It's definitely been awhile and while I've kept at trying to shift I definitely also taken a break from shifting. I just wanted to pop on here for a new realization that helps me feel better about my progress and my journey that I think might help others too. I've definitely gotten close to shifting and even mini shifted once or twice. But I've always been my main blockage of fully shifting. And I saw a video that help me realize more of why. I believe in shifting whole heartily, I know it's real. But I don't believe I can do it myself. Just like I don't believe I can run very fast because I hate running I've turn shifting into the same thing because I hate having so many failed attempts. But I know if I keep working on it and actually try more and not get so discouraged I would be making much more progress. And something that really helped me realize this is thinking of shifting like ghosts. Not everyone believes it but many have experience it. I've personally have had multiple ghost experiences and at first I thought it was all in my head until it kept happening. As I've said I've had once or twice mini shifts, an experience but not enough so my brain makes me think it's all in my head. I know it's a real possibility for me to achieve because I have already. I just need more experience with it to fully wrap my head around and get my subconscious to understand it isn't just in my head and I am experiencing it and that it is possible for me to do. It all just starts with simple changes. For the ghost it was going into haunted area and hearing things. For shifting its gonna have to start with mindset and vocabulary. No more I'm gonna try tonight or I will tonight. I'm going to try a simpler approach. Questions about what I'm doing in my DR, what's going on around me, how was the weather today, and small things like that to get into the mindset of shifting. I'm not going to tell myself I am or am not and just let it be enough with my own skill and my own willingness. You only get out what you put in and I haven't been putting in as much as I should for someone who cares so much about shifting. Sorry for the rant but I hope it helps someone as much as it's helped me.
Also sorry if that made no sense 😅