Untitled. Keep you’re loved ones close.
I finally fell in love again, I found someone who made me the happiest I’ve ever been. He treated me with respect and love. He was patient with me and was my biggest fan. I finally got to experience what it was like to love and be loved with someone’s whole heart. He was a chef, an amazing one. Always making something new and fun for us to try. He was great with my friends, he and my parents got along. It was like I dreamed him and someone finally listened to me and created him and let me find him finally. He was the funniest person I’ve ever met. He made me laugh so hard I couldn’t breathe. I would have a hard day and he would just make a joke and kiss my forehead and everything would be ok. We didn’t start out easy, lots of “should we, shouldn’t we”. He said something to me that will stick with me forever, “there’s something about you that makes me not want to give you up”. I finally found a boyfriend that was amazing to me, loved me , respected me. My boyfriend died 3 weeks ago today. My boyfriend was the definition of a happy person. Always smiling with that gorgeous smile, always laughing. He had some demons, ones I never knew about. Being the happiest man in the room with a great job, good friends and someone to love doesn’t always make you HAPPY. It was a Friday night, I went to his house and he was acting strange, that should have been my first warning. He was cuddly, kept telling me he loved me. When I left that night he asked me to stay but I couldn’t. I should have, I will regret it my whole life that I didn’t stay. I should have stayed. The next morning he took his own life. He was gone... The moral of this is too always check on the people you love. Depression is called the silent killer for a reason.
