☄Maniac messiah☄

Main hub blog for the sideblogs veritasxinxsomnis.☄Indie Semi-AU (post Advent Children Complete) Kadaj--Currently focused on the SNK Crossover AUCross Fandom CompatibleOCs welcomeMun and muse are of age.Please read rules before...

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Send me an anonymous ask completing the sentence "I wish you would write a thread where..."

[askemmaswan]

Your character overhears someone calling mine 'a monster', what does your character do?

[rakarchive-deactivated20191109]

lets go dismantle an electric co

[wordsnquotes]

Come with all your shame, come with your swollen heart, I’ve never seen anything more beautiful than you.

Warsan Shire

[remnantvermin]

shippy angst starters.

"You're an idiot if you thought I cared about you."

"You took advantage of my feelings for you."

"Fuck you, fuck your boyfriend/girlfriend and fuck everything about you!"

"I'm in love with you and I'm sick of having to hide it."

"You were supposed to be different."

"You were the one, I can't just move on!"

"I loved you, and just because we broke up doesn't mean I can turn it off."

"I love you too much and you don't love me at all..."

"I would've done anything for you..."

"You left me. You don't get to come back."

"I want you to hurt like I do."

"That's it? You're just giving up on me?"

"I never thought we'd end like this."

"It's such a shame to let you walk away."

"Love isn't a three-way street!"

"Is this goodbye?"

"I would have followed you anywhere. "

"Do I even matter to you?!"

"My back has turned on you."

"I should have known you'd break my heart."

"You're gone and I'm haunted and I bet you are just fine!"

"Goodbye, my almost lover."

"It's over."

"I can't do this anymore."

"I'm leaving you."

"I'm done crying over you."

"I have to let you go."

"You said you loved me..."

"I LOVED you. Past tense."

"I don't believe in love."

"I never loved you."

"I hate you."

[mxsiings]

i will bathe in your blood

            and tear apart your organs with my teeth

[15wordsfics]

[applepieken]

Final Fantasy 7 cast + the cinnamon roll meme (insp.)

[generalofsoldier]

[but…. what about muns who are cinnamon rolls that could actually kill you but play characters that look like they could kill you but are really cinnamon rolls?]

[phantomyre]

((You wouldn’t be talking about me, would you? *chokes*

[remnantvermin]

holy crap I am so out of the loop I’ve been gone for so long where to even start. >.>

[remnantvermin]

This must have been a jest of the gods. Somewhere, some Cosmic being was laughing, he knew it. Kadaj sighed and shook his head slowly– though he was not denying what Sephiroth had suggested. He looked… sad. Or maybe disappointed. 

“You are Sephiroth aren’t you? I amKadaj. I was created for one purpose: For you. Because Mother willed it.” He shrugged. There was no adoration or reverence in his tone, suggesting that this “servitude” was not of his choice. It was simply a fact of his existence to him and little more. 

It was strange that circumstances had somehow allowed them to exist in the same place and time, and even with all of his bitterness Kadaj couldn’t deny the pull when he had felt him. He had drifted from the dark caves he inhabited into the city; pulled by forces unseen that were anchored in his very genetics. He wasn’t even surprised when he saw him. He could feel Sephiroth’s presence before, too– always there. Watching. Preying from the Lifestream.

Sephiroth. Always for Sephiroth. Always what Sephiroth wanted. He wondered now if Mother had even been able to think for herself at the end at all. At that, he cruelly decided to let the man think the worst. “Don’t you know…? She’s gone because of you.”  

[calamitysshatteredson]

The young man had to be… unstable.  Unbalanced.  He had to be; surely that was where the feeling of unnaturalness was coming from.  There was no other explanation.  Logic, solid and sound.

