SecuredWifi

Yeah im lowkey crazy ok leave me alone please

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Fuck doctors fuck doctors fuck doctors fuck doctors

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monochromatic

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hello

Yo

[crxtaljeans]

esdee mink.

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Something I haven't heard a lot of people talking about in transgender spaces(and queer spaces in general) is how horrible it feels to have being trans something people have a accept. It isn't something that is treated like it can just be; it's something that people must accept about you before becoming your friend/partner/etc.

It's something so obtuse in your life that it ruins so many aspects of it. No matter where you are in your transition, it's something you must confess, some flaw that someone has to be okay with. Transgender people can lead good lives and make meaningful connection, but that's always at the behest of finding people that are willing to accept the fact of their transness.

It becomes so tiring as a person to constantly be something that people must accept. It feels like being a stain or a smear, something close to normal but off.

I don't want to explain 'what' I am, I don't want people to know, but it just seems to be something people can just tell. It's something I can't escape. It feels like being shoved into a space too tight for my body to fit in, like being a bird in a cave.

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Have not had a cigarette in a while. I feel like a starving Victorian child. Zyn night tonight.

[ilikesoupandcookies]

for rain you are, and to rain you shall return

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Wow being trans kinda really ruined my life. Like all of it. That's crazy.

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I'M OUT OF CIGARETTES

life is a fruitless endeavor

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I wanna be all punk and anti-authority but I also get really scared and nervous whenever anyone's mad at me

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Jimmy Hopkins jimmy Hopkins

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ig: mistypostcards

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NMH at the science.

[gor3sigil]

A cis woman tells me that maybe she should transition to gain male privilege as I'm recovering from getting beaten up in the men's bathrooms.

I tell her to be my guest and give me a call when she gets her jaw broken, I always carry a first aid kit and a pepper spray.

She calls me a misogynistic asshole.

A cis man tells me that he'd sure love some T.

Gave him my prescription and best of luck with the constant shortages and getting denied.

He calls me a pussy.

I'm fighting for my life and reproductive rights. I get told to get off women's fights, that it's not about me, like I shed my womb after my first T shot.

I search for support groups for SA victims, and I'm stuck in the same “women/NBs only”. Still shooting my shot, send an application. I introduce myself. Never get a call back.

I go to a trans night. Say I go by he/him. Get told back “yeah, that's how we all start !” by a trans woman. I'm too exhausted, I get up and I leave.

I hang out with my friends, one of them drunkenly says masculinity is a prison we must learn to escape. She gets rows of applause. Back to drinking alone.

Yes I could explain it. But who'd you rather be ? A delusional girl or a man made threat ?Or it could be better, I could just not exist ! And we'd bleach my corpse and I'd become a casualty. Not an F, ot an M, a W for Wound and for Wrong.

I put a candle on a single cupcake, 2 years on HRT. I blow it in the dark. Curtains closed like casket.

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Hey gougle is being jn pain and exhausted all the trime normal?

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Buddy why you untitled

Did your mummy not give you a name :(

SecuredWifi is my name 😾