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em – all for bangtan – gifmaker #usertaeyungie ♡

[starei]

you deserve all the love and the good things that are coming your way

[taeyungie]

funny i was watching brad mondo's latest vids of people cutting their bangs and it reminded me i like the idea but dont have patience for it to grow out i will just buy a snap on lmao how short are your bangs??

brad mondo would DRAG me face down the floor if he saw how i style and cut my hair LMAOOO 😭 yes i feel you, i also don't have the patience to grow my hair out that's why cutting my hair too short is kind of a disaster LMAO but it's not that bad, everyone says it suits me and makes me look "fresher and not so serious" lmao whatever that means but i like my haircut, i think it's called a wolfcut, i have long hair except this time i have shorter bangs with regular longer framing around the face LOL i've had the same one for almost three years and i don't think i'm gonna change it anytime soon hehe my bangs right now are exactly the length of a regular snap on bangs! 🫡 you could give it a try before you decide if you want to have them or not, definitely better option than just jumping on it like i did KSBSJDBSJSJSK

[taeyungie]

i was starting to feel distant from my only 3 childhood friends i have left and being i spent my birthday alone... i would say i def don't even feel like i'm important. sure they wished me a happy bday, but usually they'd ask if i'd like to get something to eat which isn't much but they'd at least spend it with me but nope. i stayed home and nothing eventful happened. ig this taught me to enjoy my own presence but i can't help but feel a little hurt. ig that kinda solidified how i was feeling. i'm very much a loner these days, i did try to be as active with them as i possibly could. hell last month i went to one of their bday's and wracked my brain to give a gift that was personal to them (for their dramas). i just... feel so small. idk if i should continue this friendship. i mean one was barely hanging on, i genuinely feel they hung out with me the few times they do out of pity. sometimes i see on facebook how people celebrated their bdays and wished i was that loved. its only a bday but the lonliness i felt hurt a lot, esp for such a big birthday. yay me... 😔

i am really so sorry that this happened to you, nobody deserves to be left alone on their birthday, especially when that day means a lot to them. but remember that the way you spent one day of the year does not mean you are not loved, sweetheart. you know.. maybe your friends had a lot going on, maybe something else is happening that made you feel distanced from them in the first place... i'm not defending their behavior but i think you should talk to them, you know? :( before doing anything, or before assuming, it's always good to talk first. tell them about how you felt during your birthday, and that you wanted to know why they didn't want to spend time with you. I promise you, it's not going to sound desperate or silly, you have the right to be hurt and to wonder why they didn't make sure to make that day special for you, especially if they know that it means a lot to you. also talk to them about feeling alienated, anxious and disconnect from them, ask about it all, don't be scared, honesty is the key to relationships, no matter what is the outcome. on the other hand, most of the time you have to let people know when you want something, honey. sometimes initiating these things might feel hard because we want people to surprise us and make us feel loved 'unprovoked', i know... but that's why it's important to communicate, even about smallest issues, to ask why it went that way and if you could think of other ways of celebrating next birthdays. if they really care about you they'll catch up on it right away, they'll want to make up for it, they'll remember for the next time. but if they will react in a negative way... maybe it really is time to rethink whether it's worth it to continue the friendship if you guys don't feel good around each other anymore :( you deserve to have someone who enjoys making you happy, and knows you good enough to know what will make you the happiest, and if celebrating your birthday is one of those things then i wish upon the stars that you find a person who will take care of it 💓 you deserve your special day to be cherished the way you want to.

[taeyungie]

https://www.tumblr.com/snoopyoftheday/729158149352947712/snoopy-of-the-day?source=share_____ EMI this is YOU 💘

STOP ANONIE YOU'RE THE SWEETEST DO YOU WANT TO MAKE ME CRY (too late im sobbing as we speak) 😭😭😭😭😭 this is the cutest thing I've ever seen I love snoopy 😭 thank you so much for this 😭💖

[taeyungie]

i'm gonna be so nervous in 11/03, i almost threw up waiting for the tracklist, when the album comes out i'm afraid that i'll have to watch the MV in my bathroom 😭😭😭 jungkook i love you so much but why do you have this effect on me . wait... maybe it's BECAUSE i love him so much. ugh i can't do this i can't 😭😭😭😭

girl what can i say man has us all in the chokehold and we will always let him 🤷

so same 😭 the second his mixtape is released i am locking myself in a bunker 🫶

[taeyungie]

help i cut my bangs too short now i am forced to create a whole new persona because who tf is that person in the mirror 🗿

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[hesbythecampfire]

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[songue85]

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[taeyungie]

i would love to give all my money for driving lessons with em, where do i sign ma'am 🫡

