You are Ayaka's hidden lover who escaped from Inazuma.
Dear Beloved,
It's been a few years since you have left. I hope you remember me. Time seems to have slowed down since then. Isn't it ironic? I am in a nation where time is compared to the speed of lightning, yet each second without you feels as if it were an hour. Some part of me wishes I have taken your offer to escape with you, but my duty confined me. Even to this day, the responsibilities of a Kamisato daughter still looms around me.
I wonder how my life would've been if I took your hand? Would I be free of traditions? Free of the social hierarchy? Free to love you out in the open? All these questions in my head that I wish to answer. And yet, I know that they would never be heard.
I still love you (Y/N), Even if my future is bounded me to be married off. I hope you at least remember that. And if you do remember, When this is all over, we can have a picnic in the forest. Just how we planned.
Note: This letter might seem all over the place, but that is on purpose. I believe all love letters are messily written. The reason is that emotions are hard to convey on paper. Also, this letter is written to seem a bit more serious than the last, so sadly, not that many silly remarks in parentheses. With that being said, please enjoy this confession letter from our local ginger-haired harbinger, Childe!!
Dear Beloved,
Time sure does fly fast, huh? It felt like just an hour ago I was drafting up this letter to be sent to you, but now looking at the clock. I must've spent at least five hours on this. Fun fact, I now have a little pile of used papers covered with crossed-out words now. Seeing I'd be a waste to throw them out. I'll use them as target practice later or throw them at the other harbingers (Scaramouche preferably, his short height would make it perfect to use as training to hunt smaller beings).
Moving on, Did you know I have taken up reading more books? The librarian of the official Snezhnayan library looked so surprised when I checked out a stack of them!! It was hilarious seeing them freeze up and stutter an excuse when I playfully glared at them and "demanded an explanation for their hindrance."
I should stop dilly-dallying and get to the point of this letter. "Fortune favors the bold," right? Hopefully, fortune will favor me once I get to the purpose of this letter.
I feel so many new emotions when I hear about your day. You make me feel human. That should be normal, A human-like me feeling human. Well, it wasn't. My family was the only ones who made me feel like that. Then you come in strolling your way into my life with no regard for your safety despite me being a dangerous man.
I hate how your smile would light up my world. I hate how your rambling about your day makes my lips quirk up into a smile without me forcing it. I hate that you panicking because of me made me hesitate in going headfirst into battles. I hate how you made me feel weak in my knees. Like I don't have enough blood on my hands to paint Mondstadt red.
Well, that's what I thought anyway. The fatui did not train us to understand our emotions. When I felt this warm feeling in my chest whenever I thought of you, I panicked. And what does a rational person do when panicked? Ask an expert. Unfortunately, I am not a rational person and have subjected myself to instead dive through many books regarding emotions. It did not take a while to get to the cause of why I felt warm around you. It turns out I'm in love.
Would you look at that? You made me fall in love. Did you know that being in love is not normal for the fatui? Well, now you do. Snezhnaya stopped believing in true romantic love after the organization that I work for formed. Still, you and all your glory made me feel it.
So I take it back. I treasure love how your smile would light up my world. I cherish how your rambling about your day makes my lips quirk up into a smile without me forcing it. I adore that your panicking made me realize that I love something more than the heat of battle. I love how you made me feel.
But I am not an ordinary man. I do not delude myself into thinking my sins will become forgotten when the new generation comes. I am anything but a man who can give you all that you truly deserve. Yet, please allow me to be selfish.
I want to be the first person you smile too when your days start, to be the person who helps you haggle prices when we go to the markets, to be the person who you drag out to dance when music plays, to be the person who you listen to ramble sweet nothings when we go to sleep, To be your boyfriend.
I know I am not worthy of it, but allow me to be bold and ask for the position of being your one and only. You do not need to answer this letter immediately. I just request that you will respond. You could draft a reply decades later, and the words in this letter will still remain true. I love you, родной/родная*. And although I do not deserve it, I hope you feel the same way.
*родной (m) родная (f) = dear
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How are you? Perfect question to start a letter to your significant other, right ;)? Anyways, Life has been boring ever since I had to leave for another mission. Do you remember the gremlin I told you about, Scaramouche? He's the one that is clearly in a constant state of wanting to be me. He has been my target since I cannot bask in your ever-glowing presence. In all honestly, though, even his reactions of annoyance are starting to bore me. I knew I was right when I said that you are the only presence that keeps me alive!! Before you start drafting up a letter about being worried about that midget "hurting me" (We both know that midget could not hurt me :D), I assure you that aside from some bumps and scratches there, I am in good condition and will get back to you in one piece.
On another note, I heard that the traveler is visiting the nation you're staying. Knowing them, they must've stirred up some trouble. I hope you are safe. Seeing that you are the skilled being you are, you must be safe and sound right now. I'm sure not even the circus the traveler brings along can faze my дорогой/дорогая*!! If anyone (even the archons) bothers you. Just tell the nearest fatui agent, and I'll come running to fix it!! I do not want you to get hurt before the big surprise that I will do it when I get back!
My assignment is about to end soon. After four days, to be exact. Regarding the mission, I am on right now. It turns out the little fiasco that was a "coup made to overthrow the Tsaritsa" was just being exaggerated. A few talks here and there, and they were running towards the hills!!! I did have fun talking to their "big and scary" leader. It was amusing seeing their leader begging for mercy. I did not even start the big bad wolf speech I prepared!! Honestly, where are the manners of people nowadays? At least when I was still a lower-ranking Lieutenant, they would keep quiet till I finish my speech!! It's even worse since Scara-douche won't even understand my complaints and calls them "childish" (I do find it entertaining that he unintentionally did a pun).
Moving on, If I am not mistaken, you wanted me to come home with some local Snezhnayan materials? I made sure to bring home a ton (I do not know what you're going to do with them though). I made sure to pick up the ones with the high quality for you!! Aren't I the best boyfie you can ask for :D? I am pretty sure Signora did side glare me when I disappeared from a glossary meeting to collect some of the resources you wanted. It was worth it though, Plus, the meeting was probably boring, and time-wasting. Why do I have to discuss an event if everyone else already knows about it??
I was able to stop by and visit my family today (despite all the agents who can't do their jobs right). They all wanted to hear about the stories from the other nations, especially Teucer. I mentioned your name quite a lot. The elders, plus Teucer, and Tonia called me whipped while Anthon faked a gag!! I can't help it, your just so beautiful amazing wonderful perfect not to talk about.
It seems like the paper I am using to write to you is getting full. (I respect the Tsaritsa, but the "one paper letter to each person" rule makes me want to riot. >:[ I have tried loopholes but, Pedrelino is adamant in making sure "no spies get information out" I have been serving this organization since I was a teenager so I am pretty sure I am not a spy >:C!! ) I'll see you soon (Y/N). I love you.
