the city of jewels

I write Harry Potter fanfiction (for the most part). I'm 29 years old and I work as a chef at a fine-dining catering company. I love chatting, so please feel free to hit me up for anything at all! Yes, I accept prompts in my askbox! Please be patient while waiting for your drabble/ficlet. I work 60+ hour weeks and I also have multi-chapter fanfiction I'm working on. Thanks for reading! You can find links to my FFNet fics & AO3 account under the Fics! link at the top of the page. All of my tumblr-only stories can be found in the Story Time! link at the top of the page. Enjoy! var sc_project=11129744; var sc_invisible=1; var sc_security="023d6e3b"; var scJsHost = (("https:" == document.location.protocol) ? "https://secure." : "http://www."); document.write("");

[shadu-kiam]

Not a question, I just saw your most recent answer to an ask and I just thought I'd send you boatloads of love. 💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚 Surviving is tough, especially in these times. Hang on the best you can sweets. Def think about the gofundme or ko-fi in these unprecedented times. ❤🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍

Thank you. Unfortunately, I’m so deep in the hole that any money sent to me would surely be wasted, especially in a turbulent time like now. If you have spare money right now, please save it! You might need it shortly.

Thank you for the love <3

[shadu-kiam]

also i hope you’re doing well. i know things weren’t going your way for a while, and Idk if you ever even noticed my fan acct that i made, but i considered you one of my favorite people on the site, and always wished the best for you. i hope you haven’t been on because you’ve been too busy living your life the the fullest and enjoying everything else too much to get on.

Hey! It’s been a while since I answered one of these. I know people have sent me a lot, and I’m sorry for not answering. Life was already kind of in the shit and the pandemic didn’t help - I’m a chef and obviously restaurants etc are failing right now, so I lost my job and couldn’t get on unemployment because my state’s a circus lol.

I’m hanging in there, working as a temp for a mortgage company right now and it’s good to have some income, but it’s part time so I’m now delinquent on all my student loans and with everything else that was still going on, my financial life is just kind of crashing.

I just wanted to reply because due to all of this, I’m probably in the worst mental health I’ve ever been and it’s literally taking all I have in me just to operate and not fall into hysterics on a daily basis. I know you didn’t ask this in this one but a lot of people have been asking when I’d be getting back to the Alkahest or the Hedgehog’s Dilemma. Truly, I don’t know. Every day that I actually wake up in the morning rather than having gone through the horrible things I’ve been considering is kind of victory, and anything beyond that just seems utterly out of reach.

I know this probably wasn’t what anyone was hoping when seeing this post pop up. I wish I had more uplifting news. The truth is, I’m not even sure I’ll make it to 2021, so making even vague future promises of finishing any of my stories seems irresponsible at best. 

For everyone who is still sending me asks telling me how much they like my stories, thank you. I know I don’t reply, but I do see them. They come to my e-mail. I appreciate every single one and I’m so sorry I never replied to any of them. I don’t really have any excuses. I guess I’m just ashamed I never really followed through for you guys.

Until next time, and hoping there’s a next time,

Shadu

[shadu-kiam]

I'm really happy you're back but sad about the struggling you have to endure. have you tought about a Patreon or Ko-fi account? I'm sure lots of people would sign up and I would love to contribute, considering you put out such wonderful stories on your time and reviews are the only accolade your receive.. seems fair considering what i'd pay if i had to purchase book formated fanfiction

Thank you!

I’m really not sure how those things work. Is it like GoFundMe? 

Also I’m a little worried about accepting money for fanfiction, since I don’t own any of the intellectual property in the Harry Potter universe. I can’t help a niggling feeling saying that it would be unethical to accept payment for this kind of thing, but on the other hand people keep suggesting it so I have no idea where to fall on the issue anymore lmao.

[shadu-kiam]

I’M SO HAPPY TO SEE YOU BACK!!!!! *SENDING ALL THE SMILES AND HUGS* I hope you’re in a better place and that things continue to get better!

