#(( character development. ))

[helicalsymmetry]

i think my brain tried to give me an anxiety dream (you're taking an essay test on multiple books you haven't read!) but i just did not care. i went up to the teacher at the end of the class and said 'hey i didn't do this test. it wasn't a mistake, i just didn't know any of the answers.' and then i left and did something else.

[magnolia-rhodes]

magnolia + core + aesthetic on pinterest

[popshmip]

HOLY FUCK WILLE LEARNED FROM HIS MISTAKES

[mknbrd]

EVENT : the debriefing of BARBARA MORSE, aka MOCKINGBIRD, in relation to abduction and time spent on skrull planet. SUBJECT : barbara 'bobbi' morse, phd. formerly known as agent nineteen. former shield special service, level seven. former reserve avenger. DEBRIEFING AGENT : agent lindsay wheeler, level seven. DATE : october first, two thousand and fifteen, 09:15 hours. LOCATION : classified.

WHEELER : thank you for joining us, miss morse. i'd like to start by — MORSE : doctor. WHEELER : excuse me? MORSE : my title is doctor.

[ wheeler's hand tightens a bit. bobbi doesn't watch her much, just stares directly over wheeler's shoulder, straight into the security camera on the other side of the room. she's in a fishbowl in here, feels eyes on her from all sides. she has felt this way for three years — it no longer makes her want to crawl out of her skin, but she can't say the feeling is comfortable, by any means. ]

WHEELER : doctor morse. excuse me. i'd like to start by asking if you know why they chose you. MORSE : i'd like to first confirm that barton is not, and will not be privy to this debriefing. WHEELER : that's none of your— MORSE : i wasn't asking, and even if i were, i'm not asking you. i am informing the director that he is either removed, or i walk.

[ wheeler opens her mouth to respond, but then leans into her earpiece. bobbi waits for a long twenty seconds, visibly fighting the urge to leave, and looks into the camera until wheeler nods. ]

WHEELER : barton has been removed from the room, and will not be able to access this debriefing later. why did they pick you? MORSE : i was easy to replace. i have no powers. in the grand scheme of superhero work, i'm an easy trial run. WHEELER : your file spells out a good record with high marks. MORSE : i'm a great spy. that's why i'm still here. but their priority isn't spies. it's superheroes. if they can figure out how to replace the superheroes with powers — what good is a nine millimeter against a skrull thor? WHEELER : understood. let's start at the beginning. MORSE : it was april twelfth, two thousand and twelve. WHEELER : we have you listed as flying into los angeles from new york. MORSE : i was in the restroom in the c terminal at dallas international. i think they were disguised as facilities staff. WHEELER : you think? MORSE : i was knocked out, and woke up in a simulation of the west coast avengers' mansion. i can't tell you anything about the in between. WHEELER : so, bobbi morse leaves new york— MORSE : h'rpra shows up in los angeles, dies two weeks later. WHEELER : . . . h'rpra? MORSE : that was her — it's name. the one that replaced me.

[ bobbi looks down at her hands on the table. they are both her hands and not her hands. ]

WHEELER : what happened when you woke up? MORSE : i was in los angeles, in the mansion. or it was a replica. barton was there, he was making burgers. but you know that feeling where — where something's just not right? everything felt a little too calculated, a little too perfect, and barton — he looked at me like he was happy to see me, but that wasn't right. we'd been arguing so much for months on end, being near each other in any capacity was draining. we were exhausted of each other. i'd told him three three weeks prior that i wanted a divorce, and he was fine ith it. he shouldn't have been happy to see me. WHEELER : and then what happened? MORSE : i stabbed him in the neck with a skewer and ran. broke through a window and found myself in a skrull facility. he was chasing me. he thought it was fun, that i was running. it was a game to him, one that went on for the entire time i was there. WHEELER : did he have a name?

