it'll be okay with you by my side

madison // she, her // hsmtmts, taylor swift // 716ag on ao3 :)

[nini-ricky]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

finally another chapter is out for all of you, took me a lot longer than expected lol but this one’s a little fun one and i hope you enjoy 

xx

[sulkysnape]

reblog this if you’re a fanfic writer & your motivation to write actually increases when readers actually show interest & give you feedback. even just a reblog or a little comment here and there

[riniforever]

let you go // joshua bassett

*HSMTMTS Ep 9 Spoilers!!!!*

“Tear the tree house down, give up the fantasy”

“Who thought that one first kiss would turn into two heartbreaks?”

“I hope you find better”

“I can’t forget us, can’t pretend we ain’t broken”

“I'll always be in love with who we used to be”

“The way that you would stare at me across the room”

“No one can say we didn't try I'll think of these days all my life”

“It was good together now I've gotta let you go”

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Can we just talk about how fucking sad but fulfilling this song is?? The Ricky growth in this episode is *chefs kiss* and what we as a fandom have been BEGGING for all season long. I absolutely shed tears as I watched him sing this and could feel the pain through the screen (thank you mr. bassett for the ACTING). 

This episode as a whole felt a little redemptive and like last season (if i’m the only one who feels this way pls look away lmao). It’s been so hard to be invested in this season like I want to be and I hate that I feel that way because I want to love it so much. i’m cautiously optimistic for the last three (how the heck are we already this far in) episodes and hope that whatever happens they don’t leave anything without some sort of growth/closure. 

[thefabelmans2022]

This is an EJ Caswell stan account.

[hsmtmtsdaily]

♪ No spirit could win me, no hope left within me ♪ 

[riniforever]

big red holding Ricky like @nini-ricky would be holding me after this episode if we lived in the same city

[conradfiisher]

[riniforever]

portwell is my new OTP who would have thought

[hsmtmtsnet]

It’s an expression, Sebastian.

[rcsitastark]

NINI SALAZAR-ROBERTS & RICKY BOWEN “Yeah, I think I’ve been trying to protect that. It feels safe. See, the thing is, I don’t want to feel safe.”

[riniforever]

pain

[nini-ricky]

obviously a lot had went down in this week’s episode and most things was a lot of tension relationshipwise across almost all characters (except gina and ej bless their hearts for saving me this ep and last ep really) but i kinda wanna dive into the rini breakup for obvious reasons. 

i would just like to start by saying that tree house scene absolutely destroyed me. you could see the amount of love they had for each other, even though it may be an incredibly heartbreaking scene. including when ricky had broke down at big red’s house. it was all just emotionally heart-wrenching. 

no matter how much i love ricky and nini together, i completely think they did the right thing. for the longest time, like even back in season 1, i’ve been saying nini needed to grow and figure out who she is as a person. she even said so herself in the treehouse that it’s always been ricky and nini. i love them so much, but both of them need to kind of figure out who they are without each other before they can even be together. it was clear that ricky and nini love each other so much that they had to let each other grow because they both knew it was what’s best for them no matter how heartbreaking that may be. 

now putting the actual storyline aside, i want to talk about the writing that led up to the point. i wanted to give tim the benefit of the doubt and trust that he knows what he’s doing, not just with rini but the entire show this season. it hasn’t been great i think we can all admit that. but with rini in particular, i think it’s poor writing in the sense that you begin to question what was the whole point of season 1? ricky fought for her and fought for their relationship. and at the end of season 1 everything was great and perfect. now i feel like we’ve regressed, kind of making the entirety of season 1 kind of redundant. 

i think tim was trying to create drama and angst for them, but he had approached it in the wrong way i think. i’ve always said that with writing you don’t constantly need issues to make things interesting especially when it comes to an already established couple. 

i am a hardcore believer in figuring out who you are before falling into a relationship. i’ve seen this with many of my friends, considering i am now a freshly out of college it’s interesting to see how people that went into university with a high school relationship haven’t really grown all that much. it’s almost like they are stunted and there’s no more room in the pot for them to grow. but that’s not saying that all high school relationships are doomed, it’s just that with a relationship you have to learn to grow with that person. you need to help and talk to each other in order for your relationship to bloom. that being said, i think there could have been a chance that ricky and nini could’ve stayed together to grow and find themselves, especially considering the long history they share. they just lacked individuality, in the sense that neither of them really knew who they are without the are. and it’s going to be interesting to see how ricky and nini grow from this and whether they drift back together or stay broken up. 