Thank you so much!! <3 <3 <3 <3 I’m so happy to BE BACK and see you guys again <3 omfg

[shadu-kiam]

OMG YOURE BACK! I remembered you posting about your laptop and the car accident and changing jobs and so much more and I didn’t want to bother you but you’re ok and back yay!!! i’ve missed seeing you on my tumblr

Aw thank you!! I heard tumblr had some crazy freak out and all the sexy stuff is gone now??? Damn it I missed so much

[shadu-kiam]

Ahhhh!!! Just saw your “dumb authors note” (and btw not dumb) but you’re back! And I’m so excited! I let out a loud squeal ❤️ so glad to hear that things are turning around for you😊😊😊😊

AAAAAAA thank you so much!! I AM DETERMINED TO KEEP THEM TURNED AROUND. Bad luck fairies can just TURN RIGHT AROUND, I am DONE with your nonsense for this lifetime!! lmfao

[shadu-kiam]

The Alkahest was a complete game-changer for me in fanfic. I know I’ve said it before, but it is the most relatable fanfic I’ve read to date. The character study angle that you take makes it so accessible and I swear some of the situations have absolutely happened to me with friends or boyfriend. And I love that you don’t shy away from serious topics either. What I’m trying to say is, thank you for writing such an amazing story. Happy Fanfic Writer Appreciation Day! ❤️

HI.

Sorry for not replying to this message for so long, I’ve been super MIA as you might have noticed (sorry sorry sorry). I figured I would use this message to announce that my MIA status is just about done, because it was such a lovely message to get <3

Everyone who’s ever read my fics, left comments, or otherwise supported my writing: Thank you.

Those of you in the FB groups and such that have adamantly maintained that I definitely didn’t abandon my fic when people asked: Thank you!! You were right. I know it’s easy to get jaded about those things in the fanfic world, and believe me, I’ve been the sad naysayer going “Man they’re never coming back.”

To those who supported the GoFundMe that Claire started when I had my accident: Very much thank you. I’m sorry that other circumstances continued to keep me from writing for so long, but that helped me so much in a time of panic and need, and I’m so grateful to everyone for both contributing to the GFM and for reaching out to me to send emotional support during a rough period. It was a dark time but I really feel like you all helped me through.

So many of you know that I had the accident, which accrued medical bills that left me floundered. Then on top of that, my laptop (and only computer) totally died.

I finally have a laptop again. It is ugly and old and refurbished as shit, but it is mine, and I’m really excited to start writing again.

But also and most importantly: To those of you who sent inbox messages to my tumblr when I never responded, basically shouting your appreciation of my fic into the void: Thank you, thank you, thank you. I did get all the alerts, and every one warmed my heart. I wanted to reply, but life just felt really… dark and shitty. The messages and pings I got were kind of the only bright spots for a while, so even though I’m a rat bastard who never replied: I fucking love you. You didn’t know it at the time but you helped me out immensely during one of the roughest periods of my life so far.

I’m back and I’m excited to be. Thank you everyone who believed and sent love and good vibes and prayers and all that. Everything I write from now on is dedicated to you.

[coffeenosugarjustcream]

I missed your writings! And I glad to hear you’re doing so much better. I was just rereading your fics just last month lol

[shadu-kiam]

omg really after ALL THIS TIME??

God you’re going to make ME cry

Happy tears tho.

[shadu-kiam]

The Alkahest was a complete game-changer for me in fanfic. I know I’ve said it before, but it is the most relatable fanfic I’ve read to date. The character study angle that you take makes it so accessible and I swear some of the situations have absolutely happened to me with friends or boyfriend. And I love that you don’t shy away from serious topics either. What I’m trying to say is, thank you for writing such an amazing story. Happy Fanfic Writer Appreciation Day! ❤️

HI.

Sorry for not replying to this message for so long, I’ve been super MIA as you might have noticed (sorry sorry sorry). I figured I would use this message to announce that my MIA status is just about done, because it was such a lovely message to get <3

Everyone who’s ever read my fics, left comments, or otherwise supported my writing: Thank you.

Those of you in the FB groups and such that have adamantly maintained that I definitely didn’t abandon my fic when people asked: Thank you!! You were right. I know it’s easy to get jaded about those things in the fanfic world, and believe me, I’ve been the sad naysayer going “Man they’re never coming back.”

