I am an Angel of God.

amour d' espoi de foi. my idiosyncrasy: every summer, new swimsuits. | Summer is my fave part of every year. A wanderer. hashtagCHICKSONKICKS

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To that man that I unintentionally hurt.

I don't know how to start this. Honestly. But, I wanna thank you for everything. For making me feel loved and making me happy again and for making me half whole (but now I'm breaking into pieces again). Thank you for making me feel like a princess in such things you do. Thank you and I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I've hurt you unintentionally. That I wasn't thinking before doing things. I'm sorry that I sometimes think of myself only, that I'm being selfish in times. I'm sorry. Thank you and sorry for the times you wasted on me. This might be the end. I don't know. Whatever your decision will be, I'll accept it wholeheartedly. Not because I was wrong, but because I love you and I don't wanna hurt you.

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Does he really love you, or you're just another rebound?

He loves you, he says. He's moved on, he says. But the way he reacts about his ex girlfriend, you think the other way. You tell yourself it's fine you haven't moved on too, but after saying that you ask your self am I saying this just because I don't wanna get hurt again? That you're just convincing your self you haven't moved on yet though you know you already did just to keep you safe from the pain. Yes you're jealous. The way he reacts when he tell you bout his ex, the way he says those words, with that emphasis on every words. Yes you think he hasn't moved on yet. You think you're just another rebound and it hurts, it hurts like hell. Hurts more than your previous break up with that 4year long relationship. But he says he's moved on. All you can say is you believe him but when you're alone you kept on doubting, thinking and asking yourself the question which he can only answer. Does he really love you or you're just another rebound? That question hurts like hell.

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A girl who cuts her hair is about to change her life, they say. But not for me. I don't regret cutting my long hair, losing the amazing waves of my hair and having bangs again. I have a reason to that. I'm not gonna change my life for I'm bringing the old Berna back. Ibabalik ko na yung Berna na nawala nung nalunod ako sa pag-ibig nuon. Wow! Ang lalim. Popoy ang peg? Eto na talaga. Naka-move on na talaga ko. No more pain. After knowing he still has relationship with that girl, I felt no pain. I woke up seeing a beautiful smile on my face that smile somebody brought back. Ugh, I love this feeling and I thank somebody to that.

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First Love (n.) The first person you ever had feelings for. It doesn't matter if it happened when you were five, or fifty-five. It doesn't matter if he or she loved you back. All that matters is that at one point in time, he or she was the first person you ever loved and wanted to be with. - Urban Dictionary. Never loved anyone more than the feelings I have for him. Might have boyfriends back then, but it is still him who owns the biggest part of my heart. The looks, the money, the estate doesn't matter. Nobody has replaced him yet. I believe one day someone will. But I will never forget my fist love since seven, MB.💕

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Para sa kaibigan kong matigas daw ang ulo pagdating sa ex niya. Alam kong iisipin mong parang napakadaling mag move on kung magsalita ako sa'yo. Porke hindi ako yung nasa sitwasyon mo. This I'll tell you, been there done that baby. Four years and almost four months isn't literally be counted like that. After the first nine months we broke up for almost five to six months I think. I got miserable back then, walang araw na hindi ako uminom at uuwing lasing. Walang oras na hindi tumulo yung luha ko kahit anong pigil ko dahil nasa harap ko siya at yung babaeng minahal niya bago ako at alam kong mahal niya parin kahit nung mga panahon na kami pa nun. May mga times na sinusundo na 'ko ng tita ko sa kalasingan ko. Alam ko yung feeling na kahit mag mukha akong tanga okay lang mahal ko siya at pagpapatuloy ko 'to kahit pa ako nalang ang lumalaban. Yung feeling na tangina manhid ba kayo ng ex mo?! I tried dating other guys pero siya parin eh and it did not erase the fact na siya lang yung gusto ko. At naging "tanga" (if you know what I mean) rin ako katulad mo. Dumating yung time na nag-blade ako pero na-realize ko mas masakit pala yun kesa sa nararamdaman ko. At saka bakit ko sasayangin yung buhay ko dahil sa kanya? Pero hindi dahil dun ako natauhan. Step by step pa rin. I still drink and get wasted. I still cry every single night. I don't know when and how, but I woke up one day okay na ko. Until bumalik siya that's why we had second chance and when we broke up again this time, I cried of course pero ndi na katulad dati and mas natuto na ko. I realized the quote, "not all second chance doesn't mean a happy ending, sometimes it's a chance to end things right". Alam ko nahihirapan ka ngayon, it's fine. I don't wanna speak on your behalf. Kahit pa oo na nakakainis ka kasi nga ang tigas ng ulo mo, pero napagdaanan ko naman yan kaya naiintidihan ko. Hindi rin naman ako yung nakakaramdam ng nararamdaman mo. At alam kong pati ikaw naguguluhan sa nararamdaman mo. It's okay, all I can be now is a shoulder for you to lean on kapag hindi mo na kaya and an ear to listen to your endless drama.

