Welp. It has come to the point where I must scream into a “void”. I have nothing against seeking help from a therapist or the like, but have too afraid to as of this point in my life. I think I’m about one step from it though. The world has always been a scary place, but it has really gotten under my skin lately. The only news updates I seem to get any more are either about disgusting acts of violence or senseless celebrity gossip, and the two have slowly been chipping away at the wall that has previously kept me from going nuts.
I can’t even handle my own Twitter feed for more than five minutes at time anymore. The last few days have been some worst, too. Two despicable tragedies in 24 hours, and the only thing our leaders seem to be doing about it is using it for political gain. The greed and self-serving attitude of the powers that be only seem to increase as we slip deeper and deeper back into the hate that we were barely managing to baby step our way out of.
I am afraid of how long it will take for wounds like these to begin to close up again. And I am afraid of the long term aftermath of the decisions being made. Instead of trying to lessen the tensions brought on by these terrible happening, I am afraid that those people currently trusted with our future and safety will use these event to deepen the lines that divide us.
All I have hoped for in my life is to watch us progress, and achieve the incredible things that we should be capable of. What are we supposed to do when we don’t see a future worth fighting for? Was this really the change we were promised?