To those who supported the GoFundMe that Claire started when I had my accident: Very much thank you. I’m sorry that other circumstances continued to keep me from writing for so long, but that helped me so much in a time of panic and need, and I’m so grateful to everyone for both contributing to the GFM and for reaching out to me to send emotional support during a rough period. It was a dark time but I really feel like you all helped me through.

So many of you know that I had the accident, which accrued medical bills that left me floundered. Then on top of that, my laptop (and only computer) totally died.

I finally have a laptop again. It is ugly and old and refurbished as shit, but it is mine, and I’m really excited to start writing again.

But also and most importantly: To those of you who sent inbox messages to my tumblr when I never responded, basically shouting your appreciation of my fic into the void: Thank you, thank you, thank you. I did get all the alerts, and every one warmed my heart. I wanted to reply, but life just felt really… dark and shitty. The messages and pings I got were kind of the only bright spots for a while, so even though I’m a rat bastard who never replied: I fucking love you. You didn’t know it at the time but you helped me out immensely during one of the roughest periods of my life so far.

I’m back and I’m excited to be. Thank you everyone who believed and sent love and good vibes and prayers and all that. Everything I write from now on is dedicated to you.

[thebookimaginarium]

I’m so glad you’re back! hope everything is starting to fall in line for you and I’m so happy that you feel well enough to come back! Sending good vibes your way! ❤️❤️❤️

[shadu-kiam]

I am amplifying those good vibes and sending them back at you!! <3 <3 <3

[shadu-kiam]

The Alkahest was a complete game-changer for me in fanfic. I know I’ve said it before, but it is the most relatable fanfic I’ve read to date. The character study angle that you take makes it so accessible and I swear some of the situations have absolutely happened to me with friends or boyfriend. And I love that you don’t shy away from serious topics either. What I’m trying to say is, thank you for writing such an amazing story. Happy Fanfic Writer Appreciation Day! ❤️

HI.

Sorry for not replying to this message for so long, I’ve been super MIA as you might have noticed (sorry sorry sorry). I figured I would use this message to announce that my MIA status is just about done, because it was such a lovely message to get <3

Everyone who’s ever read my fics, left comments, or otherwise supported my writing: Thank you.

Those of you in the FB groups and such that have adamantly maintained that I definitely didn’t abandon my fic when people asked: Thank you!! You were right. I know it’s easy to get jaded about those things in the fanfic world, and believe me, I’ve been the sad naysayer going “Man they’re never coming back.”

To those who supported the GoFundMe that Claire started when I had my accident: Very much thank you. I’m sorry that other circumstances continued to keep me from writing for so long, but that helped me so much in a time of panic and need, and I’m so grateful to everyone for both contributing to the GFM and for reaching out to me to send emotional support during a rough period. It was a dark time but I really feel like you all helped me through.

So many of you know that I had the accident, which accrued medical bills that left me floundered. Then on top of that, my laptop (and only computer) totally died.

I finally have a laptop again. It is ugly and old and refurbished as shit, but it is mine, and I’m really excited to start writing again.

But also and most importantly: To those of you who sent inbox messages to my tumblr when I never responded, basically shouting your appreciation of my fic into the void: Thank you, thank you, thank you. I did get all the alerts, and every one warmed my heart. I wanted to reply, but life just felt really… dark and shitty. The messages and pings I got were kind of the only bright spots for a while, so even though I’m a rat bastard who never replied: I fucking love you. You didn’t know it at the time but you helped me out immensely during one of the roughest periods of my life so far.

I’m back and I’m excited to be. Thank you everyone who believed and sent love and good vibes and prayers and all that. Everything I write from now on is dedicated to you.

[fuckyeahdisreputablekibeth]

OH MY GOSH YOURE BACK YOURE BACK YOURE BACK IM SO HAPPY MY SISTER IS GOING TO SCREAM.

