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Temporarily moving back to Vent (and some other places we’ve used in the past for journaling) until we’re done with the move and we have a chance to either revamp or remake. 

You can still get in contact with us through this blog but we’ll be paying a lot less attention to it during the move, everything is very hectic and we’re not prepared to deal with a lot of the emotional stuff that tumblr dashboards like to throw at you every day. We’ll still check messages/asks here and respond to other messages you send us outside of tumblr if you have contact there. But otherwise we’re gonna be away for a while, focusing on getting done what needs to get done in our life. Sorry about that! Please do talk to us though :)

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curled up on the couch in the quiet listening to the candles flicker and an owl outside while the sunlight slowly drains from the room didn't get anything done today.

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Honestly not a lot better than yesterday but it all feels very far away now. I think I’m the only person remotely close to front today. I can hardly hear anyone else. Remus and Ghost and Gunner a little, but it’s very very faraway. Feels like a fire burned through and now everything is raw but covered in ash inches deep. We’re going to stay away from tumblr as much as possible in the coming days I think. If you need or want private contact don’t be afraid to ask. Sorry I’m such a mess.

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Well most of that’s done and I want to die.

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Okay ne er midn were still getting messages and I don't want to open the computer again to turn off anon and I don't understand why everyone thinks were doing something bad but won't explain what and 9 just thinks it's best we disappear for a while

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Hands are shaking so bad but people stopped sending us stuff except the “calling your bluff” he just got I guess which is good

i dont understand why him asking for space turned into such a shitstorm??? i dont understand i want to die ok i’m sorry

maybe wwe should just stop being on tumblr altogether? if we can thandle this

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Who am I kidding? No one’s ever loved me.

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I didn’t ask to be here! I would have been so much happier back there, you know. I had people who loved me, i’m sorry here to ruin my day and fucking everyone else’s