Alexis Paige♌️

"Truly loving someone is when you give them the power to destroy you, but trusting them enough not to". -JVC

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[swxxt-mars]

5-1-19

I realized today that I am the person that always cares too much. And i probably always will be. We haven’t talked in years but you need a friend? I’m there. Want to hang after months? I’m down. Broke my heart at one point and want to make amends? Sure, I’ll hear you out.

It’s such a beautiful and tragic thing to have such a big heart.

I thought that I could just have an easy hook-up for the past 3 months, and my heart had other plans. And I’ve cried my crocodile tears about it only to realize that I am that person who pours their all into other people. When I care, I care so deeply. And it’s not that I regret any of my decisions, but it’s just that I need to be more conscious of how much of myself that I give to other people, even just as friendships. 

I know how to cut off relationships when I am the toxic person, when I’m the one causing myself pain, but it’s sooo much more difficult when it’s the other person that’s going to break your heart and hurt you. How do you walk away when your hopes are high and your heart is swollen with the freshness of “falling in love”? How do you pull yourself away even when a relationship has a set expiration date? 

[swxxt-mars]

4-28-19

So, it’s been a long while since I’ve been on here and have taken the time to type out my thoughts. I spent a good majority of my time last night searching through my account to find previous entries, to see what’s changed and what’s new. And honestly, there’s soo much that’s different and so much that is still the same. I spent time on another wasted relationship, with someone I thought that i could fix. But the silver lining of this is that I found the strength to leave when it was time, to do what was best for me first and foremost. That was early January of this year, and February I set up my tinder account again.. This time meeting a wonderful guy, all the while knowing that he would be leaving after graduation in 3 months. LOL and the 3 months are almost up. I told myself that I would not get attached and yet here I am crying over it. I expected to open my legs for this guy, not my heart. As callous and cold as that sounds. I felt so much easier to be used and use someone for their skin. I should’ve left the first time we met, the 24 hours straight that we spent together, the nights until 3 or 4am laughing and having sex, I should’ve just ended it when you said that you didn’t want to be selfish and ask me to only see you. I feel so utterly stupid for falling for you when I knew that you were leaving. And I’ve told myself for the past month almost that we would talk and I would find out what you moving meant between us. Yet, here I am after spending almost a whole weekend together, still stuck in my head about you. 

On a positive note, Mars will be 4 years old in September, and is rocking it at 601g. I currently have a job at an animal hospital and an internship starting May 6th. All in all, my life is going swimmingly, besides the crushing debt to ensue from MSU over the next 4 years

[lyricallymnded]

sometimes you’re the hammer, sometimes you’re the nail // a day to remember

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There is a sacredness in tears….They are the messengers of…unspeakable love.

Washington Irving  (via thelovejournals)

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ACTUAL MESSAGE OF (500) DAYS OF SUMMER THAT NO ONE ACTUALLY REALIZES

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[wordsnquotes]

Eventually soulmates meet, for they have the same hiding place.

Robert Brault (via wordsnquotes)

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I know I have a heart because I feel it breaking.

Wizard of Oz. Dir. Victor Fleming (via wordsnquotes)

[wordsnquotes]

There is no shame in being hungry for another person. There is no shame in wanting very much to share your life with somebody.

Augusten Burroughs, This Is How: Proven Aid in Overcoming Shyness, Molestation, Fatness, Spinsterhood, Grief, Disease, Lushery, Decrepitude & More. For Young and Old Alike. (via wordsnquotes)

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