This

Is

Wonderful

[shadu-kiam]

OMG and here I was all worried like “IT’S BEEN OVER A YEAR NO ONE WILL REMEMBER ME OR MY DUMB LITTLE FIC”

<3

[fuckyeahdisreputablekibeth]

Oh heck no. That’s my favorite freaking fic. It’s how I sucked my sister into dramione FanFiction. YOUR FIC IS AMAZING AND LIFE CHANGING

[shadu-kiam]

omfg you beautiful person <3 I HOPE YOUR SISTER FELL DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE WITH THE REST OF US hahaha

[starrnobella-deactivated2026051]

Welcome back @shadu-kiam

[shadu-kiam]

Thank you :)

[shadu-kiam]

The Alkahest was a complete game-changer for me in fanfic. I know I’ve said it before, but it is the most relatable fanfic I’ve read to date. The character study angle that you take makes it so accessible and I swear some of the situations have absolutely happened to me with friends or boyfriend. And I love that you don’t shy away from serious topics either. What I’m trying to say is, thank you for writing such an amazing story. Happy Fanfic Writer Appreciation Day! ❤️

HI.

Sorry for not replying to this message for so long, I’ve been super MIA as you might have noticed (sorry sorry sorry). I figured I would use this message to announce that my MIA status is just about done, because it was such a lovely message to get <3

Everyone who’s ever read my fics, left comments, or otherwise supported my writing: Thank you.

Those of you in the FB groups and such that have adamantly maintained that I definitely didn’t abandon my fic when people asked: Thank you!! You were right. I know it’s easy to get jaded about those things in the fanfic world, and believe me, I’ve been the sad naysayer going “Man they’re never coming back.”

To those who supported the GoFundMe that Claire started when I had my accident: Very much thank you. I’m sorry that other circumstances continued to keep me from writing for so long, but that helped me so much in a time of panic and need, and I’m so grateful to everyone for both contributing to the GFM and for reaching out to me to send emotional support during a rough period. It was a dark time but I really feel like you all helped me through.

So many of you know that I had the accident, which accrued medical bills that left me floundered. Then on top of that, my laptop (and only computer) totally died.

I finally have a laptop again. It is ugly and old and refurbished as shit, but it is mine, and I’m really excited to start writing again.

But also and most importantly: To those of you who sent inbox messages to my tumblr when I never responded, basically shouting your appreciation of my fic into the void: Thank you, thank you, thank you. I did get all the alerts, and every one warmed my heart. I wanted to reply, but life just felt really… dark and shitty. The messages and pings I got were kind of the only bright spots for a while, so even though I’m a rat bastard who never replied: I fucking love you. You didn’t know it at the time but you helped me out immensely during one of the roughest periods of my life so far.

I’m back and I’m excited to be. Thank you everyone who believed and sent love and good vibes and prayers and all that. Everything I write from now on is dedicated to you.

[sleepygrimm]

@shadu-kiam I’m sooo glad to see you! ❤️

[shadu-kiam]

BABY DOLL!!! AAAAA

[sleepygrimm]

@shadu-kiam OH MAN I MISS YOU!!!! 😍

[shadu-kiam]

I missed you SO MUCH!!

let’s just gifspam our excitement so it floods everyone’s dash

[sleepygrimm]

@shadu-kiam Hahaha! That is why I so F@*# Love you!

[shadu-kiam]

<3 baby my love for you can’t be shouted loud enough

[shadu-kiam]

The Alkahest was a complete game-changer for me in fanfic. I know I’ve said it before, but it is the most relatable fanfic I’ve read to date. The character study angle that you take makes it so accessible and I swear some of the situations have absolutely happened to me with friends or boyfriend. And I love that you don’t shy away from serious topics either. What I’m trying to say is, thank you for writing such an amazing story. Happy Fanfic Writer Appreciation Day! ❤️

HI.

Sorry for not replying to this message for so long, I’ve been super MIA as you might have noticed (sorry sorry sorry). I figured I would use this message to announce that my MIA status is just about done, because it was such a lovely message to get <3

Everyone who’s ever read my fics, left comments, or otherwise supported my writing: Thank you.

Those of you in the FB groups and such that have adamantly maintained that I definitely didn’t abandon my fic when people asked: Thank you!! You were right. I know it’s easy to get jaded about those things in the fanfic world, and believe me, I’ve been the sad naysayer going “Man they’re never coming back.”

