Sleepless Garden

art of escaping while staying the course

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die trying.

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Late nights are great for the creatives. Dangerous for the thinkers.

I am both.

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Cancel the cancel culture.

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A loving soul sets no constraint for its heart. Yet a wise mind builds walls around it. I am this contradiction.

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Looking forward to the day when I’ll look back and laugh at how foolish I was to cry over you.

But also be amazed at how strong and big my heart was at a time of pain.

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Get up. Pick yourself up everyday. It’s not the end. Give more love than the pain you received. Cry your tears and end your prayers with thanksgiving. Breathe in and out. Hustle with grace and grit. Rest.

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You look so happy. I see it in your eyes and hear it in your voice. And her too. It’s in her crooked smile and quiet laugh when she’s with you.

I’d always prayed that you’ll be happy and God answered.

But for me, it doesn’t get easier. The pain only gets familiar. A broken heart can still break, you know. But now I know where the broken pieces fall. And I’ll just pick them back up.

I’ll be alright. I’ll say a different prayer tonight.

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Tuhan baik.

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Lessons I’ve Learned

- Never hurt anybody intentionally.

- Don’t hold back from doing good just to make a point.

- Listen to love.

- Love.

- Trust your heart because Jesus lives there.

- There is no such thing as loving people too much.

- When it comes to relationships, don’t make assumptions. Ask questions.

- Have a conversation.

- Give.

- Don’t have an “everyone’s out there to get me” attitude. They’re not. And even if they are, God has the ultimate say over your life.

- Be grateful for and honor those who were with and for you in previous seasons. They may not be in the present but it’s not because they walked out on you. They served and carried out their purpose accordingly for that time and space.

- Pray for people.

- Breathe. Take a few seconds to consciously breathe.

- Talk to Jesus about anything and everything. Jesus doesn’t need formality. He doesn’t need fancy words or cleaned up sentences.

- Don’t hold grudges. Forgive others. Forgive yourself.

- Allow yourself to feel what you feel then tell them who’s the boss.

- Never stop learning

- Learn to release: people, relationships, belongings, valuables. What’s yours will stay or make its way back. Sometimes someone else might need it more than you.

......To be continued.....

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“To hell with them. Nothing hurts if you don’t let it.”

— Ernest Hemingway

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“We are more often frightened than hurt; and we suffer more from imagination than from reality.”

— Seneca

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Broken or whole, they are still the pieces You formed

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Losing people I’ve thought would be in my life forever has taught me humility. I’m not the person I thought I was. I’ve played the victim though the only suspect was my mind. I can be wrong. I am wrong. But as I am humbled and stripped of all I that I know and love because of my own doings, I’ve found who I am. I’ve found forgiveness. I’ve found meaning. I’ve found the right perspective. In light of eternity, my losses and heartaches are not what’s most important. What is? My soul. And theirs. That whatever may happen, we have peace. Peace to continue to pray and to love each other even from a distance. We’re all in this together. ❤️

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“Sometimes people say terrible things when they’re scared. They don’t mean to, but they can’t help it. They lash out because if they can see that their words hurt someone else, it makes them feel as if they aren’t completely powerless.”

— Jonathan Maberry