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[alexaxviii]

[dorothygale]

it's gonna be hell if my upcoming tattoo peels or flakes or whatever too much. every time I get a sunburn or anything I'm like PEEL PEEL PEEL. I even had this friend at summer camp and I fuckign peeled HER sunburn. and it wasn't weird for some reason but I digress. once there was a spot on the wall next to my futon where the paint was chipping and over the course of a few months my friend (not the same friend) and I had peeled away about a square foot (or more, I'm terrible at judging size)

[dorothygale]

I keep pretending that my rejection was just a clerical error because I don't know what I would do if I just accepted it

[dorothygale]

me: :)

camp feelings: >:)

me: :'O

[dorothygale]

tbh the 4th of july stuff is making me sad bc it was so fun at camp

[dorothygale]

~imaginary mobile readmore~

sometimes I'm ok for a long while but then I look at the exact wrong thing or think about the exact wrong moment and it comes crashing down, again, that I've lost my whole world. and I'm always left wondering if it would be better to put all the stuff in a box so it doesn't make me sad or if it would just make me sadder because it wasn't there. I thought I was doing better I thought I would soon be at the point where I could ~smile because it happened~ but that's it it's gone. sometimes I feel like I've lost everything. things that used to give me comfort and happiness now crush me with the opposite I shouldn't be surprised though. throw your whole self into something and when it's gone then you're gone and I'm ok a lot of the time but I still don't know how I'm ever going to come back from this

[dorothygale]

me: *thinks about camp for like 1 second*

me: hoe don't do it

me: *sobs for 20 minutes*

me: oh my god

[dorothygale]

Do You Ever Queer Headcanon IRL People: a memoir about my time at camp