to be completely honest, all i can really hope for is that even they stay broken up they don’t lose the friendship they once had. it’d be an absolute shame to lose the person that’s gone through so many of your hardships with you. and i know that it happens, but i couldn’t imagine losing that person for me. i have once before and let’s say it’s an incredibly long journey to get over that.

i would say i’m putting my trust in tim, but he’s continually proving us all wrong. so, i guess all we can do is cross our fingers and hope for the best in the last few episodes we have. 

[riniforever]

she said it better than I ever could have

[nini-ricky]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

now that i'm for a few more days than usual, i finally have time to cry over the fact that i released the last two chapters of nothing personal last week. i honestly can't believe this story has come to a close and i'm going to miss this rini so fucking much. i truly hope you all loved them just as much as i have and if you haven't checked it out yet, come read the last two chapters of my longest (time wise) project to date.

in a way, i wanted to be a little different. i didn't want you all to expect every plot point and each piece of dialogue seeing as secret dating is such a popular trope across so many genres, particularly in fanfiction and young adult novels. i also wanted to portray a healthy and realistic relationship that does experience both the good and the bad. i personally think that drama and miscommunication between the main characters is necessary to create a great story (ahem hsmtmts s2) so i truly hope that i was successful in that regard, that even though it may not have been drama filled in the expected aspects, but it still managed to be enjoyable and kept you wanting more.

this story taught me a lot in all honesty. i've never experienced so much writer's block than when i was writing this book. i questioned myself and my capabilities a lot over the last few months, a large part of it too was that i was finishing up university and getting my adult life together. i was definitely scared i was falling out of love with this story because of how unmotivated i was to continue writing. but in the end, i think this story came out better than i thought it was ever going to. and i can promise you, this isn't the last you'll see of me. just be patient, exciting things are coming.

this is the last final goodbye to our angel and our rockstar xx

[nini-ricky]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

a little later than my usual time that i post but i was caught up with work today lmao 

but anyways, i know some of you have been waiting ages for this one and i hope i did okay with it lol 

enjoy loves xx

[riniforever]

when she posts on tumblr before she texts it to me

[nini-ricky]

Valentines Day (S2E03) Thoughts

got a little busy last week but here’s my thoughts on last week’s episode!!

- nini was super cute with the whole showing up at ricky’s house just like she used to when they were kids (again this childhood friends to lovers business is pulling at my heartstrings) also her whole set up was everything

- “This is our first valentines day as a couple since…well last year” this literally sent me omfg

- the way ricky and nini have the exact same idea of surprising each other and writing a song like hello soulmateism at its finest

- okaaay, real talks tho like there’s no way kourt could be an assistant manager with no job experience but like good on here but realistically nah b

- HOWIE ITS SO NICE TO MEET YOU (alr loving this enemies to lovers moment we have going on) 

- rini’s facetime call i love, and nini calling ricky richard hehe

- EJ’s first v-day without a girlfriend SIR YOU DRESSED IN ALL BLACK WHY IS THIS SO FUNNY KSJKS

- ashlyn sweetheart :( literally gon cry for my baby

- THE TIFFANY BOX SCARED ME CARLOS 

- big red and ashlyn are actually so cute

- the kourt and seb friendship that’s starting to bloom is everything to me

- hot take right now but gina seriously deserves someone better than ricky, like i understand the whole liking him and all that because it’s not that easy to get over especially with how much time they spend together but she deserves someone that’ll truly love and appreciate her the way she wants to be loved

- Miss Jenn and Mazzarra ???? y’all im intrigued lmao

- the amount of second hand embarrassment i experienced this episode like good god

- “Something that grows with us” i think that’s one of the best lines this episode, it’s wholesome and sweet and very much like seb

- Mike and Jenn oop but also mazzarra……..? thoughts y’all?

