Damnyo.

I like pink things

[rundotexe]

[rundotexe]

Tell me I aint FUCKIN

[peewdiepie]

[rundotexe]

time for another bpd episode, poor car suffers again.

[rundotexe]

Drive car, got defected, made friend, bought toyota car

[rundotexe]

Will life get better?

Seems to be throwing at lot at me right now.

Does it want me to give up?

[bonemeadows]

4.4.22 @nosebleedclub prompt, devil town

[fvcknoway]

[rundotexe]

my car is a ghosthouse print

dads in hospital

i feel sick and chronically lonely rn

[rundotexe]

[rundotexe]

took car to another state, showed pink car to strangers, strangers liked pink car. very serotonin. thanks for coming to my ted talk

[rundotexe]

as if my birthday couldn't get more depressing than it usually is, this year it's alone stuck in isolation with covid. I normally feel alienated but this is just a whole other level of alienation. To be honest I don't know how much longer I can be fucked with this all.

[rundotexe]

fuck it, lets go hills

[rundotexe]

Toying with the idea of moving again, starting over. But i'd be letting too many people down. And so i suffer through this.

I want to make everyone happy but I cannot be, I wanted to be useful but nobody lets me. I just want to exist in peoples minds and not get stabbed in the back. If i'm not useful i'm nothing

[rundotexe]

motivation to work on my car's crashed. motivation to eat better's gone. Working out is a chore again.

I want the biggest bag right now. to escape.

[rundotexe]

miss having a favourite person, or at least a best friend who's keen to do things regularly. I dont want to be sad anymore, I never wanted to be sad. The feeling of being happy and then mood crashing so rapidly hurts, I should be happy but i'm not. always replaceable.

[rundotexe]

Was hoping venting on here where nobody see's it would be satisfying, but it's really not.

Fucks me up how I can't just vanish