To those who supported the GoFundMe that Claire started when I had my accident: Very much thank you. I’m sorry that other circumstances continued to keep me from writing for so long, but that helped me so much in a time of panic and need, and I’m so grateful to everyone for both contributing to the GFM and for reaching out to me to send emotional support during a rough period. It was a dark time but I really feel like you all helped me through.

So many of you know that I had the accident, which accrued medical bills that left me floundered. Then on top of that, my laptop (and only computer) totally died.

I finally have a laptop again. It is ugly and old and refurbished as shit, but it is mine, and I’m really excited to start writing again.

But also and most importantly: To those of you who sent inbox messages to my tumblr when I never responded, basically shouting your appreciation of my fic into the void: Thank you, thank you, thank you. I did get all the alerts, and every one warmed my heart. I wanted to reply, but life just felt really… dark and shitty. The messages and pings I got were kind of the only bright spots for a while, so even though I’m a rat bastard who never replied: I fucking love you. You didn’t know it at the time but you helped me out immensely during one of the roughest periods of my life so far.

I’m back and I’m excited to be. Thank you everyone who believed and sent love and good vibes and prayers and all that. Everything I write from now on is dedicated to you.

[sleepygrimm]

@shadu-kiam I’m sooo glad to see you! ❤️

[shadu-kiam]

BABY DOLL!!! AAAAA

[sleepygrimm]

@shadu-kiam OH MAN I MISS YOU!!!! 😍

[shadu-kiam]

I missed you SO MUCH!!

let’s just gifspam our excitement so it floods everyone’s dash

[shadu-kiam]

The Alkahest was a complete game-changer for me in fanfic. I know I’ve said it before, but it is the most relatable fanfic I’ve read to date. The character study angle that you take makes it so accessible and I swear some of the situations have absolutely happened to me with friends or boyfriend. And I love that you don’t shy away from serious topics either. What I’m trying to say is, thank you for writing such an amazing story. Happy Fanfic Writer Appreciation Day! ❤️

HI.

Sorry for not replying to this message for so long, I’ve been super MIA as you might have noticed (sorry sorry sorry). I figured I would use this message to announce that my MIA status is just about done, because it was such a lovely message to get <3

Everyone who’s ever read my fics, left comments, or otherwise supported my writing: Thank you.

Those of you in the FB groups and such that have adamantly maintained that I definitely didn’t abandon my fic when people asked: Thank you!! You were right. I know it’s easy to get jaded about those things in the fanfic world, and believe me, I’ve been the sad naysayer going “Man they’re never coming back.”

To those who supported the GoFundMe that Claire started when I had my accident: Very much thank you. I’m sorry that other circumstances continued to keep me from writing for so long, but that helped me so much in a time of panic and need, and I’m so grateful to everyone for both contributing to the GFM and for reaching out to me to send emotional support during a rough period. It was a dark time but I really feel like you all helped me through.

So many of you know that I had the accident, which accrued medical bills that left me floundered. Then on top of that, my laptop (and only computer) totally died.

I finally have a laptop again. It is ugly and old and refurbished as shit, but it is mine, and I’m really excited to start writing again.

But also and most importantly: To those of you who sent inbox messages to my tumblr when I never responded, basically shouting your appreciation of my fic into the void: Thank you, thank you, thank you. I did get all the alerts, and every one warmed my heart. I wanted to reply, but life just felt really… dark and shitty. The messages and pings I got were kind of the only bright spots for a while, so even though I’m a rat bastard who never replied: I fucking love you. You didn’t know it at the time but you helped me out immensely during one of the roughest periods of my life so far.

I’m back and I’m excited to be. Thank you everyone who believed and sent love and good vibes and prayers and all that. Everything I write from now on is dedicated to you.

[fuckyeahdisreputablekibeth]

OH MY GOSH YOURE BACK YOURE BACK YOURE BACK IM SO HAPPY MY SISTER IS GOING TO SCREAM.

