Elementary, a little more.
High school, starting to pile up.
Anything beyond that is beyond me.
I envy people who are able to work so hard.
They work every day, every night, telling themselves that it'll clear up some time for them tomorrow. I'll have time tomorrow, they say. This way, I won't have to worry about it tomorrow, they say. I envy that they can keep their minds on track for so long, that they can make that tomorrow look so damn good that they'd throw away today for it. I envy that they can achieve so much more than anyone else because they work hard at what they do. Homework, jobs, volunteering. They balance these just enough so that they can sleep on time. It's like clockwork. It's amazing to watch. They're like robots, everything has to be done to this exact, precise amount of detail. Nothing can be done tomorrow because tomorrow is going to be a relaxing day. Tomorrow is always better than today.
Tomorrow. The mere saying of that is the closest to tomorrow they'll reach. Stuck in work, always working for the tomorrow that won't ever come because tomorrow will become today. It hurts my head to even try to comprehend how working for this tomorrow will help you achieve that tomorrow if you keep moving it to the next day. They can't enjoy the day because of tomorrow. They won't come out and play because that's what they're going to do tomorrow. Tomorrow won't come unless you let it. I wish they'd see that. I wish they'd see that if they don't put a little time aside for themselves today, not tomorrow, then you won't be able to work anymore. There won't be any tomorrow.
Working hard is important, that's how people move. But you have to think about yourself every now and then. Take a moment, breathe in your surroundings and make sure you're happy enough to move on. If you put it off until tomorrow, then you're just as lazy as anyone who says "I'll do it tomorrow." It's just another excuse.
Don't use the future to escape your present.