WHAT OMG please 😭 lmao you're so cute 😭 I'm not taking any money, you have become officially my candidate and student number #1, my whole knowledge is all yours 🫶🫶🫶

[taeyungie]

Thanks for being the most sweetest and encouraging person. I wish I could take you everywhere lol

hahah then it's a date! 🤭💓 i really hope everything goes well for you! please be patient with yourself and make sure to have fun, don't let eventual mistakes erease all your progress, alright ? 💖 i'm gonna be here whenever you need 🥰

[taeyungie]

it looks like his album will be divided in

love love love X everything went wrong

but he still chose seven clean ver as the last track... we'll see if it means that he'll still be by the person's side, if everything turns out okay... 🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧

LMAO YOU'RE SO RIGHT 😭 that's exactly how it looks like JSBDJDJSJ i really think that he might be trying to create a whole story with his album, in the end it's jungkook we are talking about here the most thoughtful and genius person in the world JDBDJSJS but i'm probably wrong hahah either way i think it's really great that he is focusing on the topic of love in all possible forms of it, honestly wouldn't expect anything less from him, he is the embodiment of that word 🥹💓

[taeyungie]

I was thinking if i should get a car. I would have to re-learn to drive (I have a license but haven't driven since cause ~anxiety~) but not having a car is so... I have to ask everyone for rides and I'm too old. I feel silly that I don't drive but I figure it's best not to have someone this anxious behind the wheel. I'm scared cause I know nothing about a lot of road rules or anything. I want to drive on my own so bad but my anxiety is no joke. I got nervous driving around the neighborhood cause I was scared I'd hit a parked car :')

i totally understand you, i know it might feel really scary at first! i think the most important tip i can give you is to trust yourself and your vehicle more, to try to understand your size when you sit behind the wheel and try to become 'one' with your car. in the end you are the one controlling it, it won't do anything you don't want to do, but it will expect from you to be quick and have your eyes all around your head when you drive, you have to have your attention everywhere at once and not only be careful of what you are doing but also of what other people on the road are doing, safety is something you will have to be thinking about every time you drive. if that's something you struggle with it's better to practice that first, you know? because technical skills will become natural for you, with time you won't be thinking when to shift gears or whether you're following rules or not, it becomes 'automatic' for your mind and you'll gain muscle memory adapting to driving the car. you just have to give it a few tries, even if it takes a few months, but definitely start with learning all the rules and stuff, that way you won't be focusing on them during the drive, or wondering what you should do or not do on the road, because your reaction might be delayed and that can be really dangerous. i believe in you! 🥺💓 i'm sure you'll do great, but just remember it takes time! and be kind to yourself, it IS scary sometimes because driving anything really, whether it's a car or motorcycle of even a bike is a big responsibility, even for experienced drivers, so don't give up! 🥺🥺🥺

[jung-koook]

231016 - Jungkook 'GOLDEN' Tracklist

[taeyungie]

YES OMG GO FOR IT EM 🗣️🗣️🗣️ I'M CHEERING FOR U TOO

THANK YOU SO SO SO MUCH 🥺🥺💓😭😭😭💓💓💓 i'm really excited, i have to find a place where i could start driving lessons because i have never even been on a motorcycle, not talking about driving one 😭 but the same thing was when i was getting my car license, the first time i drove a car was during my first lesson of the course LMAO let's stay positive 💓

[taeyungie]

driving must be so cool... i don't think i'll ever be able to do it :( in my country it's really expensive to even have your license, let alone buy a car. i also think that i'd be of trying, even if i had the money. i just can't imagine it in my future, but i wish i could

i don't wanna live in buses and subways 'cause they all suck here too, but i also don't have money to taxis and such. then again: even if i had, i'd be afraid of the men driving, it's so dangerous 😞 i guess i just hate my own country and i hate that i'm so poor? idk

but if i could do all those things and if i wasn't scared at all, i'd also want to have a motorcycle🥺 maybe i romanticize things too much, but it must be so freeing and it also makes you cooler

you should go for it, and you'll have another thing in common with jk, because he surely has one 🤧🤧🤧

oh i definitely understand you, things have gotten sooo much more expensive, that's true :( i was just really lucky to get my license right before everything started getting super expensive, so 🥺 you can try to separate it all, collect some money and do it in parts, that way you won't feel like you're stuck in place? 💓 here where i live it's almost natural that each person has their own car, maybe that's why things went better for me, but that doesn't mean it won't happen for you!! 🥺 you could start with a motorcycle though, they are definitely less expensive!! we could try to do that together soon :) i also have to start collecting some money first, to pass the exams and attend lessons, and in the end buy the motorcycle and all the stuff that are needed to be able to ride it, so i'm definitely not gonna be hoping that it will happen in the next few months, MAYBE if things go well it will happen in a year from now on :) heads up sweetheart! if you want something, go for it! no matter how long it takes it'll be all worth it in the end, it's really so freeing at times :) 💓

