TW active March2023

TW ED SH Just need a place to vent

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The realization that no matter how much effort I put in, no matter how hard I try I will always and forever be “lazy” or it won’t be “enough” will kill me every time

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I have uninstalled the “emotions” application in my head

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Today my mom essentially bullied me until I broke down screaming and crying only to record me and call me crazy and showed the video to my family.

I am so done with this life

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There is something wrong with me, the only time I am genuinely happy is when i am bleeding

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The urge to drop everything and run away from everything and everyone is very strong

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I haven’t died yet

And I am severely disappointed about it

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I want to die but I'm terrified of the thought of failure

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I've made up my mind

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I want to die but I'm terrified of the thought of failure

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Triggering topic: su1cid@l ideation

I want to unalive myself so badly. I was going to at least wait until after Christmas. But I don't know how much longer I can hold on here

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Got su1cide-baited today

It's kinda funny

I already was considering it

I'm safe don't worry

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I want to d1e

I want it all to stop

All the thoughts

All the feelings

There is nothing left for me in this life

I just might one day

Just a vent. I'm fine

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I’m so angry at myself right now

I just ended a fast. I I feel like I completely lost control and now I feel so guilty

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I haven’t eaten in five days

I'm scared to eat again

I'm afraid that once I eat I might lose control

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I just want my mutuals to know that I love them and wish them all the best 💗💗💗

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I still feel guilty about eating a meal that was two weeks ago and I can't stop thinking about it