❝ this morbid doodling with human body parts — ! ❞ established 12 / 11 / 20. movie & headcanon based dan cain of reanimator, sacrificed by kiwi. blog is highly gore orientated with frequent mentions of trauma, please read law / dossier. sideblog @rushfrenzy ( julie kostenko ).
hi i’m kiwi — 20, mixed, bisexual disaster, chaotic good ! i’m just here to have a fun time, not a long one, & yell about my fave himbo & 80s horror. feel free to im / ask about anything. <3
“Ya’ know, Docta’ Dan … If I didn’t know any betta’.. I’d think you’re hittin’ on me. A lil’ cliche, don’t’cha think? A docta’ and ‘is nurse~?”
a warm flush paints tan skin, delicately flustered.
❝ who ever said there was anything wrong with a cliche or two ? some people might say it’s pretty romantic, nurse molly. can’t help it if the nurse is swooning over her dashing doctor — ❞ teasing lilt has him flashing teeth in humor.
also actually while im here thinking abt dan i’m just like.... when is he gonna kiss men. HE’S SO REPRESSED IT HURTS ACTUALLY? even if a part of him knows like he’s interested in men, w/ how shit was back then it would’ve been very difficult for him to.... accept it? to do something w/ that knowledge. so he buries it, like he buries everything else in his life, his trauma, his guilt, his loss!!!!
but god. god. i know in my rules its like u know i don’t insta ship bcgranted, i do want substance, but i wanna ship dan so badly!!!!! HE’S JUST SO BROKEN BUT SO DEVOTED AND LOVING AND HE’LL LOOK AT U WITH A STARE THAT SCREAMS ‘UR MY WORLD’, IT SHOWS IN HOW HE HOLDS THE HANDS OF HIS LOVERS LIKE THEY R HIS ONLY TETHER... like it’s funny bc i don’t think he realized how wholly he loved before he lost meg & it was all too late then.
but. But. i’d just like to explore him one day, working through his repressed feelings towards men, bc i can imagine a teenage dan having the cutest, quiet crushes, but he’d always been so forward w/ women bc that’s what society advocated for u know. gentle moments w/ guys he knew he’d never get bc if u acted too friendly u were mocked for it, and he has always been so.... hesitant abt things, so people pleasing that he’d shove all his own feelings down in the process for the sake of appeasing everyone around him. I Don’t Know Man
like i said once, meg’s the only person he’d ever confide in w/ these feelings, no one else would come close which is saying smth bc the internalized homophobia do be going insane. he’s just having his own mental mindfuck, constant anxiety at the thought of being intimate w/ another guy, but truly it’s what he deserves
GOD I just thought up the perfect way (two perfect ways?) of incorporating Dan into a fe.ar st.re.et verse.
1. he’s a nurse / camp doctor, maybe works or worked with nurse lane ???? ig this is 1978 dan
2. sunnyvale dan meets shadyside meg, she goes insane (thank u curse) but bc dan has braincells he’s like ‘NO MY FIANCE DIDN’T DO THAT’ (also he’s a malewife) but he’s Branded as off the shits and ‘inconsolable after the tragic loss of his fiance’
you believe yourself to be terribly unlovable, and that is why you push away the people who try, because there must be something awfully wrong with them to love someone like you. love transforms you no matter how long you hold it in your shaking hands. you love the way a wound does. your heart has never stopped bleeding since the first moment it broke.
thinking abt a final girl oc im in the process of making bc ive just mentally said Fuck It & ill make blogs / sideblogs as i go bc a multi is taking 2 long (im just procrastinating BHDSMKSDSDMK)
but yeah im just sitting here thinking abt her pistol whipping thje masked killer/s she has 2 go against bc. NO FEAR!!!! FUCK YOU!!! which is 2 say she shouldnt be trusted with a gun as the protag but yk.
im also thinking abt her best friend ‘buddy’ that ive very scarcely thought about but it makes me happy 2 think abt them despite the fact that he has an unrequited crush on her that is like. ‘haha no i don’t have a crush on her shes my best friend dude are u kidding (i do)’ and she doesn’t even notice or bat an eyelash!!!! not bc shes mean but its never crossed her mind!!! and im like. wow. man. theyre great im going 2 develop them more soon if i get the blog up
all i know is that to me, you look like you’re lots of fun, open up your lovin’ arms - i want some, want some. 𝐈 𝐒𝐄𝐓 𝐌𝐘 𝐒𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐒 𝐎𝐍 𝐘𝐎𝐔 ( and no one else will do, ) and i, i’ve got to have my way now, baby. all i know is that to me, you look like you’re havin’ fun, open up your lovin’ arms - 𝚆𝙰𝚃𝙲𝙷 𝙾𝚄𝚃, 𝙷𝙴𝚁𝙴 𝙸 𝙲𝙾𝙼𝙴 !
𝐆𝐇𝐎𝐒𝐓 𝐅𝐀𝐂𝐄 𝐖𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐍 𝐁𝐘 𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐉𝐀. from dead by daylight. headcanon heavy. personals do not reblog.
i love writing bitches like dan and julie who are so intrinsically opposite levels of chaos like. still thinking about how dan was so traumatized and mentally Not There, so in over his own head, that when herbert handed him a reanimated version of.... not meg but u know, he was like ‘hey. hey now maybe you’re onto something’ and helped him AGAIN get away with fuckign crimes like.