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📍SOP'S RANTS

Hi there, it's been long. The only place for me to rant here. It has been only 2 months and work has started to pile up. It will be even worse next year onwards. Stress plus stress plus stress. Not ideal for me to grow my career here but oh well, suck it up man. Been through lots and lots. Missing the good old days. The study life. Till then。

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Guess this place needs some updates as well🤔 So it's been a month ever since I have completed my uni life and am still waiting for my results which will be due in mid/end aug. People around me have been on intense job hunting while I'm still stuck in my comfort zone back to my part time job. Is it I too chill alr? I must admit that you guys did make me feel kan chiong about finding the perm job which made me finally started on my resume and searching for jobs availability. Not that I don't know what I wanna do but I really plan out my ideal career path since years ago but the execution part is the tough one. Heard from friends about their experience from job hunting over the past one month and that has shocked me. I always felt that having a degree cert to get a min $3k pay was a norm but no, it wasn't. The amount of pay that others could offer us was really way damn low beyond my expectation and that was what they deemed we are worth of. I honestly REGRET taking up uol... The amount of time, effort and money that I have put in... It really isn't easy to study uol, well maybe there's a limit to my ability. And of course the opportunity loss of gaining real working experience during that precious 3yrs. All thanks to me being easily influenced by others' point of view. Oh well, I will just have to suck it up. So that's one of the major change of my life that I'm going through rn and here's the another one. Hmm... So I have decided to go into a rs recently and I must admit that it does create an impact in my life. I always have issues to balance my friendship and rs ever since back in sec sch. Moreover, I'm dating a full time working adult who's has a 5.5 work week which made me trying to allocate my weekends as much as possible for him cos weekends really means a lot to him. Plus, I have been giving more days to commit in my work and it often ends late. By the time I reached home, it's already 8plus and I will be really damn tired till I don't want to care about anything else and just sleep my way. I know that I have neglected my fam, especially my bro. Have stopped fetching him cos I can't possibly end my work early and also due to the fact that I'm cash tight and that's why I'm committing more of my time for my work. I really wanna ignore and telling myself not to be affected but I guess I have no choice. I hope my chingus would understand the kind of situations that I'm going through rn. I do treasure our friendship cos I know y'all really care a lot for me though I know that I have lesser time for y'all already. But I really do need some time to cope with this new lifestyle and to learn to balance my life better. And I believe that everyone who has a new rs would go through this phase too. Guess at this point of time, I realised that it isn't easy to satisfy every single people. People will have lots of other stuff to take into consideration and hence, their time won't always be yours as they always do in the past. Sometimes you will have to know that not everything will always go accordingly to what you always wanted. And at our age, working full time will be another phase of our life and everyone will have a life in the future. I guess when it's time to grow up, we should. I genuinely hope to have friends who will support and understand me. So happy reading chingus (:

Biggest challenge ever faced

Finally soooo done with finals and no more staying at home with my notes over the weekends. So here's our first post-exams getaway to JB instead of bkk cos air tics are way too overpriced. Hah. It's really rare to find someone who can piggyback me, moreover to carry me over the shoulder (feeling like a cheerleader). Cos I'm really that heavy. Oops. And yes, we are official💞 (as per my request😂)

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It's always good to know that there's someone there behind you wishing for your happiness genuinely. Thanks nana💛 我会开心的 One fking last paper to gooooooo. Really can't wait😖

Really thought that we will only meet once this week (which was after my first paper) so I never expect that you will travel all the way down after your work despite the fact that you didn't sleep much the night before. Xiao touched when you came down with seaweed (which I just mention for shuang) and gongcha (literally forget that I'm having menses now). Heh. Totally unproductive when revising ebiz but super productive when revising audit. Why the diff so big? I guess I really have no heart to study mods that I don't like. Hurr😩 Becoming more and more unsure if I really can clear this year or not😐

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One who get to sleep without any worries and one who doesn't have the luxury to do so. Last weekend spent tgt before my finals start tmr. Will be super stressed up for the upcoming two weeks so I might go mia. Heh. Really can't wait to be staying outdoors instead of being stuck indoors during weekends. *motherly feel upz there*😂

