AriesBabyLoveMeHateMe

im here to post sad shit & occasionally laugh

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Arthur Miller, The Crucible

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— anonymous

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— soulinkpoetry

[anxietyproblem]

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— sylvia plath (via letsbelonelytogetherr)

[vexheart]

[aidashakur]

[catchymemes]

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[thoughtkick]

“I have never known who or what I am supposed to be. The only thing I know for sure, is that I am supposed to be more than I have been.”

— William Chapman

[shhhsmiley]

I’m deciding now to become everything I know God intended me to be.

He blessed me as a writer, a singer, a creative, a lover, a fixer, a helper, a giver, a safe place…

No matter how bad it scares me I have to live the life that was designed for me or I’ll never feel complete or like I was ever grateful for what was placed inside of me.

(Just noting this to look back on when it finally comes to pass)

[shhhsmiley]

Here bc I think I’m finally ready to put it all behind me 🫡

[shhhsmiley]

6

Months later…😕

i think today is the day though, really.

[shhhsmiley]

6 days shy of a year later. But the day came

[shhhsmiley]

I’ve given every opportunity for him to show up. Given the date and time of every appointment. Given every update. Left all the doors wide open to my life, my heart and her…& he has avoided them at all cost. I thought for a second he turned things around and had a change of heart. But the last time was his last time disappointing me like that. It didn’t even hurt and that’s how I know I was ready to move on. But still bro…I’m like where tf did you go? Is this really what you’re choosing to do? What’s keeping you away? What’s easing your conscience rn? I keep wondering but if I’m really walking away I gotta make peace with it and leave him where he’s at for good. I told myself if I got to the end and he didn’t come around, he wasn’t welcomed into our lives at all. And even though I have a little bit of time left, to me, time is up.

I just can’t believe how it all went down.

[shhhsmiley]

Keeping the door open was the worst mistake I could’ve made. All I did was welcome in disappointment, lies, empty promises and inconsistency. I should’ve done what my gut told me and that was to cut him off and not look back. He didn’t deserve to ever know her after all he did and said.

But I learned tonight. I just hope when I come back in the future that I will have left the door shut.

[shhhsmiley]

Shut de doe girl please

[shhhsmiley]

*just slowly shaking my head in disappointment * but it’s okay though, we’re almost there, I promise.

[shhhsmiley]

We finally made it. But it had to get so bad for me to finally let go. And I do mean so so much. More pain, betrayal, abandonment, broken promises, and more man.

So future me, I urge you, listen to yourself the first time. When you hear that voice that says run, you run. Hurt while you run, cry while you run, try to make sense of it when you get away. But you don’t need to see again how far it can go before you let go.

This changed my life. My heart. My mind. You don’t owe anyone else that ever again.

[remanence-of-love]

[shhhsmiley]

That’s what we’ve been acting like, and while my heart needed it, I think it’s time I get back to reality. I can’t stay here

[shhhsmiley]

I’ve given every opportunity for him to show up. Given the date and time of every appointment. Given every update. Left all the doors wide open to my life, my heart and her…& he has avoided them at all cost. I thought for a second he turned things around and had a change of heart. But the last time was his last time disappointing me like that. It didn’t even hurt and that’s how I know I was ready to move on. But still bro…I’m like where tf did you go? Is this really what you’re choosing to do? What’s keeping you away? What’s easing your conscience rn? I keep wondering but if I’m really walking away I gotta make peace with it and leave him where he’s at for good. I told myself if I got to the end and he didn’t come around, he wasn’t welcomed into our lives at all. And even though I have a little bit of time left, to me, time is up.

I just can’t believe how it all went down.

[shhhsmiley]

Keeping the door open was the worst mistake I could’ve made. All I did was welcome in disappointment, lies, empty promises and inconsistency. I should’ve done what my gut told me and that was to cut him off and not look back. He didn’t deserve to ever know her after all he did and said.

But I learned tonight. I just hope when I come back in the future that I will have left the door shut.

[shhhsmiley]

Shut de doe girl please

[shhhsmiley]

*just slowly shaking my head in disappointment * but it’s okay though, we’re almost there, I promise.

[shhhsmiley]

Here bc I think I’m finally ready to put it all behind me 🫡

[shhhsmiley]

6

Months later…😕

i think today is the day though, really.

[shhhsmiley]

And part of that,

…is purging all this pain inside of me in a way that feels like retribution to me. In a beautiful way