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[rowsieeee-blog1]

Losing myself

I'm lost.

My heart starts missing a beat. Questioning my self, "How do I get back on track?". Feeling hopeless that I don't know how to reach my goals or do I really have a goals in life? Everyone around me kept telling me that I needed to start accomplishing things that I had not yet accomplished. Everyone had expectations that I hadn’t met.

Its like hating yourself for feeling like you are unable to grow up or should I say, its like a dark maze that you need to look for the door of light lol.

Trying to figure out what is going on in your mind. If there is a way to get yourself out or you'll shut down.

I know this is life, it keeps piling up and up and up until you breakdown.

[books-n-quotes]

“But I must admit I miss you quite terribly. The world is too quiet without you nearby. I go to bed early and rise late and feel as if I have hardly slept.”

— Lemony Snicket, The Beatrice Letters

[books-n-quotes]

“When people start liking people, that’s when someone has the ability to get hurt.”

— Lauren Barnholdt, Two-Way Street

[timbllr]

from weheartit

[imposer]

[books-n-quotes]

“So many versions of just one memory, and yet none of them were right or wrong. Instead, they were all pieces. Only when fitted together, edge to edge, could they even begin to tell the whole story.”

— Sarah Dessen, Just Listen

[remanence-of-love]

[timbllr]

[hazyaffection]

[rowsieeee-blog1]

"It still feels complicated, and there's a part of me that is screaming for me to run because if I let him in too far I'll never be able to let go, but I don't move." - from Something She Was ✓ (on Wattpad) https://my.w.tt/ziuxwoONrN

[books-n-quotes]

“You have to get lost before you find yourself.”

— John Green, Paper Towns

[rowsieeee-blog1]

One last moment of weakness

[rowsieeee-blog1]

" "I'm trying to say, stop pushing away others because you think that you're the only one that knows pain. Everyone does. It doesn't have to be me, but let yourself be helped by someone. You need it." " - from Something She Was ✓ (on Wattpad) https://my.w.tt/KCd1gFzNnN

[poems-and-word]

[rowsieeee-blog1]

"Like every piece of me that has ignored every moment I've felt a bad emotion is just rushing back to me." - from Something She Was ✓ (on Wattpad) https://my.w.tt/g7uzBPrqmN

[rowsieeee-blog1]

I feel like my heart is going to explode. Help me, God. Please guide me through your light.

[rowsieeee-blog1]

Dear self,

Sorry for hitting you.