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Naisip ko lang, bakit ang tiwala ang hirap i-earn pero parang napakadali sa ibang i-break. Hindi ba nila alam na ang hirap ulit ibalik nung tiwala na yun? Kahit hindi sa taong sumira nun. Ang hirap na kayang magtiwala ulit parang iisipin mo pano kung katulad lang din siya nung nanakit sayo? Pano kung saktan ka lang din niya? Minsan iniisip mo sana masaktan din siya ng higit pa sa ginawa niya sakin. Para malaman niya kung gano kahirap magtiwala ulit. Sana maramdaman nya ng doble yung sakit na pinaramdam niya sakin. Sana alam niya kung gano kahirap isipin na hindi lahat ng tao sasaktan ako katulad ng ginawa niya. Tungnuh nila dba? Akala ba nila after nilang makasakit, after mag move on nung nasaktan nila okay na tlg lahat? Hindi nila alam na hindi ka pa talaga okay. Na oo naka-move on ka na pero yung magmamahal ka ulit? Parang hindi mo na kaya. Pano kung mag-take risk ako, tapos maulit lang yung dati? Maraming "what ifs", nandun parin yung takot. Hindi mo alam kailan ka magiging handa na sumubok ulit, na masaktan ulit, na umiyak ulit dahil mali na naman yung taong minahal mo o na maging masaya kasi siya na pala yung dati pang hinihintay mo.

[israelmekaniko]

In English, “Where are we going to eat ourselves ba?”

Charing!

Yung maaga pa lang pinagplanuhan niyo na kung saan kayo kakain. Naikot niyo na buong mall hanggang sa pumutok na yung varicous veins mo sa paa hindi niyo pa rin mapagdesisyunan kung saan. Tapos yung mga kalimitang sagot ganito,

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'Wag na 'wag kang magpapadala sa galit mo. At 'wag kang makikinig sa sinasabi ng ibang tao. 'Wag mo hahayaang sila ang magdikta ng dapat na maramdaman mo. May sarili kang pag-iisip. 'Wag kang magpalamon sa sinasabi nila sa'yo. Hindi mo kailangang magbago o baguhin ang sarili mo. "Be the good girl you always have to be."

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You can't rush things. Hintayin mong maging handa siya. Hintayin mong mawala yung takot nyang masaktan ulit. Kung hindi mo kayang maghintay, you don't deserve her. You don't..

