@forgaeven // continued from HERE
rhaena had felt compelled to ask the question. mostly out of curiosity, but also the part of her that did care about him. she'd stayed out of the war under jeyne arryn's wardship and despite them not being that close he was one of her remaining family members. but now rhaena knew she'd have to return to be their sister's side, her twin's side. she had missed baela and couldn't wait to be reunited. the letter had just arrived by raven and the preparations for her return were underway. this ultimately gave her enough time to talk to rheowyck and maybe say some goodbyes.
ultimately she felt somewhat obliged to be cordial with him and just try not to stir anything. her pale-pink little hatchling had been perched on her shoulder nuzzling against the side of rhaena's head. one of the only good things to come out this war, for her anyways. it kept her mostly calm and grounded as she awaited for whatever else her brother would say next. she felt certain he had more to say. when the words did come out though her immediate had been to just sigh. thoughts and images of their shared father did flash through her mind. but most of her true feelings remained complicated. she had always felt baela to be closer to him than her. her past insecurities over not having a dragon had certainly not helped her case either.
"when i was told about what happened to him, i felt sad. for him and his dragon caraxes," she managed to get out. her voice remained mostly quiet and her expression neutral. she had given herself a moment before when she'd received the news to grieve. now that the war had ended she's also sad he wouldn't be able to know she'd gotten an egg to hatch, at last. she wishes their relationship could've been different, but knows she can't change the past. "perhaps he cared more about the large scale of the family and fighting in general. but i do wonder if he felt good to have gone out the way he did." it made her think of the targaryen motto, fire and blood. in her mind it seemed like he had at least died by those words. in a sense.