[taeyungie]

omg you got a car recently? what car did you get? i bet its just as hot as u r 🙈🙈

LMAO what's up with everyone calling me hot pls 😭 SJDHDJJDJSJSJS in fact my car is actually way sexier than me, i got a black audi A4 b8 2.0 TFSI, yesterday we had 6 months anniversary 🫶

[taeyungie]

omg it hadn't even been a day and he ended up calling me when he woke up. he was being flirty to my surprise. in my head i felt i shouldn't have entertained it but i like him too much not to. but before i knew it, we ended up talking about 6 hrs+ on the phone today. before & after his class. before & after the gym. before & after he went to visit family. like that was my whole day and i kind of messed up my sleep even more cause i didn't want to get off the phone.

at one point he did ask me for my thoughts on the whole thing. i told him i understand his side, and i get my side, i briefly explained that having the commitment with him would make me want to do those things faster & it's ironic cause he doesn't want to commit until i see him. he pretty much said he doesn't want to go through all that and waste time if it doesn't work out (& much of what u said, he seems he just wants to be secure in all this) which i understand. he himself had no other thoughts & it seems we're still standing where we stand. i did tell him that i was sad after the call. i didnt say i cried but i just told him i had this melancholy feeling. that i had a hard time, not to make him feel bad but i wanted to be honest about how much this whole thing is affecting me & how much i care.

but the whole day i was wondering why he was being so close to me. we haven't talked this long and throughout the day in forever cause work and school. as much as i loved it, it confused me even more cause my feelings are just everywhere. i like him so much. but i can't help but wonder why he was being so flirty. i kept debating if i should stop it to make boundaries but i wavered & gave in each time. i got off the phone missing him even tho i spent the whole day talking to him 🥺 i don't expect this to be an occurring thing but i'm now curious how things are going to continue to be like. i told u my bday is soon and i wonder if he was trying to be extra close cause of that, and maybe he'll be less like this after. idk how to proceed, do i continue to entertain his flirty comments still? do i try and hold back? ngl i feel too transparent about how much i like him, to the point it'll feed his ego knowing he has me like that but i don't have him in the same way

hi sweetheart, i'm so glad to hear that! 🥺 now you have more clarity about the whole situation and his feelings, which will probably help you with making decisions along the way and with the next steps. i think he is just as relieved, and that's probably why he initiated the long conversations, the flirting and everything. he might be cautious but i still think he might be just glad that things go this way and he didn't want to hold back, in the end he's your best friend, he wouldn't do all of this for his own entertainment and with intention of hurting you or rejecting you afterwards, don't you think? i think it's okay to let yourself have fun after being away from each other, some things don't have to be analyzed and talked through all the way to the bone, you know? you guys will see what happens next, just like he said. but in the end i don't want you to feel like you're dependent on whatever happens next, don't forget about your own life and other things that are going on, yeah? i'm sure he cares about you just as much as you do for him, some people aren't just the best at showing/saying it, try to notice what his love language might be 💓 good luck love, keep me updated! 😚

[taeyungie]

Hi, you’re so amazing with the way you talk to your anons and you give such a warm vibe anyone would be lucky to be your friend 💛 I can only try to distract you maybe? I would love to know how did you found bts? Take care of yourself for me 🌻

hello love, i wanted to thank you so much for being here for me that day, i didn't reply immediately because i wasn't in the best place to talk, but i'm better now 💓 you're the sweetest, i couldn't thank you enough for your words, it means the world 💓 when i saw your message it actually did help me get distracted, i went to watch videos that made me get into bts hahah so thank you so much for that, angel.

i don't know if my story is special but it's definitely not regular either haha anyway, so i have always loved to watch those channels that recorded their dance classes on youtube, and when i loved a song i immediately went to search for a choreo to it, watching people dance always made me connect with the song better, i like it when i can feel it with my whole body (funny thing is that i myself totally cannot dance lol) and one time i stumbled upon a hand-drawn time lapse of their 'DOPE' choreography, went to check out whose song it is and then saw the original MV, and that's how i fell down the path that i am on right now KSHDJSJSK it was such a fun time, i think the first months after discovering them are the best for everybody, getting to know them and watching all their content haha it was a great time. thank you for letting me ramble 💓 and for being here for me. please, take care of yourself too, precious 💖 i'm sending you lots of love.