summary : y/n's way of stopping someone from their panicking state is rather strange.
cw : panicking (lol)
NOT TOO MANY hours ago, y/n has fallen asleep. they could feel, how they're slowly drifting into a deep sleep, after a whole day of endless training and torture, before random pair of hands on their shoulders , slightly shook them awake.
a small, quiet groan escaped y/n's dry lips, as their e/c eyes slowly flattered open, right before the same pair of hands shook their shoulders again, but this time way more rougher then before.
"what?!" y/n whisper-yelled, leaning on their elbows, as their eyes finally fully opened. it was dark inside the room, but y/n still could see four silhouettes kneeling next to their bed, all of them different heights.
"guys...? what the fuck are you doing here?" y/n rubbed their sleepy eyes, realising that the four people, who were kneeling next to y/n's bed were their friends jean, sasha, connie and armin, which y/n had little complicated friendship with, but in a good way. at least that's what y/n always thought to themselves.
"oh c'mon y/n! don't tell us you forgot about our secret missing again!" connie threw his arms in the air, trying to keep his tone low, but clearly failing. "shhh!" sasha pressed her pointing finger on her soft lips, while leaning closer to connie's face, signalling for him to calm down his voice, while he just shook his head from side to side, rubbing his forehead.
"oh..." y/n murmured. "oh!" they raised their voice, but not too much for them to wake anyone else up. "the food mission, am i right?" y/n sat up on the bed, watching as sasha's eyes sparkled at the mention of food, which was pretty easy to see, even in a pitch black room.
"exactly. now get your ass up and meet us outside." jean was the first one to stand up, with the others following him right behind, quietly leaving the room.
y/n nodded, not even sure if anyone saw them do so, before putting on their boots, leather jacket and quickly pulling their h/c hair into a messy ponytail. they stood up as quiet as possible, not wanting to get into a trouble, because that definitely wouldn't be the first time it ever happend.
everyone's gaze fell on y/n, the second they walked out of the room. "finally." jean spat quietly, crossing his arms, making y/n roll their e/c eyes. "let's go guys!" sasha slightly jumped up and down, being impatient.
"hi." armin quietly muttered, with a small innocent smile on his face, which gladly y/n returned. "hey. sorry for falling asleep. again." y/n's words made armin softly chuckle. "it's alright." they both smiled at each other, before following the others.
the five of them quietly made their way towards the eating room, turning all around the place every ten seconds, making sure no one's there to catch them. the second they closed the door behind them, after entering the eating room without being caught, a loud sigh escaped everyone's lips.
jean didn't waste any time, before flipping the switch and turning on the lights, getting everyone's attention quickly. "WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" connie's eyes widened at jean's stupidness, while everyone looked at each other worriedly.
"the last time i checked, none of us had night vision-" jean placed one of his hands on his hip, acting dramatic as usual. "-so unless you wanna keep hitting the tables or fall flat on your stupid face, because you can't see where you're stepping, instead of taking the meat we're here for-" he pointed at the switch, with his other free hand. "be my guest."
"you know what? whatever- let's just take the meat and get the hell out of here." connie sighed as a sign of giving up, before turning towards sasha, who was already opening the door to the kitchen, where all the good food was supposed to be hidden.
"sasha wait! it could be locked-" y/n reached their hand towards sasha, their words being cut off by the kitchen door easily opening. "or maybe not." y/n's hand fall back next to their body, before following sasha inside, with the others right behind both of them.
all five of them started searching in different boxes, cup boards and shelves trying to find something good to eat, unlike the food they normally give them, which can be hardly compared to a normal, healthy food, but it keeps them alive at least.
the door knob clicking and a sound of door opening caught everyone's attention. everybody looked through the kitchen window, that lead into the dining hall, seeing that the person peaking in is no one else, than keith shadis.
y/n's first instincts were to hide as fast as possible, falling onto the ground, hiding under the kitchen window, with their back against the wall and their eyes wide open with shock clearly painted on their face.
y/n looked around the kitchen, seeing that sasha and connie were already hidden behind bunch of random big boxes and jean was right next to y/n , with his knees to his chest, while armin was still standing, staring wide-eyed at the place, where keith was supposed to be standing.
"armin!" y/n whisper-yelled in the lowest tone they could, so no one else would be able to hear them, but armin didn't even flinch, standing still. y/n groaned, before getting on their knees and grabbing armin by his wrist, dragging him down next to where y/n and jean were hiding.
"armin, what the heck was that?" y/n looked at the blonde boy, their faces not too far away from each other. "i knew this was a bad idea, i- i told you guys i am bad at stealing-" armin started quietly freaking out, while y/n turned to their other side, seeing jean motioning for them to calm armin down or else they'll be caught.
keith's loud, but slow footsteps were getting closer and closer, while armin kept panicking about all five if them getting caught and getting into trouble. again.
y/n looked forward, just to see sasha and connie staring right back at them, not being able to do anything from this far. "we're gonna get caught if you won't calm down!" y/n whisper-yelled, placing their hand on armin's shoulder, trying to get the boy's attention.
