Queen of Contemporary

Part time Dreamer. Full time Queen. Acts like a grumpy hedgehog. And vibes to Lee Taemin since the start of the time.

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Puppy on a night sky <3

I've made it for Happy pets challenge 2022 :)

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This years last drawing post I guess. I've made a quick study of Euphoria poster. <3

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the gang™

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I loved this one so much. Boo in specs + my beloved An Ode Tour photos…

His vibe is totally the aurora to me. It feels like sweet and soft hug from your bestfriend on a chilly air.

Which member should I draw next? Chan? Or maybe Cheol? Hmm much to think about…

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This boy is definitely a pink in every shades to me...

I'll try to draw my favorite Seventeen pictures in colors. Let's see what happens...

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Wei Wuxian, do you want revenge?

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Soo I've bought a new graphic tablet and decided to try - and celebrate- it with a Taeminnie drawing PLUS a hidden Kkongie in it! I'm so new at this digital art thing but I'm happy with the results. Okay, not that much but still it's kinda good for first try, I guess? Can't wait to hear new tracks from the repackaged version!

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I can not get over this song. This one has a special place in my heart.

Thank you, Taem.

Thank you.

[windwardstar]

In case anyone wants some perspective on how utterly random triggers can be. I haven’t lived in a house with a garage door in four-ish years. Right now at this moment, I honestly can’t recall what they sound like, except something metallic moving and rather clanky.

There was one on tv. I wasn’t even paying attention to it, I had my headphones on and was actively trying to tune the show out. My ears picked up on the sound of the garage door, and a jolt of adrenaline shot through my body as I grabbed my laptop and moved to get out of my seat and run to my room.

I realized what happened after about two seconds.

The sound is gone from my ears, but my heart is still racing and I’m waiting for the door to the house to open, to hear the jingling of my mother’s keys and her footsteps moving through the house. My muscles are still tense and I’m fighting the urge to run to my room and stick a board in front of the door.

For years, the sound of a garage door was my warning to pack up what I was doing quickly and retreat to my room if I was out of it.

I can’t remember the sound of the garage door right now, but I can’t tell my brain to stop trying to react to it.

[windwardstar]

This can be reblogged, if anyone was wondering. I wrote up this post with the intention that hopefully people who read it and didn’t really get triggers would understand a bit.

[the-real-seebs]

So, a thing that’s particularly important here: The trigger here is not the bad experience itself.

[jumpingjacktrash]

after my super funtime medical adventure, i had to change all my bath products, because my brain had associated the scent of them with being terrified and in extreme pain.

these were products i had chosen myself because i liked the smell. and they got connected to the medical phobia because i was using them to wash off the hospital reek and the fear sweat and so forth. i don’t know why they became a trigger. maybe because washing off the hospital smell didn’t make me not in pain. maybe because their ‘fresh pine ocean breeze bluegreen spicy stuff’ smell didn’t really replace the hospital stench, just mingled with it.

but for whatever reason, smelling these objectively nice soaps made me do flashbacks and get all hopeless and wobbly. so they had to go.

triggers are random. they’re often something that was simply present during a trauma, and you can’t guess what they’ll be. no one who hasn’t heard me explain this would ever associate suave naturals ocean breeze body wash with unbearable abdominal pain. so i guess the takeaways here are twofold:

- if you have triggers, remember other people can’t predict them, and don’t expect to be protected from them all the time. that’s up to you.

- if you don’t have triggers, don’t assume you can judge what a ‘real’ trigger is, and if someone asks you to accomodate them, don’t be a dick about it. even if you don’t want to make that accomodation, decline politely and apologize, don’t disparage their request.

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- no just no NOO

I've made a typo on my last post and I've realized AFTER 6 days... I just...

[queenofcontemporary]

"I love you but I'm going to mace you in the face."

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Paul Atreides - 2021

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Sorry, listeners. Not sure what happened in that earlier section of the broadcast – as in I actually don’t remember what happened. Tried to play back the tapes, but they’re all blank, and smell faintly of vanilla.

The Glow Cloud, meanwhile, has moved on. It is now just a glowing spot in the distance, humming east to destinations unknown. We may never fully understand, or understand at all what it was and why it dumped a lot of dead animals on our community.

But, and I’m going to get a little personal here, that’s the essence of life, isn’t it?

Sometimes you go through things that seem huge at the time, like a mysterious glowing cloud devouring your entire community. While they’re happening they feel like the only thing that matters, and you can hardly imagine that there’s a world out there that might have anything else going on.

And then the Glow Cloud moves on. And you move on. And the event is behind you. And you may find that, as time passes, you remember it less and less. Or absolutely not at all, in my case.

And you are left with nothing but a powerful wonder at the fleeting nature of even the most important things in life – and the faint but pretty smell of vanilla.

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John Green reviews historical outbreaks of bubonic and pneumonic plague. The Anthropocene Reviewed book will be released on May 18, 2021 and is available for preorder now.

Even when circumstances seperate us, in fact especially when they do, the way through is together.

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May the last long year be forgiven All that war left within it I couldn't, though I'm beginning to

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I just wonder...

How does it feel like to be a cloud?

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The thing that killed The Icarus was no other than the passion he had for the freedom.

The freedom.

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