#{outofsouffles}

[forthewinoswald]

AND THAT'S IT. This account is going to officially become an archive. :') 

It's sort of bittersweet, because this account as so much history. But I do already feel better knowing that I'm getting a fresh start. I love you all. And thank you so much for all the support on this. I'd say see you on the other side but that sounds a bit...weird? Bye guise. ♥

[forthewinoswald]

OKAY for anyone that's like keeping track of what i'm doing. i think i have most of my new account sorted out. i think. not sure i'm happy with the url yet. but anyways it's almost 10:30 in the morning and i haven't slept. so i'm gonna go crash and i'll finish making things all shiny later. thank you guys, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for the support. i really wasn't expecting it and it means the world to me. ♥

[forthewinoswald]

welp. i think i've made my decision.

after almost 2,000 posts and a wonderful 376 followers, i think i'm going to put this page to rest. i just need a reset of clara. if i don't, i'm never going to be happy. and it's just going to be an endless parade of over-thinking everything. and i want to be happy. i want to enjoy rping again. there's a bunch of you that i'll be re-following. and you're more than welcome to ask for the new account when i make it. i'm sorry. i just, i think i really need to do this.

[forthewinoswald]

i wanna explain the thing but it's not actually important.

and i know. i know things happen and character's grow, but i worry that i've put a bit too much of myself in clara and i hate that. 

when i left all my rpgs and decided that i wanted an indie page it was because i wanted the chance to explore a character for the character. when i was in rpgs my characters had a horrible tendency to become me. there was no separation of muse or mun. they were just one. and i wanted to change that. 

but i've slipped into the pattern of not and it's really starting to get to me.

it's not something i think i'll ever do. because i don't want to lose the storylines that i've built here, or the relationships with people. maybe i'll take a hiatus to get my head back on, but i know that never works because i jut sit here refreshing the page. i don't know what i'm doing at this point. i just know that i'm really not happy. and i feel like i'm stuck.

if you actually read all of this, holy crap you're amazing. and i love you.

[forthewinoswald]

since i keep gaining followers but my number stays the same, now is the perfect time to tell you guise this. you are totally allowed to unfollow me. i want your dash to be a happy and safe place. there is nothing keeping you here. the only thing i demand, if you're gonna unfollow me, you gotta tell me so we can duet 'i gotta go my own way' ♥

[forthewinoswald]

[forthewinoswald]

[falls over] don't mind me, having a lot of amy feels right now. oops.

[forthewinoswald]

ha. i love when the power goes out when i'm asleep and i wake up to realize that i've lost everything i was writing and all the icons i had opened in photoshop.