growing up as a lesbian i think a lot of us end up feeling a sense of alienation because getting older is so heavily associated with developing an interest in men. when you never do you either get “left behind” or end up having to fake it to avoid the feeling of being left out by your peers because no one gives you a framework for growing into being a gay woman. your love for other women is so often seen as sign of immaturity at best and something dirty/warped at worst.
as a kid most ppl will characterize your disinterest in boys as just a childish “ew boys are icky” phase instead of maybe a genuine lack of attraction. so as you get older everyone persists in thinking of your disinterest as something stunted about your personality. your close bonds with women around you get put down to clingness and an inability to move on into relationships with men. like lmfao it’s so ugly how badly ppl want to convince young lesbians there’s something wrong with them rather than entertaining the idea maybe gay kids exist
not to mention if you’re a butch/gnc lesbian you get hit with everyone holding their breath for the minute you give up being an “ugly duckling” and finally give in to performing femininity or if you’ve grown up performing femininity ppl treat you like shit for getting “uglier” when you realize maybe you’re not comfortable being feminine