But if that were true, then Sephiroth wondered why he felt that coiling in his gut go completely cold, tightness strung across his chest like rope.  “I don’t…  I don’t understand what you’re saying.”  And he didn’t, not really.  He couldn’t fathom the idea of someone created for him.  If it was a metaphor, it was lost on him.  If it was literal… something about that possibility just wouldn’t allow him to think on the subject any further.  But Kadaj did know his name.  He knew his name and he looked like him–

“What?”  It was a nightmare.  It had to be.  “You’re not…  Are you saying that I could have prevented her death?”  No one had approached him about his past.  No one seemed to know, or at least they hadn’t offered.  He couldn’t argue the possibility.  Surely this stranger, his brother, wasn’t implying that he was… directly responsible..?

He had to leave.  He had to walk away.  But he still wasn’t able to take a single step to start, damned curiosity holding on like chains.

[remnantvermin]

And goddess it was satisfying-- to see that play of emotions on the great Sephiroth’s face. Kadaj found himself drawing nearer if only in the way he stood. He held himself with more pride-- with more menace. He wanted it to hurt. He wanted to know exactly what it was to be torn apart, devalued, and thrown away like garbage... like Kadaj had been. 

It took a sharp intake of breath for him to realize that he had been clenching his fists until it hurt. The Remnant exhaled shakily, suddenly unable to look at Sephiroth directly. 

“We’re not... related in the traditional sense. Only in the most bare and scientific measure of DNA.” Kadaj sighed-- and decided to lead him off somewhere else, and it was delightful. For once; for a brief moment it was he who was pulling the strings. He was all but high off of the surge of power it gave him. 

“Mm, ShinRa’s orphan children-- but don’t you know about it? Or... have you forgotten?” He asked slowly. There was something about his voice that was almost sensual in the way that it was charged by that same lust for power he felt; something that suggested that by sound alone it could violate and destroy. 

[courierxxsoldier-blog]

"Huh. I was trying to avoid meeting you like this. I suppose now you know I'm back. Surprise?"

Cloud snarled at the silver haired remnant standing before him. He thought he had already done away with him and his little group of Sephiroth spawn. His lip curled and fists clenched at his sides, ready to reach for his sword if necessary.

“What are you doing here, Kadaj? What do you want?”

[remnantvermin]

Absently, he rested his fingertips against the flimsy metal he’d placed between himself and Cloud, not meeting his eyes. It was like he’d look anywhere but directly at the man. “Here and there. When I woke up I was… in the Forgotten City. I nearly drowned. Then I stared walking. When I made it as far as Kalm I gave up. There was nopoint in coming to Edge. The closer I came the more people stared and muttered. I even got ran out of a couple of places. It’s incredible what humans can remember.” He explained coldly. 

“I live in the caves. Between the marshes and Kalm. I only came here to pick up some supplies.” He stated quietly. Seeing Cloud was a long way from what he’d wanted. He’d wanted to go on living in relative peace but now… It seemed that was out of the question. He sighed, defeated. Feeling sick; frightened. 

“I guess you’ll want to put me down again. Unfortunately… I’ve tried that.” The results were… less than promising. 

[courierxxsoldier-blog]

He watched Kadaj closely, waiting for some sign that he was looking for a fight. The fact that he wouldn’t look at him at all was suspicious enough. He listened carefully, taking in what he said, trying to piece it together in his mind in the hopes of making sense of it all. He scoffed at the mention of people remembering his actions two years ago. Of course they remembered. They caused chaos, took children. However, the remark about putting him down without success struck something in Cloud.

“What are you saying, Kadaj?” Could it be possible that he couldn’t die?

[remnantvermin]

“I put myself at the end of a very conveniently offered gun. It was messy and painful, but that was all.” Kadaj answered. He went back to looking bored though he had been nearly trembling under the weight of the memories; the years of living like an insect in dark and wet places without an ounce of care spared to him. 