[ bobbi shifts, uncomfortably. the urge to crawl out of her own skin returns. ]

MORSE : i only knew him as clint barton for the first two and a half years. that's all he called himself. that's all anyone called him. he knew what clint meant to me, and he knew — no matter where i was, no matter what i was doing, making clint into the face of the thing trying to destroy me would haunt me. but there was one time — i'd broken into a house. there was a pair sleeping in there, and i killed them both, and i took food and clothes, but he was waiting for me.

he came out of the dark, and he laughed. he called me birdie, and he told me he loved me, and that he knew i'd come back to him eventually because i loved him. and he tried to touch me, because he always tried to touch me, and i just remember — i blacked out, and when i woke up, i was on top of him, and i'd killed him...

[ bobbi swallows, blinking rapidly. ]

MORSE : i'm sorry, what was the question? WHEELER : did he have a name? MORSE : right. there were more there, and they took me. somewhere between that house and their headquarters, they called him s'kova.

[ bobbi picks at a hangnail. wheeler watches her for a long moment. ]

WHEELER : we can pick this up again later, doctor morse. MORSE : no. i'm okay. i want to keep going. can i just get some water? WHEELER : let's take a fifteen minute break.

[ THIS INTERVIEW CONTINUES AT 09:45. ]

[lucreziasredwyne]

TO GRIEVE FOR ONESELF; AND EVERYTHING THAT ONCE CAME WITH IT. 

the recent death of lord mathis rowan has no doubt taken a toll upon the entirety of the reach council, however it was the straw that broke the camel’s back in regards to lucrezia redwyne. months and years of habits and internal thoughts will be playing a role, and i will be exploring this new phase where they take hold of lucrezia’s thoughts and impression of herself. 

below the read more, you’ll find a list of behaviours lady lucrezia redwyne will begin to exhibit and the thoughts/reasons behind it. tw: depression, anxiety, death

the reasons for lucrezia’s behaviour/thoughts can be sectioned into long term and short term. 

long term: the isolation and loneliness of being an only child on an island. the pressures of being a woman and being the sole heir to the arbor. struggling to find the societal balance between being a lady and having to captain the redwyne fleet. the want to have a family of her own, versus fearing her mother’s fertility issues, the blood of the birthing bed and how it was the ultimate death of her mother. the way she was culturally raised to be a representation of not only her house and her parents, but her values, her belief and her history. the inherent need to want to please and be accepted. to inherent need to feel wanted and desired. insecurity regarding her self-worth and her value in this world. her appearance and her body weight. 

short term: the volatile, unstable situation within the kingdom of the reach since cedric took the regency. what feels like constant warring and violence and bloodshed in regards to the iron islands war and now the civil war. the idea of being away from the reach and those she had grown a dependency on. the idea of being queen of the riverlands. her turbulent secret relationship with omer florent which ended in blurred lines and heartache. the feeling of being betrayed and lied to, and shamed by omer. the feeling of worthlessness she feels since losing her maidenhead. the shocking, disturbing death of mathis rowan and pressure she feels to try and ensure he is buried properly for the sake of the gods. the feeling of losing her best friend and his stupid laugh and his quiet looks from across the room when he was wondering what the hell someone was on about. the feeling of losing the great, easy love of her life the ballads speak of. guilt, so much guilt in choosing not to pursue something with him.

so interestingly, the short term definitely outweighs the long term. she was handling the long term relatively well, and short term was the tipping point. 

BEHAVIOURS:

continuous low mood that goes beyond the usual process of grief (this will show in time)

feeling hopeless and being increasingly negative, which is very different to her usual nature. 

having a lower self-esteem than ever; she will doubt her ability to be a good queen of the riverlands and her place in this civil war. she doubts her place in people’s lives, and what she means to them. she believes herself to be dirty and used and unclean, and needs to repent. she does not believe what happened with omer was from love. she does not believe he loves her; how can you love someone and withhold such information from them? therefore, she sees herself as a whore and that she lost her way.

her eyes seem almost permanently tearful, as though the smallest thing could cause her to cry. a lot of the time she is not entirely focused on the conversation at hand, and does not tend to cry in front of others - though she can. 

she has a lack of motivation, paperwork, taxes and petitions will pile up on her desk whilst she usually was very good with her time management. she struggles greatly with the development of her island.

finding herself dazing out of conversations and having to ask people to repeat themselves, both in council meetings and outside. 

