me, myself and I

Hi, This is me. Most people consider me an introverted loner. Someone who is cold, "anti-social" and serious. When I'm not busy playing video games, I like to listen to my screamo and smoke. Good way to pass time, forgetting about the outside world.

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colour? whats that All black everything Not dark enough

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Greatest lost is losing yourself 

xx

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Also something i wore today... never usually bring these out. only item i got from my grandmother when she died. she understood me. she was different...  My grandmother wore these all the time. Garnet is her birth stone, mine too. I keep these safe because I'm so scared of losing them... just needed to wear them today to feel that comfort i got when i was with her </3

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Maybe went a little over the top today... but this is what i feel comfortable in, this is what i like, i love my style

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Fired

Soooo.. that happened. There goes another job that was nearly impossible to come by. Showed up late today, stoned and apparently "rude" to customers. As shitty as the job was, it allowed me to save up a little.. my friend is still letting my crash on his couch, but kinda want a place to my own. Need something stable in my life. Fuck 

[thatpillmakesyou-small]

[gnarlyy]

Click to trip

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Concert was so dope the other night #goth #concert #live !!

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One of my favourite bands coming to perform in my town tonight.... So happy I actually had the money to buy a ticket (cheap as it is). Definitely worth saving up for from my new job.. Cant wait to get crazzzZzzZZZzzYYyyy #OMEGALITHIUM

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Spent the last week or so trying to find a job. I get turned away so quickly because of my face piercings, dark makeup, tattoos, and "unusual" sense of style. I don't think its really fair that people get based off how they look... but i don't think it'll ever change. Just because i want to be me, to be different, spunky, shouldn't determine how capable i am of working... Ended up settling with a store at some old, hidden music store... pay isn't very good and its "under the table" but oh well, better than nothing

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So many shootings, or gun incidents the last few days in Canada.. This is proof to show how fucked up people are. Yeah, life can be rough, but people gotta get their head out of the violence route.. R.I.P. 

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Only been a week with this little fella. All cleaned up, loving his new home feels kinda nice to have something stable in my life

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The only thing that keeps me sane these days…

[amandawild177]

So the night is finally here… after time and time again being turned down for shows we are finally opening right here in America! Its so sick to be recognized on home soil!

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Congratulations! bet it rocked

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Usually not a fan of any animal, especially cats... but found this thing out in an alley by my friends apartment today.  It was in rougher shape than me.. Today, i took in a stray Meet Bernia meaning 'angel in armour' 

[thuglyfestreetlyfe]

Today I went for an interview. Nothing major but a small job at a local store selling groceries. Trying to lock down a legal job to provide more income for me and our mother because rent is due. On arriving the man took one look at me and on my resume read where I was from. My home, my local area. After eying me up for 15 or so seconds he told me they weren’t hiring anymore, that they decide to withdraw the position. Moments later a young boy from the nicer area of the bronx arrived wearing formal clothes but nothing compared to the suit I was able to ” borrow”. The man took one look at him and his rich looking parents in the doorway of his shop and hired him on the spot. This is what i mean by being forever locked into poverty, into a life of shame and no opportunity. Being from a certain area defines me as a person and removes any hope that I have at making a healthy life for me and my mother. This is why I lean on crime to support me, because crime has no judgements, no experience needed just some balls and a person struggling to survive.

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awful.... what a prick 

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My latest piece of work... my good friend is a tattoo artist, although he is struggling to get a business up and going because of his lack of education, he does hell of a job on me. Seriously, if you're good at something that doesn't apply a high school degree does it really fucking matter??  He can tattttt me up all over.  An ink-less body is a boring body.  Credz to scottie, hit me up if you're looking for a great, cheap artist. 

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Sometimes when I'm in a shitty mood, which is a lot of the time, i draw. I draw possible tattoo designs, i draw the world the way i see it, i draw whatever comes to mind. Mind to pen, to paper. Sketched this rose while waiting at an old friends house while she gets ready for some stupid immature " girls night " party. What the fuck is the point.  seriously don't understand why some girls like to "dress up"   and dance around together. It's only a party if theres a friend named molly.