Hybrid Delivery Strikes Again
I try to focus but, really waking up and being tossed into this.
Yet though all this around me, it is better then...then...that place.
It as in pieces and scrambled but I knew it was terrifying and I wish to block it out as much as possible. Everything still hurt physically as my body was breaking down. Somehow I felt WORST and I remember slightly ..my chest.
I as kinda zoned out for a bit lingering on the memory of the autopsy and my rotted insides getting only more cancerous and spreading as it touched air.
I stop Delores as if this was some sort of dream and she's always the focus point.
I shake her wondering if she's really there.
(Delores): "You look terrible..."
I stare at her, vaguely remembering Gwen. I think..did I....kill her?
I dont know it would explain all the pain after.
I feel sickening pleasure at the thought of Del's pain over her sister's death. I dont feel bad for the thought either because it hurt so much, everything hurt and I didnt care anymore, it hurt too much to care.
"Wh..at happened. Wh.were are we?" I ask dizzily unable to tell by..what I was seeing. I grab her trying to make sense of it. Then the pain makes me so angry with her.
This is her fault, she knew this was going to happen to me YEARS from now. She said she'd be here for me when it hurt!
"Why the big hurry Deli?! No time for your old friend." I crazily look at her this time very much aware of what I could do to her from.. Gwen...
(Delores): "Let me go! I don't have TIME to explain.."
I let go of her feeling guilt slip in for thinking that.
No no I cant hurt her... like that... I cant... not her..
As she walks away from me I get upset again, I cant process dealing with her insult and rejection normally with so much PAIN.
Of course you never have time, time..
I watch her go over to her.. son.
Yes. Of course. I thought realizing hurting her wouldn't be enough. I have to hurt her heart like she hurt mine!
(Delores): "What happened??" She stops shaking him as he was paralyzed to the ground, she calls back to the other one. "NO SEA COMEBACK NOW!"
The water was icing up. Pasha and Kaysea can be heard roaring from under trying to break it and feed the crystals again.
I tune in to the crystals under the water at last.
*the ugly deformed growth on my head having blocked that effect out*