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"Four years and four months tapos wala pang isang buwan naka-move on ka na?" Yan yung laging sinasabi nila sakin. At ang lagi ko namang sagot "oo" pero hindi sila naniniwala. Sana.. Hindi nalang sila nagtanong. After being hurt by the only person you thought will be the last to hurt you? Sobrang sakit. Maybe that is the reason bakit ang dali kong naka-move on. After being cheated on, nahirapan na kong ibalik yung trust. Oo andun yung love, pero yung trust? Wala na eh. Hindi ko na kayang ibalik ng buo, ng buong buo. I gave him a chance para mapatunayan sakin na wala na talaga pero kahit anong gawin ko hindi na ko ganun kasaya. Hindi ko na mabalik yung tiwala ko sa kanya at unti unti nang nababawasan yung love ko sa kanya. They should know, it's true. Kahit gaano katagal kung talagang sawa na kayo sa paulit ulit na away, sa mga bagay na hindi na kayo napapasaya mawawala na talaga yung pagmamahal. Ang galing nilang magsalita on behalf of me na hindi pa ko nakakamove on. Ang galing nilang sabihin na mahal ko pa siya. Na kaya ko lang nasasabing naka-move on na ko kasi meron ng "iba". Oo, sila nakakaramdam ng nararamdaman ko eh. Oo, sila yung napunta sa sitwasyon ko eh. Oo, sa buong relasyon namin andun sila kaya alam nila kung anong nararamdamn ko talaga. Ganun sila kagaling. Heart readers? Wow! The best. I wish I could read what's inside the heart of the "new one" too. Para alam ko kung susugal ba ko sa taong nakamove on na o hindi pa. Para alam ko kung masasaktan lang din ba ko o hindi. It's true that we live in a judgmental society. And we do can't please every body. I realized whether we explain everything to everyone, it's just two things; they will or will not believe you. Well, that's life. It's up to you to live it the way you will be happy or you will live it the way people want you to, the way they will be happy. Selfish world it is.

[kimpoyfeliciano]

We don’t need to justify Love; it is there or not there. Real love is accepting other people the way they are without trying to change them. 🍁🍂

[israelmekaniko]

Pumasok ako ng 7/11 para bumili ng slurpee. Gustong gusto ko yung pakiramdam na habang hinihigop ko yung slurpee, kumukulay ang flavor sa dila ko. Kumuha ako ng papercup sa tabi ng vendo machine at yung plastic na takip nito. Yung kulay blue na flavor ang kinuha ko at nilamnan ko yung lalagyan na...

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"Pero atleast hindi tayo yung nagkulang"

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naniniwala kaba sa famous line na, "kapag nagmahal ka ng dalawa, piliin mo un pangalawa dahil hindi ka naman hahanap ng iba kung mahal mo talaga yun una"

Magkaiba kami ng pananaw ni Pareng Bob Ong.

Mataas ang tingin ko sa konsepto ng pagmamahal kaya naniniwala ako na hangga’t may ibang laman ang puso ng isang tao, hindi yun kayang palitan ng ganung kadali lang. Hindi pagmamahal yung nararamdaman mo sa pangalawa kundi pagkukumpara lang sa nauna.

Nakita mo lang bigla yung mga kakulangan niya na wala dun sa isa kaya akala mo mahal mo na.

Ang minahal mo ay ang ‘kawalan’ at kakulangan ng taong ipinagpalit mo na natagpuan mo sa iba dahil hindi ka marunong makuntento.

Kaya dun pa rin ako sa una.

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TAMA!!

[israelmekaniko]

Habang inaasikaso ko ang pagkuha ng medical requirements sa isang clinical laboratory, biglang umikot yung leeg ko 450 degress pakanan ng naramdaman kong parang may napakagandang creation ni God sa likuran ko. At hindi nga ako nagkamali. Almost 20 meters ang layo niya sa akin. Tipong andami-dami...

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Gusto kong magising isang araw na hindi na kita mahal. Na hindi na ko masasaktan makita man kitang may kasamang iba. Gusto kong maging manhid nalang sa lahat ng bagay tungkol sa’yo. Yung wala ng papatak ni katiting na luha sa mata ko maalala man kita. Sana pwede nalang uminom ng gamot para magka-amnesia.

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"Actions speak louder than words." *ifyouknowwhatImean*

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I hate this feeling of not knowing what I am feeling.