This

Is

Wonderful

[shadu-kiam]

OMG and here I was all worried like “IT’S BEEN OVER A YEAR NO ONE WILL REMEMBER ME OR MY DUMB LITTLE FIC”

<3

[fuckyeahdisreputablekibeth]

Oh heck no. That’s my favorite freaking fic. It’s how I sucked my sister into dramione FanFiction. YOUR FIC IS AMAZING AND LIFE CHANGING

[shadu-kiam]

omfg you beautiful person <3 I HOPE YOUR SISTER FELL DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE WITH THE REST OF US hahaha

[shadu-kiam]

The Alkahest was a complete game-changer for me in fanfic. I know I’ve said it before, but it is the most relatable fanfic I’ve read to date. The character study angle that you take makes it so accessible and I swear some of the situations have absolutely happened to me with friends or boyfriend. And I love that you don’t shy away from serious topics either. What I’m trying to say is, thank you for writing such an amazing story. Happy Fanfic Writer Appreciation Day! ❤️

HI.

Sorry for not replying to this message for so long, I’ve been super MIA as you might have noticed (sorry sorry sorry). I figured I would use this message to announce that my MIA status is just about done, because it was such a lovely message to get <3

Everyone who’s ever read my fics, left comments, or otherwise supported my writing: Thank you.

Those of you in the FB groups and such that have adamantly maintained that I definitely didn’t abandon my fic when people asked: Thank you!! You were right. I know it’s easy to get jaded about those things in the fanfic world, and believe me, I’ve been the sad naysayer going “Man they’re never coming back.”

To those who supported the GoFundMe that Claire started when I had my accident: Very much thank you. I’m sorry that other circumstances continued to keep me from writing for so long, but that helped me so much in a time of panic and need, and I’m so grateful to everyone for both contributing to the GFM and for reaching out to me to send emotional support during a rough period. It was a dark time but I really feel like you all helped me through.

So many of you know that I had the accident, which accrued medical bills that left me floundered. Then on top of that, my laptop (and only computer) totally died.

I finally have a laptop again. It is ugly and old and refurbished as shit, but it is mine, and I’m really excited to start writing again.

But also and most importantly: To those of you who sent inbox messages to my tumblr when I never responded, basically shouting your appreciation of my fic into the void: Thank you, thank you, thank you. I did get all the alerts, and every one warmed my heart. I wanted to reply, but life just felt really… dark and shitty. The messages and pings I got were kind of the only bright spots for a while, so even though I’m a rat bastard who never replied: I fucking love you. You didn’t know it at the time but you helped me out immensely during one of the roughest periods of my life so far.

I’m back and I’m excited to be. Thank you everyone who believed and sent love and good vibes and prayers and all that. Everything I write from now on is dedicated to you.

[sleepygrimm]

@shadu-kiam I’m sooo glad to see you! ❤️

[shadu-kiam]

BABY DOLL!!! AAAAA

[shadu-kiam]

The Alkahest was a complete game-changer for me in fanfic. I know I’ve said it before, but it is the most relatable fanfic I’ve read to date. The character study angle that you take makes it so accessible and I swear some of the situations have absolutely happened to me with friends or boyfriend. And I love that you don’t shy away from serious topics either. What I’m trying to say is, thank you for writing such an amazing story. Happy Fanfic Writer Appreciation Day! ❤️

HI.

Sorry for not replying to this message for so long, I’ve been super MIA as you might have noticed (sorry sorry sorry). I figured I would use this message to announce that my MIA status is just about done, because it was such a lovely message to get <3

Everyone who’s ever read my fics, left comments, or otherwise supported my writing: Thank you.

Those of you in the FB groups and such that have adamantly maintained that I definitely didn’t abandon my fic when people asked: Thank you!! You were right. I know it’s easy to get jaded about those things in the fanfic world, and believe me, I’ve been the sad naysayer going “Man they’re never coming back.”

To those who supported the GoFundMe that Claire started when I had my accident: Very much thank you. I’m sorry that other circumstances continued to keep me from writing for so long, but that helped me so much in a time of panic and need, and I’m so grateful to everyone for both contributing to the GFM and for reaching out to me to send emotional support during a rough period. It was a dark time but I really feel like you all helped me through.

So many of you know that I had the accident, which accrued medical bills that left me floundered. Then on top of that, my laptop (and only computer) totally died.