"shut.him.up." jean quietly hissed from y/n's left side. "armin-" y/n placed both of their hands on each side of armin's face. "i'm really sorry, but there's no other way." y/n slightly shook their head, biting their bottom lip, before pressing their lips onto armin's, stopping him from mumbling and panicking, making the room go finally quiet.
it took few seconds, before armin realised what's going on and shyly kissing y/n back, making them deepen the kiss a little bit, forgetting about the fact, that they could be caught any seconds.
the lights in the dining hall turned off and the sound of door closing made y/n pull away from the urgent, yet gentle kiss, while everyone else got out of their hiding spots.
"oof! that was close." y/n sighed, standing up from the cold floor, before seeing everyone's strange expressions. "wha-" y/n slowly followed everybody's gaze, noticing armin, who was still sitting on the floor his blue eyes wide in shock, while he just staring into nowhere.
"i think you just broke him, y/n." jean rubbed the back of his neck, trying to hold back his laughs, before earning a small slap in chest by y/n. "this is your fault in the first place, because you're the one, who left the lights on." jean scoffed at y/n's words, before turning his back to them, continuing his search for meat.
"now let's get the meat, because i am starving!" sasha clapped her hands together few times, already searching for the meat, with connie joining her, wanting to get out of there already.
"um, armin?" y/n kneeled down in front of the blue-eyed boy, suddenly feeling guilty for kissing him, just to shut him up. it's true, they wanted to know how his soft-looking lips would feel against theirs, but they never imagined it to be like this. "do i need to put you in rice or somethi-"
"oh, y/n! hey!" armin suddenly muttered, acting like he hasn't noticed y/n kneeling in front of him until now. "that was really close, huh?" he quickly stood up from the cold floor, acting like nothing ever happend, a strange, nervous smile settled on his face. "let's go help sasha with the-" armin quickly turned around, ready to walk away from them, before y/n gently grabbed him by his wrist, getting him to turn around and face them.
"look armin- i'm sorry if i made you feel uncomfortable, but you were freaking out and that freaking me out!" y/n started to throw their hands randomly in the air, not even bothering to actually look at armin, the whole kissing situation freaking them out.
"it's just that i really like you and i wanted to do that for a long time, but i-" realisation hits y/n, making their e/c eyes go wide and slowly raised their head to look up at armin, just to see him wearing the same shocked expression.
y/n opened their mouth, wanting to say something, but nothing out. the second two arms wrapped around y/n's neck, a smaller gasp escaped their lips. it didn't took y/n too long, before seeing that it was armin, who hugged them, gently burying his head into y/n's shoulder.
"i... i like you too, y/n." armin's tone was slightly above a whisper, but loud enough for y/n to hear it. a small chuckle escaped their lips, before wrapping their arms around armin's frame, pulling him closer to them, if that was even possible.
"guys we've got the mea- OH!" sasha jumped into the room, her eyes widening the second she saw y/n and armin, still in tight, comfortable embrace. y/n pulled away the second they realised everyone's eyes were glued on both of them, while y/n nervously rubbed the back of their neck and armin's blue eyes were stuck on the floor, trying to hide his blushing face.
this isn't what y/n thought their mission for food in a middle of the night would turn into to, but they are glad it did.
summary : as your own, yet quick decision it was you, who caught the bullet, saving friend's life, but it all happened so fast you didn't even got the time to remember the promise you made to the person you loved.
cw : chapter 105 / s4 e8, death
A LAUGH ESCAPED your lips, when you felt pair of arms tightly embracing you, as you and others continued to celebrate the victory in the airship. "we did it! what a victory!" floch called out, causing other to happily shout once again. "why isn't lobov back yet?" you could hear connie ask over the calls and laughs, making your attention snap towards the trio next to you.
"i just heard something." announcing, sasha placed her hand next to her ear, hoping to hear the sound once again, but this time more clear. "hey! quiet down!" seeing his friend's confusion and slight discomfort, jean shouted in a hope to calm down the loud crowd of celebrating people. "what's wrong, sasha?" furrowing your eyebrows, you pushed past few people, placing an assuring hand on the brunette's shoulder.
"i'm not sure. i just heard-" before sasha could finish her words, your gaze shifted towards the fast movement near the airship enter, causing the breath in your throat to hitch. "sasha!" barely processing what was happening, you managed to get a glimpse of another person rolling into the airship, gun tightly held between their smaller hands. swiftly grabbing the brunette by her shoulders, you used all the strength to push sasha to the side, making her stumble into jean, as it was now you, standing in sasha's place.
the world around you suddenly slowed down, a loud gunshot ringing through everyone's ears, causing the crowd go silent at the sight of you taking few, unsteady steps back, before your body slowly fell onto the wooden floor, wave of pain coming right through your abdomen. the bullet punched it’s way through you, causing a gaping hole in its wake that quickly filled with blood and gushed out. you could feel your back collide with the harsh ground, as you the air from your lungs disappeared for a few seconds, yet it felt like a long, never-ending minute.
