It's been 9 years since I've posted on this account - I don't really have anyone I can vent or be vulnerable with so I guess I'll do it here. I just want to leave, I just want to cease existing, I don't want to have to wake up tomorrow, it's so difficult and I don't know what to do. I feel like no one cares for me as much as I try to care for others. I'm so tired. I feel lost and defeated. I'm sorry. I don't know what I did to deserve this suffering.