“Do you think I want to be here? In this world? You and all of your kind disgust me. But... I don’t want to be used by anyone anymore.” That comment was almost cheerful. All of it was unsettling; talking about attempts at ending his own life as though it were the weather. Kadaj knew now; learned at the end of Vincent Valentine’s gun that his Mother and Sephiroth-- had never loved him. He was only a disposable means to an end. 

[courierxxsoldier-blog]

"Huh. I was trying to avoid meeting you like this. I suppose now you know I'm back. Surprise?"

Cloud snarled at the silver haired remnant standing before him. He thought he had already done away with him and his little group of Sephiroth spawn. His lip curled and fists clenched at his sides, ready to reach for his sword if necessary.

“What are you doing here, Kadaj? What do you want?”

[remnantvermin]

He clicked his tongue and took a couple of steps back, gracefully putting himself on the other side of a low-standing sign as though that might protect him. “What’s with the hostility? I didn’t exactly turn up guns blazing, did I?” He asked, looking bored– until he spoke again. He was obviously irritated at that point. 

“If you care at all– It’s been almost two years, mm? I’ve been here this whole time.” And he wasn’t exactly happy about it. 

[courierxxsoldier-blog]

“Tch..” Had he really still been alive all this time? No.. that wasn’t right. It didn’t make any sense. He literally held him as he returned to the Lifestream. There was no way he returned that quickly..

“I’m not taking any chances.” He took a step closer, closing the small gap Kadaj had just widened ever so slightly. “Where have you been? How are you still alive?”

He grit his teeth, suddenly realizing he may not really want the answers to his questions. 

[remnantvermin]

Absently, he rested his fingertips against the flimsy metal he’d placed between himself and Cloud, not meeting his eyes. It was like he’d look anywhere but directly at the man. “Here and there. When I woke up I was... in the Forgotten City. I nearly drowned. Then I stared walking. When I made it as far as Kalm I gave up. There was no point in coming to Edge. The closer I came the more people stared and muttered. I even got ran out of a couple of places. It’s incredible what humans can remember.” He explained coldly. 

“I live in the caves. Between the marshes and Kalm. I only came here to pick up some supplies.” He stated quietly. Seeing Cloud was a long way from what he’d wanted. He’d wanted to go on living in relative peace but now... It seemed that was out of the question. He sighed, defeated. Feeling sick; frightened. 

“I guess you’ll want to put me down again. Unfortunately... I’ve tried that.” The results were... less than promising. 

[courierxxsoldier-blog]

"Huh. I was trying to avoid meeting you like this. I suppose now you know I'm back. Surprise?"

Cloud snarled at the silver haired remnant standing before him. He thought he had already done away with him and his little group of Sephiroth spawn. His lip curled and fists clenched at his sides, ready to reach for his sword if necessary.

“What are you doing here, Kadaj? What do you want?”

[remnantvermin]

He clicked his tongue and took a couple of steps back, gracefully putting himself on the other side of a low-standing sign as though that might protect him. “What’s with the hostility? I didn’t exactly turn up guns blazing, did I?” He asked, looking bored-- until he spoke again. He was obviously irritated at that point. 

“If you care at all-- It’s been almost two years, mm? I’ve been here this whole time.” And he wasn’t exactly happy about it. 

[remnantvermin]

'I want the K'

11: Collarbone Kiss rogue-valor

       Eren’s presence often left Kadaj with strange and inexplicable urges. Sitting in the quiet evening, He had been tracing the titan shifter’s palm-- following the lines with the tip of his finger as though deciphering an important map. He’d been having dreams about the place that he was from. He wasn’t ready to talk to Eren about it... it pointed to something very strange. Worrisome.

      To distract them both from the tension in the silence, he turned and brushed his hand back through the brunette’s hair and leaned in, nuzzling against his throat before he pressed one open-mouthed kiss and then another along the only-just-exposed curve of his collar bones.  

[wnq-writers]

There’s so much hurt in my heart And I’m good at hiding it But not healing it.

un–stable 

[madrpideas]

Headcanons: Sex Life Edition masterpost

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