"y/n!" getting out of jean's hold she stumbled into not too long ago, sasha fell onto her knees next to your lying body, while the rest quickly took care of the two intruders in the airship. "just stay with me, alright?!" at sasha's words, your mind started to feel foggy, as you stared up at the ceiling, feeling your eyes starting to burn. feeling her heartbeat quicken, the brunette searched for the gun wound, before pressing her hands against it, mentally apologising for causing you more pain, yet you could barely realise it.
hearing rushed footsteps coming your way, your eyelids heavier than ever, barely being able to keep your eyes open at the sudden tiredness, sill feeling disoriented. "y/n!" another, this time male voice called out your name, as another two figures appeared over you, yet you weren't in the right state to come to the conclusion it's jean and connie, feeling their hearts clench at the sight of you and your abdomen soaked with the crimson red liquid.
"you're gonna make it! you hear me?! placing one of his hands on your shoulder, connie slightly shook your body. "it hurts..." you murmured, voice coming out quiet and raspy. "get the tourniquet!" jean shouted at the group of people, as they quickly nodded at his demand. "c'mon, y/n..." a silent tear fell down sasha's face, before gently placing her hand on your cheek, caressing it with her thumb.
in a world and times like these death wasn't anything new, nor unusual. but that doesn't mean it hurts less to see someone you grew close with slowly fade away right in front of your eyes, having to watch their life slowly leave their body. realisation slightly hit you, as the truth of you dying on the wooden floor of an airship occupied your now messy mind. yet it wasn't too long, before the thoughts of the painful truth changed into fastly rushing thoughts about only one person, you couldn't care more about. armin. you knew the blonde for a few years and something that started of as an innocent friendship between you and him, was now something way more, as the two of you shared a lot together.
as cheesy as it sounds... armin was one of your reasons to keep fighting and always helped you back up, when you fell down. you did the same for him and he couldn't be more grateful for him to have you in his life. at first armin thought he didn't deserve you at all, but you proved him wrong and promised him something. you promised armin, when the war is over and you'll no longer have to live in constant fear, the two of you'll get married and live together, as the both of you always wanted.
you knew, neither of you could promise such a thing, yet just the delightful thought of spending the rest of your life with armin, made you heart flutter. the promise was something, that kept you going and you weren't planing on letting go of it, but not every-time it's your decision to make.
"these two got up here using lobov's vertical manoeuvring equipment..." floch announced, as his hand gripped the two children, who were now tied up on their knees. "i'll toss 'em out. no objections, right?" at floch's words the brown-haired kid loudly grunted. "is throwing some kids out of an airship going to stop all this bloodshed?" jean called out, while looking away from your almost limp body, as you painfully cought up some more blood on the wooden floor.
after finally deciding on what to do, jean made his way towards where eren and the others currently were, bringing the two, still tied up kids with him. "who are these brats?" noticing the two beaten up children, levi asked. "they killed lobov and used his equipment to board the ship." jean started to explain. "and then... this girl shot y/n..." lowering his head, jean tried to ignore the feeling inside his stomach. "i don't think there's any hope for them."
feeling his heart harshly sting, armin's eyes immediately widened at jean's very unexpected words. did he hear him right? is jean sure? thousands of questions filled the blonde male's mind, yet it didn't stop his body from rushing out of the room, barely noticing mikasa following right after him. he couldn't loose you right now. you promised him, after all. but what a silly promise that was, because both of you knew the truth about loving someone in times like these.
armin's eyes used to be filled with light and love, but now they're dark and full of pain from having to observe the world become a darker place and watching the ones he cared about the most leave. a breath hitched inside his throat at the sight of your body lying on the hard floor, blood covering your lower abandon and dripping out of your mouth. seeing your eyes blink slower and slower, armin didn't waste any time, before quickly falling on his knees right next to you.
"y/n!" armin tightly gripped your hand in his in a hope of you acknowledging his presence. "you promised, so please don't leave! not now!" tears streamed down his face, as all you could hear were muffled calls of your name and pleads for you to keep your eyes open. you knew about the promise, but you also knew armin's strong. finding the rest of the strength left in your dying body, you softly squeezed armin's hand, before letting go.
your head limply fell to the side, your eyes shutting close, as armin could feel the grip of your hand suddenly disappear, signalling another painful loss in his life. not letting go off your hand, the blonde male brought his other hand up, placing it over his, still holding yours.
it felt like something inside of him shattered and slowly disappeared, causing his stomach to tighten at the emptiness he felt. all armin could hear was your voice in his head, repeating all the promises you made.
gently squeezing your and his hands together, armin leaned closer to you, letting his tears slowly drop on you and soak through the fabric of your shirt. even, if it was only gonna last a few seconds, armin needed one last moment holding your hand, as he never did before.
