besides,,,,,, low-key panic,,,,,,, because he would,,,, i haven’t formally gotten all my ideas down in a post yet but i, uh. headcanon that a lot of reggie’s resentment for conduits ( and the underlying fear of them ) stems from the fact that they were involved in the death of his n delsin’ parents. listening to the kind of language he and delsin use when discussing how delsin has “become one of them” it, to me, speaks of connected trauma. with reggie,,,, obviously being slower to get used to the idea and still remaining hostile to any conduit that ISN’T delsin ( and smh i think i wrote meta on how long it’ll take him to get over his behavior but tl;dr it’s a long time )but uh. it would be a lot to take in. first of all, he’d likely feel betrayed, especially if they were actively keeping it a secret from him. he’d be,,,, angry, feel like his trust was entirely taken advantage of and broken. he’d be terrified — shattered trust making it easier to believe they wanted to hurt him. just,,, a full mixture of scared, angry, uncomfortable, ect. wouldn’t feel safe, wouldn’t want them anywhere close to him, literally backing away and telling them not to come near him. he would,,,, need a lot of time. he’d need out of the situation. he’d need space. but loving someone is complicated and reggie loves so deeply and powerfully that idk if he’d really be able to push it aside completely, no matter how scared or angry he was. eventually he’d try to connect in small ways ex. asking about them, checking in casually ( see: awkwardly ) but he really can’t be rushed at that point hvdihdsog he needs,,,, to take baby steps. he’d also still be,,,,,, incredibly unable to ignore his instinct to protect. so chances are if they’re in trouble he’ll be there but at the same time ?????? it would be very unlikely that he'd be able to continue a relationship w / them hfisdhfsd yeah BASICALLY MESSY DONT LIE TO HIM LIKE THAT
