hello, iâm eleanor & i return with one of my favourite (complicated muses), esther. sheâs the bad guy but doesnât even know that and is very dedicated to her political agenda. sheâs filling the âfor humanityâ subplot. iâm so, so happy to be back !
constance zimmer + cisfemale + she/her.â â â hey, is it just me or do you hear panic room by au/ra playing in the distance ? oh, thatâs just esther silverman, a fifty year old damage control working with the sector of humanity. according to my sources, i heard she can be lawful evil and is determined, but also defensive. thatâs probably why they remind everyone of fitted business suits, sleepless nights & fearful eyes so much ! anyway, make sure to keep an eye out, the doves are more powerful with them on their side ! ( eleanor, 21, bst, she/her )
please read with caution: abandonment tw, abuse tw, child abuse tw, alcoholism tw, general hate
esther grew up in a middle class family to a german migrant parents. even as a child, esther was a confident person, perhaps a little too confident for her own age. she was always outspoken and that didnât bode well with her father; he was a tough man, one that held old-fashioned values very dear to him and one that demanded respect from all those around him. her mother was weak in that aspect, she quit her job when esther was born and didnât go back because her father wanted her to stay at home and look after their daughter while he ran his business.
he always had high hopes for esther and that meant that nothing was ever good enough for him; he pushed her as she was his only child and wanted nothing but greatness from her. her mother tried to praise her but there was never any balance. as esther grew older, her parents seemed to distance themselves further away from them as her father began drinking more and more.
he said it was always to take the edge off of disappointment but he had a problem and wouldnât admit it. when confronted about this, the man would often turn violent so she just learnt to turn a blind eye.
when esther tried to talk to him about his behaviour, heâs snap and turn on her; the man just wouldnât listen. esther was actually the one to step in front of her mother when she was about to get a beating; she doesnât know her exact motive but she felt like she had to PROTECT the other woman, no matter how manipulative she was, she still felt the evil in her household was her father and no doubt her mother used that to her advantage.
there was an incident when esther was caught in between her parents and had to go to er because her father hit her and she collided with the coffee table. her mother persuaded her that this was the case and she just wanted it to go away so she believed it. her memories are blurry so she just replaces them with what she wants them to believe.
her mother fled shortly after the hospital visit and it was really upsetting. she had tried to protect the woman yet she had just left her, as if she was expendable.
there was only so much esther could endure. yes, she was scared already, both mentally and physically but after her father had his accident and received his cane, it just became easier for him to hurt her. no matter how strong or resilient she was, she couldnât condemn his actions and believed that she had actually caused all of these situations. she believed that she was the reason for it all as it never seemed to stop; she must have been awful for her father to act in this way to her.
the situation at home caused her to be rather closed off from the world. all she could focus on was her school work as she hoped to go to an ivy league school to get an education that would finally be able to free her. she was loud at school, far too defensive but she felt like she had to be to survive. her mentality was âget them before they get meâ and that attitude still stands today.
persuasive, confident and observant, it was no surprise when she decided to go into the legal profession. she had also been feeling the pressure to amount to something! although she was abrasive, some would say rude, esther had the ability to work around people, to manipulate them into thinking what she wanted them to think; when it came to the game, her conscience was left at the door.
of course, her father supported this and paid for harvard law school for her undergraduate degree. however, he passed away when she started yale law due to liver failure; she had tried to tell him but there was no getting through to him. she felt strange with his death, upset and angry that she never felt strong enough to confront him.
her mother shut her out, claiming that things would be better for her if she had no association with her. esther had supported her, protected her when it should have been the other way around so this request hurt her. although she had felt it throughout her childhood, she was now alone.
she threw herself into her law career and proved to be a successful criminal lawyer; esther made junior partner at the age of thirty-four. although she wasnât the most pleasant person to be around, she brought the company a lot of money and they always appreciated her services.
the woman never really tackled her issues so when the supers started turning up, they were perfect scapegoats for her anger. they had the upper hand, much like her father did so she decided to be against them. she feels like she needs to protect herself more than ever before. sheâs so full of hate but an extremely vulnerable woman of 5âČ1. she needs to get rid of them before they have the means to hurt her and god knows how many other people.
thatâs why she decided to leave her career as a lawyer and become a politician (now for the sector of humanity). although her reasons for it are purely selfish and a coping mechanism for her to compartmentalise her pain, she has nicknamed herself âTHE POLITICIAN FOR THE PEOPLEâ, meaning only the people, the ones that donât have any powers. deed down, she knows sheâs wrong but is too far down de nile river for her to acknowledge that.
she has a lack of direction and that can be seen through her politics. she can give amazing speeches but lacks substance as to why she thinks that they should be banned in the first place and when challenged, she instantly goes on the defensive. she has the makings of a villain seen as sheâs not totally clean and will go to great lengths to set up supers but also has the chance to be redeemed if she finally faces up to her own problems and stops blaming supers for all of her problems.
esther is very hostile with most so please donât take it personally. i canât wait to develop her here!!