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Awesome long weekend spent tgt (: Think I'm going marvel siao soon. Hah. First paper starting next week so I guess lesser meetups but more S time then😂

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Love-hate relationship with the one who looks younger than me but in fact, he's not😂 Can't wait to execute our plans as to where we will be going to have fun at. Heh. Have to hereby apologize to those who worried about me with regards to my previous deleted post. Am sorry for being mischievous for playing a prank over here along with him to see who will get worried over this cos I don't think there's anyone who will believe it easily and being forgetful to delete it before I went to bed. But am glad that there's actually people who truly care and worry for me. Now I know that there will be at least one behind my back whenever I fall. Love y'all💛

Good times will be like damn good and bad times will be like damn bad.

Suddenly feel so lost..

Friends around me should know that I’m slow, need time to process, always stone there and keep making others to repeat themselves when they are talking to me. But they still accept my flaws and continue to stay by my side despite the fact that I always made them feel like vomiting blood when they talked to me. Right chingus?

Oh well, everyone has flaws and that means no one is perfect. Been trying to improve on my flaws or even tried to totally get rid of it. But those are my traits. If those doesn’t exist, I’m not Sophia anymore. Just really want to be me so hoping for that someone who can accept everything of me appears.

Cramps acting up again after a mth which made me can't focus much on my studies. Sigh. So back here for some updates. D-28: Really really can't wait to get over with finals but not yet prepared for it though. There are so many things that I want to do. Can't wait to go on proper dates with you instead of being cooped up at your hse every week (which can be seen from the pic above). Heh. But at least I accomplished something meaningful? Managed to study a bit. A bit is better than nothing right? Hah. And of course can't wait to have some proper meet ups with my chingus. Be it cafehops, sing k, hunting for new places to eat, drink till we drop or maybe something adventurous this time? But oh well, have to wait for finals to be over first. Chey~

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Finally caught the divergent series movie😁 Feeling xiao guilty for conning someone to watch this with me by saying that there's no link to the previous series. Heh. But oh well, this movie was suppose to be watched with the batman superman movie. So I'm glad that you kept your promise (: Hopefully this shall not be our last movie tgt.

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Finally fulfilled someone's wish of having a getaway though it isn't that far away from sg. Thanks for tolerating me of my extreme cafehops and wanting to take pics of this and that. Really thankful for the memories created over the weekends. Gomawo💞

#260316 #onlyhappythoughtshere

This is typically true for me cos when I’m feeling sad, I don’t feel like talking to anyone.

Feeling xiao sensitive today, getting a bit frustrated; not being understanding; even burst into tears. I’m sorry that I couldn’t speak up when you asked what happened to me. I really really want to open up to you but my mouth just couldn’t. Think I’m really bad at talking it out but here I am penning down my thoughts.

I really want you to talk to me on S but I often failed to get your attention. You were always browsing your phone, be it BF/9GAG/FB/YT, and always telling me to go study. I know you meant me well but I really really want to talk to you instead of me just looking at you. Might as well don’t S right? Hah. It seems like it’s pretty easy to say it out but idk why I can’t do it. Guess it’s pretty difficult for me to say out my inner thoughts. Like today, I really hope that you will come find me but I couldn’t tell you. Like 很难开口 ah. Then on S you like busy with phone like that. Guess that’s what made me lose control.

Someone once told me that communication is an impt part in a rs but it seems like I’m lacking. I promise I will try to be better but I’m not confident that I’m up to it.

So glad that there’s still a place for me to let out my thoughts. It’s getting late so nights.

#latenightthoughts

UPDATES // Thanks for agreeing to join the crowd for the underwhelming iLight Fest despite sweating like mad and tolerating me for taking tons of photos tgt. Yes, we took near to 100 pics!! Heh. This week has been well except the downs that we had. But it has made us know each other better and this is what the dating phase is all about. Hah. On a side note, it's D-50 and I'm still not at the verge of being so so stress up. I'm so dead😂

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D-60

Moving my rants over to somewhere else.

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