- GINA BABY STOP I ALREADY KNOW ITS NOT RICKY I AM SO SORRY SWEETHEART

- not me getting chills with kourt singing 

- this voicemail thing is the cutest ever

- AGAIN AHHHH GINA I AM SO SORRY I AM SO EMBARRASSED FOR YOU I CAN’T HANDLE IT

- big red’s after credit number omg you go sir

[riniforever]

Mike and jenn superiority

[nini-ricky]

The Storm (S2E04) Thoughts

- my rini heart is going through the roof already like fuck this facetime call is everything from the stolen sweater to missing each other like god

- NOT NINI SHAKING THAT FUCKING SNOWGLOBE FORESHADOWING THIS EPISODE AHHHHHH

- the carlos and gina tension omg i cannot deal

- y’all i wanna know who is behind the camera during the docu parts like who’s spilling the tea

- i fucking love miss jenn’s stories they are so fucking funny omfg

- ricky stop i’m embarrassed also RIP Gina you deserve better babe

- oh my nini baby you’re so sweet

- do i need to tell y’all again how much my rini heart is not okay? like that spinning hug? that kiss? y’all they are that couple

- i knew EJ wasn’t going to get into Duke especially the way they brought it up in nearly all of the episodes but it still really hurts and i completely understand where he’s coming from in so many more ways than one

- nini’s “trust the outcome” STOP IT NO

- “c’mon bernadette” i love the name of her car and fits so well with the colour and model and everything

- “we’ll get you back where you belong” another foreshadowing moment

- ashlyn and big red pls this is not the time

- why does ricky’s ‘love you’ text send me for a loop y’all send help

- you can really see how much nini hates it YAC and is putting on a facing for just about everyone

- miss jenn’s support really made me emotional this episode like i 100% cried sm when she was having that conversation in the car with nini

- ricky being a simp ofc

- “biggie” omg pls no

- THE SEB AND KOURT SCENE WAS PERFECT

- i may dislike mazzarra 96% of the time but the way he spoke with ej and was being supportive made me literally sob it’s definitely something he needed to hear and i’m excited to see how ej’s storyline kind of grows from here (literally crying as i think about it)

- carlos and gina finally talked it out like shit, again i cried but like maybe i’m just overemotional today

- HOWIE PULLING THROUGH FOR KOURT i see y’all

- THE FOREHEAD KISS GOOD FUCKING BYE

- i’m just gonna say we better get to see that reunion between ricky and nini or i ill fucking riot

overall, what is it about hsmtmts episode 4′s that make me fucking sob the entire time? happened in s1, now this season. like y’all just like to see my tears or smth

[nini-ricky]

hii!!! i’m OBSESSED with your ao3s!!!! i was wondering if u can make a one shot of rini that was maybe like the reunion at the end of 1.04??? like drank hot chocolate cuz she can now, they both told each other absolutely everything on their minds, ricky with his parents and how he missed her and nini with the truth about the yac, then maybe cuddled and watched a movie til they fell asleep. lol anyway i totally understand if u cant or don’t want too !!! no worries just thought i’d ask!

you ask and you shall receive lovely!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/31771885

here you are! i hope you enjoy it!! this fic really helped me get my writing juices flowing again (even tho this probably not one of my better ones but yeah), so honestly i should be thanking you! i am so happy to hear that you are enjoying my fics and i hope to continue to write more let me know what you think of this little drabble xx

[nini-ricky]

when are u updating ur ao3 fic?????? pls 🥺😭

hopefully soon!! i've been in a little bit of a writers rut the last few weeks but i have at least half of the next chapter done, i just hope to get it out soon i won't say when because i don't wanna make any unfulfilled promises xx

[nini-ricky]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

hi everyone!! i've been a little MIA lately because i've been super busy with work and with my major's writer's block i have going on. but this new drabble i whipped up was a tumblr request and i hope it can tide y'all over for the mean time.

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Summary: where nini goes to ricky's after deciding she wanted to stay in salt lake (set after 2X04)

[riniforever]

to all the doubters: she’s alive ppl

[nini-ricky]

did my nails before SOUR dropped and just kept forgetting to post them hehe

i'm absolutely in love with her album and i don't have a ranking because every fucking song is amazing and can't make myself rank them lmaoo

[riniforever]

queen