spark . i wonder how distorted reze’s sense of self is — she was taken as a child, ran experiments on &. subjected to harsh military training that presumably occurred throughout her whole life, already sealed with certain expectations by an imposing force much bigger than her. childhood is such a formidable &. especially malleable point of a person’s life; &. reze wasn’t able to develop her own personality at all because she had her agency stripped away from her. her speech, her mannerisms, her body, her physiological reactions, her entire being are all under tight control by the government. she was essentially groomed to act a certain way, violated to the point of having a portion of the bomb devil implanted inside of her. this part especially is so on the nose; i can’t believe reze isn’t in the same discussion as denji &. aki when it comes to the horrifying effects of trauma &. abuse; but...! i digress-
only a mannequin. a role. an archetype. following a script to reach an unattainable ending ( to steal the chainsaw man’s heart; hah! ) written by an authoritative power, by the soviet union. raised by a wire mother. she was never a fully realized person but a living breathing doll created to serve a purpose. a shell without a ghost.
no wonder she was too good to be true — she only acted as the prototypical teenage dream for the naive &. lonely boy to fall for. but damn... did she fall into her own web of lies in the process. reze really did believe, wanted desperately to believe, she could get that happy ending... the country mouse &. the city mouse.