I finally have a laptop again. It is ugly and old and refurbished as shit, but it is mine, and I’m really excited to start writing again.

But also and most importantly: To those of you who sent inbox messages to my tumblr when I never responded, basically shouting your appreciation of my fic into the void: Thank you, thank you, thank you. I did get all the alerts, and every one warmed my heart. I wanted to reply, but life just felt really… dark and shitty. The messages and pings I got were kind of the only bright spots for a while, so even though I’m a rat bastard who never replied: I fucking love you. You didn’t know it at the time but you helped me out immensely during one of the roughest periods of my life so far.

I’m back and I’m excited to be. Thank you everyone who believed and sent love and good vibes and prayers and all that. Everything I write from now on is dedicated to you.

[fuckyeahdisreputablekibeth]

OH MY GOSH YOURE BACK YOURE BACK YOURE BACK IM SO HAPPY MY SISTER IS GOING TO SCREAM.

This

Is

Wonderful

[shadu-kiam]

OMG and here I was all worried like “IT’S BEEN OVER A YEAR NO ONE WILL REMEMBER ME OR MY DUMB LITTLE FIC”

<3

[shadu-kiam]

I’m so glad you’re back, I’ve missed you so much.

I have missed you, Anon. YES EVEN YOU AND I DON’T KNOW WHO YOU ARE. I’m still figuring a few things out (most notably that I will have to completely re-read the Alkahest AGAIN [ god damn it ] to remember all the little plot points I’ve littered everywhere), so it will probably be a good few weeks before a new chapter. But I am BACK. 

[shadu-kiam]

The Alkahest was a complete game-changer for me in fanfic. I know I’ve said it before, but it is the most relatable fanfic I’ve read to date. The character study angle that you take makes it so accessible and I swear some of the situations have absolutely happened to me with friends or boyfriend. And I love that you don’t shy away from serious topics either. What I’m trying to say is, thank you for writing such an amazing story. Happy Fanfic Writer Appreciation Day! ❤️

HI.

Sorry for not replying to this message for so long, I’ve been super MIA as you might have noticed (sorry sorry sorry). I figured I would use this message to announce that my MIA status is just about done, because it was such a lovely message to get <3

Everyone who’s ever read my fics, left comments, or otherwise supported my writing: Thank you.

Those of you in the FB groups and such that have adamantly maintained that I definitely didn’t abandon my fic when people asked: Thank you!! You were right. I know it’s easy to get jaded about those things in the fanfic world, and believe me, I’ve been the sad naysayer going “Man they’re never coming back.”

To those who supported the GoFundMe that Claire started when I had my accident: Very much thank you. I’m sorry that other circumstances continued to keep me from writing for so long, but that helped me so much in a time of panic and need, and I’m so grateful to everyone for both contributing to the GFM and for reaching out to me to send emotional support during a rough period. It was a dark time but I really feel like you all helped me through.

So many of you know that I had the accident, which accrued medical bills that left me floundered. Then on top of that, my laptop (and only computer) totally died.

I finally have a laptop again. It is ugly and old and refurbished as shit, but it is mine, and I’m really excited to start writing again.

But also and most importantly: To those of you who sent inbox messages to my tumblr when I never responded, basically shouting your appreciation of my fic into the void: Thank you, thank you, thank you. I did get all the alerts, and every one warmed my heart. I wanted to reply, but life just felt really... dark and shitty. The messages and pings I got were kind of the only bright spots for a while, so even though I’m a rat bastard who never replied: I fucking love you. You didn’t know it at the time but you helped me out immensely during one of the roughest periods of my life so far.

I’m back and I’m excited to be. Thank you everyone who believed and sent love and good vibes and prayers and all that. Everything I write from now on is dedicated to you.

[shadu-kiam]

Hey! Just wanted to know what the plans are for HedgeHog and the Alkahest been loving those pics and hope they can get updated soon!XOXOXO

Hello!

Unfortunately, I don’t have a laptop right now (it died at the beginning of the year) and I can’t afford to grab a new one just yet! I’m working myself out of some medical debt right now, but once I’ve got that squared away, I’ll be able to save up for a new laptop and get back into it :)