I always felt so irked when cishet ppl would say(usually dudes), "Oh you're just gay" "so you're just gay?" They're very comfortable with "Gay" ppl, "Im cool with gay ppl if they don't make it their whole personality" "they're normal about it" "that's their business"
I'm sick of being "Gay" I wanna be Queer, I STRIVE to be Queer, to be Genderqueer, to be Queer as fuck in EVERY part of my life. To be a twisted complex ever-changing ever evolving living being who will allow emotion to take the wheel and intellect to floor it.
I don't ever wanna wear shit that I don't want to
I don't ever wanna do shit that I don't want to
I wanna do whatever the fuck I feel like doing in any moment, all the time and if I change my mind then so be it. If I change my mind about changing my mind we'll whoopty fucking do.
I don't want a physical gender I never felt like I did. These parts are just parts to me and if I chop something off or add something on then I should be able to because they're just parts. The me, the real me, the only important part of me inside of my skull, that big fleshy pound of memories, senses and pathways and electricity is ME!
I am LIFE! and life is strange and weird and chaotic
I am the forest outside of my window.
Society will look at it and see a bug infested, thorny mess of greenery, But the people who are willing to actually look will see that the chaos is order. Every plant is in its perfect spot, the animals are thriving together just by existing and doing whatever they feel like doing. There is no god out there, there is no race, gender, money, class, there is alive and dead and you are either, or. I choose Alive.
Be Alive, Be Queer, Be Here