feeling increasingly anxious; she overthinks and worries about the smallest of matters.

huge changes and dramatic swings in appetite; there are days she eats a lot and days she eats little. there is little change to her weight because of this reason. 

a serious lack of energy despite the fact she sleeps more than she did in previous weeks and months. she is mentally and physically tired, a lot of the time, and you will often catch her yawning behind her hand.

she is increasingly avoiding her friends; she will pull out of plans or say she has too much work to do.  this even includes the likes of illya oakheart and meredyth rowan, especially since the death of meredyth’s brother.

she neglects her other hobbies and interests apart from prayer when not working; she prays for hours, and has been introduced to septon androw and septa lyra as a result of her melancholy. she believes in order to feel a sense of self-worth, she needs to feel the love of the gods once again; she needs to earn their forgiveness. 

[ohartemis]

highlights of artemis’ filmography.

There are numerous films that credit Artemis Rhea, spanning over three decades, but the works she has grown most known for are the more arthouse movies. Cutting edge, artistic, atmospheric. As of late, Artemis has found an interest in darker subject matter and psychological horror.

The Boredom of Teenage Girls is a coming-of-age movie that stars Artemis Rhea and Triteia Lykaios, filled with competitive athleticism, toxic female friendship, growing pains and a side of murder. It’s the first major movie she stars in without Apollo on her side. Looking Back is a dramatic, atmospheric film about a young woman tied to the life of crime she was born in and doesn’t know she wants to escape. It’s considered one of her strongest performances to date. Diana is experimental, surrealistic romance movie, equally adored and thought pretentious, where Artemis’ character Diana moves with the tides. The lnunt is about the beasts we hunt and how the woods will hunt us, one day. Artemis got to flex her bow and arrow skills on set for this. Currently in selected theatres, check it while in Olympe!

[insp.]

[minotaurus-archive]

FILE / character parallels.

DAVOS SEAWORTH / a song of ice and fire & game of thrones: “I am a hollow shell, the crab's died, there's nothing left inside. Don't they know that?”

    ↣  Takes his punishment dutifully and sees the opportunity within it. Finds justice in said punishment. Devoted to Stannis as Mino could grow devoted to Hades. Makes a mortal into a god. Cognisant of his own bad sides. Of low birth, turned to criminal activity. Pragmatic. “A smuggler must be a fair judge of men.” INEJ GHAFA / six of crows duology: “What you want and what the world needs are not always in accord, Kaz. Praying and wishing are not the same thing.”    ↣  Part of a heist crew. Pious and religiously traditional: where Inej names her knife after her saints, Mino makes near-daily sacrifices for Chaos, drops of blood as the result of violence. In love with a man who’s filled with greed. Courageous. A skilled fighter. High moral compass despite doing morally questionable things. TERRY JEFFORDS / brooklyn 99: “I need to eat 10,000 calories a day to maintain muscle mass!”   ↣  Freakishly strong. Protective streak that’s hard to match. Soft core. Hard worker, but down for some shenanigans. This gifset, for the Dusa of it all. High masculine energy combined with an innate softness for those he cares about. Anger. This gifset, for the Zag of it all. MORE /  ↣ Hot Priest / Fleabag: “Love is awful. It’s awful. It’s painful. It’s frightening. It makes you doubt yourself, judge yourself, distance yourself from the other people in your life. It makes you selfish. It makes you creepy, makes you obsessed with your hair, makes you cruel, makes you say and do things you never thought you would do. It’s all any of us want, and it’s hell when we get there. So no wonder it’s something we don’t want to do on our own.”          Pious and hot. Listening to Jenny from the Block while drunk alone. Why wouldn’t you want to believe in God? It’s beautiful. Fuck you calling me father good boy like it doesn’t turn you on just to say it.   ↣ Nick Miller / New Girl: “Where are you, Theseus*? This place is fancy, and I don't know which fork to kill myself with.”           Grump. Messy adult. The Nick to Theseus’ Schmidt. This.   ↣ Remus Lupin / Harry Potter: “Fear makes people do terrible things.”           Think yourself a monster, but what’s made you that? The friend who keeps quiet. Mischief maker. Haunted by the past.