

4. Talking with someone who accepts us as we are – and is nonjudgmental – is highly therapeutic.

5. Recognise that there are things that are outside our control – and there are some situations that we simply cannot change.

6. Reward and indulge yourself with things that you enjoy so you feel respected and valued as a person. (For example, buy some clothes you love, or get your hair and nails done)

7. Make an effort to establish and maintain a work/ life balance. You need to make time for your hobbies, and to hang out with your friends.

8. Organise your time, and prioritise your tasks. You’ll feel a lot less anxious if you get things done on time.

9. Recognise that you have limits and enforce your boundaries. If you live with too much pressure you will end up overwhelmed.

10. Keep a sense of humour – smile and laugh throughout the day.

[introvertunites]

If you relate to being an introvert, follow me introvert unites.

[princessofintroverts]

Emotions

I once posted that my body is too slow for my brain but recently, I just realized that my brain is delayed in recognition of my emotions.

[yaoi-blcd]

SQ 189a

Update from Tan Jiu, translated by Yaoi-BLCD.

yaoi-blcd general chatroom / Their Story fan chatroom.

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[femaleidols]

selfish + lyrics 🐠

[byulyi]

Byul being annoyed by Yong being so fucking loud 😂

“UNNIE!!!!!!!!! UUUUUNNNIEEEEEEE!!!!!!”

[princessofintroverts]

OWO