OOC: Important
Hey guys.
I want to start out by saying, I have loved being in this RP. I've put massive amounts on energy into it, both as a player and after I became an admin, so this was not an easy decision for me to make. I, in fact, didn't really make it until this morning when I was informed of a decision that I am extremely uncomfortable with.
Some of you might think that it was the mass exodus of players we had yesterday and leading all the way back to L leaving the other day, that drove me to this, and not gonna lie, that was definitely a deciding factor. Nearly every character, with the exception of Quinn, that Santana had a connection too is gone. It's true that I could attempt to form connections with others (I quite liked Alek's and Santana's brief interactions) however, certain decisions have made me uncomfortable staying.
Before I decided to quit, Mia decided she wished to run this RP by herself, despite having previously told me she wished me to stay as an admin. I can tell you honestly that there are no hard feelings there. I was only staying on as an admin because Mia wished help with certain things, but my requirement that all decisions be equal between admins was not something she felt she could personally be comfortable with. I had, and still have, no problem with this. I wish her the utmost luck continuing to run, as she calls it, her baby (and ya'll better listen to her cuz I will come back and go all Lima-Heights on you if I have to). ;)
Then Beth and G quitting made me realize that I was not the only one uncomfortable with things that had been happening on here. So I seriously considered walking at that point, though this is a decision that has been very hard for me. However, it was impossible for me to imagine Santana living her life without Puck, Blair, Care or Emily. I also want to make it very, very clear that the reason I have decided to leave has nothing to do with any personal problems I have with anyone involved in this RP. The majority of my decision has to do with Santana and how I do not feel I can play her properly without these characters involved in her life. I will be lurking around, hopefully, to finish up some paras and any storylines that need it. I will be leaving Santana's account active, because I love her and everyone here too much to simply delete.
However, my decision was pushed over this morning when another decision I am not comfortable with had been made and brought to my attention, and I decided it was best for everyone if I bow out gracefully. So, bottom line, I am extremely sorry to have to leave this wonderful group. This RP has been like a family to me for many months, and I have met many many people who I hope will be life long friends. There are many others who I have had problems with in the past, that I still care for quite a lot (you probably can figure out who you are). The people in this group have been with me through some rather stressful times, and have helped me through extremely rash and stupid actions I have taken.
This letter was hard to write. I though I could get through it okay, but I find myself still shedding more than a few tears right now. In my heart, Santana will go on to have a happy life with all of her loved ones, as I hope to carry on friendships with all of you who I have formed them with. I am proud to have been a part of this RP from the beginning, to see how it has grown and how epic our storylines have become.
So I say, with all of my heart, I love you all.
I wish you well.
-H
